Today i m at my cousin's house..... nortx feeling veri well..... stomach cramp..... n yet Ms Oh call me n ask me mus go sailing if nortx need mc.... pls lohz.... stomach cramp horx... dun play play.... dun understand wad she ish thinking n even Mr Neo oso agree..... lets see if he ish a gal n wad he will do lohz.... damn.... aiya dun care lahz... my mum say rite letter ok liao..... if every mth gt sailing tt means i gt to see doc fer 12 times a year issit..... no brain de lohz.... fer god sake.... nvm.... .then today ish such a boring day.... miss him veri much.... lucky i m able to see him tml..... haiz.... but i realli do hope we can go bak to the past.... i will wait de.... wa lao eh.... my muscle cramp lyk mad lohz..... den i nv eat my dinner..... hahaz.... fall asleep again.... hahaz.... anyway i m goin bak home early in the morning.... shld i say i go bak my mummy's bf house to stay..... hahaz.... then my sis.... yeah can get rid of them.... hahaz.....

~the saddest gal ish full of hopes~

Today gt training at Clementi.... wid the China coach..... i go meet Crystal n Jeremy in the morning lohz..... Pei Jun oso.... hahaz.... den go take MRT lohz..... then we reach the Clementi Sports Hall early lahz.... den go loitering abt lohz.... den after tt Deirdre n Jing Si come liaoz.... then go inside do warm up liaoz..... actualli arhx.... i dun realli understand wad the coach ish tokin abt lohz.... i cannot even understand alot despite of i m a chinese pro.... hahaz.... see.... then the training quite siong lohz.... after a while him come liaoz..... he ish late manz..... den train lohz.... then do footwork wid him..... omg.... i dun even dare to look at him.... ish nortx becos of feeling akward ish becos of i scared he step on my foot..... pathetic manz.... den juz a tiring day lohz.... den after tt we packed up then Crystal n i go bath lohz.... then when we come out, Jeremy n him ish waiting fer us... hahaz.... then we left wid them lohz.... den after tt Crystal n i go eat mac.... then the guys leave 1st..... haiz.... y.... nvm.... Crystal n i was having a nice chat manz..... hahaz.... gossip al tis.... then after tt we go bak lohz... but i m goin to W'lands.... when i reach W'lands, i go meet PK n Sarah lohz.... then i noe tt Sarah ran out frm home.... haiz.... the world change manz.... then after tt i meet my mum n go home to pack n throw the things lohz.... then after tt go to my cousin house.... oh damn.... no sweets at al..... hahaz.... then i fall asleep le..... miss him lots.... haiz....

~the saddest gal suffering at hell~

Today gt training at Clementi.... wid the China coach..... i go meet Crystal n Jeremy in the morning lohz..... Pei Jun oso.... hahaz.... den go take MRT lohz..... then we reach the Clementi Sports Hall early lahz.... den go loitering abt lohz.... den after tt Deirdre n Jing Si come liaoz.... then go inside do warm up liaoz..... actualli arhx.... i dun realli understand wad the coach ish tokin abt lohz.... i cannot even understand alot despite of i m a chinese pro.... hahaz.... see.... then the training quite siong lohz.... after a while him come liaoz..... he ish late manz..... den train lohz.... then do footwork wid him..... omg.... i dun even dare to look at him.... ish nortx becos of feeling akward ish becos of i scared he step on my foot..... pathetic manz.... den juz a tiring day lohz.... den after tt we packed up then Crystal n i go bath lohz.... then when we come out, Jeremy n him ish waiting fer us... hahaz.... then we left wid them lohz.... den after tt Crystal n i go eat mac.... then the guys leave 1st..... haiz.... y.... nvm.... Crystal n i was having a nice chat manz..... hahaz.... gossip al tis.... then after tt we go bak lohz... but i m goin to W'lands.... when i reach W'lands, i go meet PK n Sarah lohz.... then i noe tt Sarah ran out frm home.... haiz.... the world change manz.... then after tt i meet my mum n go home to pack n throw the things lohz.... then after tt go to my cousin house.... oh damn.... no sweets at al..... hahaz.... then i fall asleep le..... miss him lots.... haiz....

