today went out with joey , steve and junyuan . siian . my head till hurts . not only for headache . still got yesterday swimming that time collide with junyuan's head . so pain . sobsob . =((

nothing much . i saw my cousin there while HE cycled me to lock his bike . hahas . then find her and talk lohhs . waiting for joey . she was late for about 1 hour plus . hahas . cos she overslept . XD

then went to white sand to buy riona's birthday present . though it is still early , aiya just buy lohhs . i bought a pink pooh bear . share present with the stupid jeremy . nevermind . as long he return me money can lerhhs . joey went to elizabeth's church .

then went to junyuan's house . hahas . steve starting to play maple liaos . seems having fun . lols . after that we went to meet joey at downtown east .

eat something then went to play arcade . arghh . so pissed off with my sisters . >_<

after that i was shivering . not feeling very well . even now , i am having a headache . arghh . siians .

tomorrow must go to riona's party . must be very fun . hahas . =))

i miss you .
what about you ??
love you always .

confession ; sick and pissed off .