~the saddest gal suffering at hell~

Today go swimming lahz..... hahaz..... they go swim lohz.... i rest manz..... then me together wid al the aunties n mummy go KFC lahz..... they tok i listen n do my maths lohz.... oso gt eat lahz.... eat one big pizza..... yeah..... hahaz..... then they tok abt sch lahz..... those auntie realli horx..... hahaz.... den the weather abit veri bad lahz.... they after tt they go bath then we al go to my cousin's new house lohz.... veri nicely decorated lahz.... then suddenly..... my hp rang.... i didn't noe at 1st.... ish my cousin tel me de.... when i get near..... the ringtone ish the song "waiting"..... oh god..... he call me..... i m sooo happy..... it has been a mth+ dat i nv heard this ringtone le..... but when i wanna pick up, he put down..... den after tt i call him lohz.... he juz wanna tel me abt the training time al this..... haiz.... juz onli lyk tt then ask me to pass msg.... but then ish beta den nth lohz.... at least i go to see him on the training days.... yeah..... smile always..... zettai daijoubu.... hahaz.... anyway my mum they all keep playing mahjong lohz..... i cannot play..... my mum lahz..... hahaz.... den i go watch tv..... till abt 9 sumtin.... i go see my mum play mahjong.... suddenly my fone rang again..... ish "waiting" yeah.... but he juz wanna confirm wid me abt the time lohz.... haiz.... hahaz.... gd then...... hahaz.... then we go home gt prob.... cos al together plus my cousin ish 6 person..... no choice gt to split liao..... den i go home use pc fer a while den slp liaoz.... ZzZzZz

~the saddest gal with miracles~

Today arhz.... i sleep till 2pm then wake up lohz.... the past 4 days too siong liaoz.... need to sleep longer lahz.... hahaz.... today my mummy's 5th aunt come lohz..... she bring her kid..... which ish my aunt(grr..... younger than me..... who wanna call her.... go to hell manz....) then juz tok n tok n tok lohz....veri sian lahz..... my whole body ish aching lohz..... veri pain lahz..... den after tt i keep doin my maths lohz.... too many days nv revise liao..... die arhx.... dunno still can remember al the things i have done nortx lohz.... then do music theory paper..... hahaz.... still veri tired lahz..... den my cousin jio me go Jurong swimming complex.... i mean tml lahz.... wa lao.... wan to swin arhx.... my sis sure go de lohz.... boring day..... damn tired.... ZzZzZz.....

~the saddest gal's lonely day~

Today gt sailing..... wake up veri early lahz.... at 7am.... oh gosh..... quickly go meet dem liao.... Wen Xin n Trivia ish father fetch den Rasyiqah nortx feeling well..... so i goin wid Joey.... at the bus interchange, i saw Farah..... so we goin together..... by the time we alighted,we have nortx much time to hail a taxi liao..... but den got one foreigner go snatch..... oh damn..... den luckily gt one taxi..... hahaz..... we reach dere juz in time.... ppl haven start lesson lohz..... hahaz.... den evveryone ish dozing off..... cos of the yesterday camp..... nobody realli have enough slp lohz.... hahaz.... den the theory ish damn long.... den after tt we go set up n sail liao.... me n Joey again.... hahaz.... well.... when ish our turn.... veri sway le..... the dunno wad thing came out lohz..... so we gt to use Nicholas de tropper lahz..... hahaz..... wa lao.... damn difficult sia.... nearly capsize.... hahaz.... den after tt when pulling de boat bak horx..... veri difficult lohz..... i get the trolley tt ppl nv go pump air de lohz..... havin a hard time especially yesterday juz finish the competition.... siong arhx..... hahaz.... den after tt wash al this lahz.... then al walk to bus stop lohz.... they al takin bus 36 but Trivia,Wen Xin n i takin bus 31..... on the way rite.... the Rachael keep provoke me lohz.... some more today ish 25th.... i realli dun understand y she had to provoke me at the wrong time..... realli wanna cry manz..... always she make me miss him even more..... haizz.... den halfway rain veri heavily lohz.... we 3 al drench liao lohz.... hahaz.... den we wait fer the bus then go Tampines Mall to eat lahz.... hahaz.... den accompany Wen Xin to go buy her Jolin CD lohz.... hahaz.... den i go arcade fer a while then go home lahz.... go home den slp liao lohz.... too tired liao.... hahaz....

~the saddest gal ish veri tired~

Yeah! Today juz come back frm camp..... gd sia.... hahaz.... the torture.... the hell.... hahaz.... the 1st day ish mainly the rules al this lohz..... but then the meals nortx really veri nice lahz..... then got too many physical training.... then my stamina become beta..... the running i m the 1st gal manz.... hahaz.... but then i keep dash arhx.... damn tired lohz..... then when refill the water rite.... i mean in between the training lahz.... then the Rachael make me damn angry n sad..... i nearly cry out.... but i mus smile..... haiz.... today i see him horx..... i dunno wad to say.... but to pretend manz..... haiz.... then at nite rite.... trouble.... it ish lyk hell..... i nearly lost my jacket al this.... lucky i can get bak lohz..... then at nitez slp in the hall de stage..... veri cold lohz.... i at nitez crying..... juz can't help it..... he seems to be so cold to me.... me,Kathy,Daphne,Verlin,Evelyn they al cannot slp.... al tokin.... then 2 then slp.... but end up too cold le..... then we go classroom rest fer a while then go prepare..... then today de competition lyk yesterday..... borrow socks frm Kathy.... then i onli win Pei Jun at the 1st round..... then Crystal ish win me by 1..... Jing Si de ish the worse..... 5-0..... then after tt the elimination round i fence wid Nicholas...... he keep hitting my hand n i hit his body..... but end up i lose.... 15-9..... hahaz.... think he let me de lahz..... i so lousy..... hahaz.... but then he ish the overall champion.... then at nitez rite.....we noe who in our team..... i in Nicholas de team.... wid Jing Si n Koon Chwan inside.... lucky me nortx the same team as him lohz.... but then the paper put if team D(his team) win arhx.... i gt to compete wid him lohz.... i veri scared le.... cos i will be damn soft-hearted lohz....after tt we quarrel wid the sec 3 gals fer the place lohz.... everything gd de they take lahz.... end up they in the open-spaces lohz..... then everyone slp quite early oso lahz.... at abt midnitez horx.... they Pearlyn n Crystal dunno go where le.... hahaz.... den i slp till 6 wake up lohz.... after we finish preparing horx..... we sit near the piano..... then ish juz nice i see Clarence then i cal him lohz.... ish nortx becos of Rachael..... then she tot i realli make fun of her.... den she keep saying "where ish Jun Yuan??" it hurts.... then juz nice he come down then she start to sprout nonsense lohz.... lucky Wen XIn,Trivia n Crystal stop her lohz.... actually i wanna cry out wan.... i m feeling veri bad le..... but i try nortx to..... haiz.... then he oso dun wanna tok to me.... issit he take Rachael's words to heart??? i dunno..... i wish i can noe wad he ish thinkin lohz..... haiz..... then go have breakfast.... quite nice de lahz.... hahaz.... den after tt mus prepare fer de competitons liao..... noe wad..... the epee teams horx.... TSSA lose to PRCSD..... i gt to compete wid his team manz..... but then when the 2 teams ish competing, i m the timer fer the men foil team lohz..... then Harry oso there mahz.... i tel him i m veri nervous..... yet he tel me tt PRCSD ish winning.... den he say "ur bf inside mahz" wa lao i damn nervous.... dunno wad to do..... then PRCSC lose to PRCSB..... then tt ,means the winner (either PRCSA OR PRCSD) will compete wid the team lohz.... my 1st competition of the day starts at after lunch..... anyway i onli fencer 1 time fer the thing.... the Nicholas sub me lohz.... but even i fence i os won fence wid him lahz..... i fence wid Clarence lohz.... i win by 5-3..... trying veri hard.... den when later on Jing Si ish goin to fence Jun Yuan, she say"i m goin to trash ur lover" hahaz..... she horx..... hahaz.... but after the hard work, we lose to them..... Nicholas gt abit nervous i think.... nvm de.... but nw we r fighting fer 3rd n 4th.... i oso fence 1 time.... which ish fence wid Ronald..... i veri scare wid him.... nearly step out of the piste..... cos i cannot attack him oso lahz..... i lost by 4 points..... after tt Koon Chwan,Jing Si n Nicholas catch bak lohz.... gd fer them..... our team gt 3rd.... gt medal.... hahaz.... then the teams tt fighting fer !st n 2nd horx.... his team win lohz.... hahaz..... the TSS nv realli win alot lahz.... onli fer the foil n Sabre lohz.... hahaz.... then after tt Home Sweet Home.... i go home wid Yanni n Joey.... hahaz.... tts al.... go home n bath, unpacked then fall asleep lohz.... hahaz.... tml gt sailing but my muscle ached lyk hell..... hahaz... haiz.... but then i still miss him..... dunno when i can see him..... haiz....

~the saddest gal who ish waiting fer miracle~

Today i go fer 1hr piano class.... hahaz.... deprove alot sia.... hahaz.... den i go home.... my mum ask me to bath n go orchard.... omg..... hahaz.... we go there shop lohz.... my mum buy cds.... my sis buy hats..... i go there onli buy comics.... hahaz..... then at there eat ice cream lohz..... i next mth den go buy clothes lahz..... haiz.... gt to prepare fer fencing camp liao.... dunno wad to say oso.... gt to see him.... realli speechless lohz..... haiz.... juz hope tt i won cry at nitez lohz.... but i gt my frens..... bez frenz..... hahaz.... zettai daijoubu.... smile always rite? i cannot cry cos i doubt tt he lyk to see me in this state..... juz hope tt the 3 days will be juz fine..... but i 1 mth nv see him le.... realli miss him lots lohz.... hahaz.... btw today my 2 cousins come to my house to stay till nxt sunday.... hahaz... lucky no need to hear their voices fer 3 days.... if nortx arhx.... wan to study oso cannot sia.... mus study hard.... huray!!

~the saddest gal crying~

Today i go to Hougang to finish knittin my shirt.... wa kao.... c the person's face make me puke.... damn her.... but i tolerate..... but den my nect ish damn pain..... then after tt we go eat western food lohz.... quite nice lahz..... hahaz.... then uncle drive my sis n mum go 7-11 to buy top up card.... the mean while i listen to the radio.... 93.3.... haiz.... the letter tt ppl send in rite.... ish quite similar to mine prob.... haiz.... really juz hope tt he will come back to me... my tears roll down my cheek when i listen to the letters ppl rite in.... i m sooo touched..... haiz.... i will wait fer him de.... nobody ish gonna stop me.....

~the Saddest gal crying~

Friday 19 November 2004

This ish my new blog.... i still gt use the previous wan... http://amethyst_gal.blogspot.com.... so pls visit both of them..... hahaz.... mm... today i m veri sad.... i call him but yet he seems trying to put down the fone..... i m trying to be normal u see..... haiz.... i oso dunno wad he wan lahz.... try my best nortx to cry but yet, i still cry.... cry fer more than 15 mins.... Joey say he change 180 degree..... to a veri different person i noe liao..... he juz nw trying to make me angry n put then the fone.... think he ish trying to make me hate him..... but dear.... too bad.... i will nortx de.... cos i love u dearly n don leave me alone.... i will not give up.... zettai!! lets see....

~the Saddest gal crying~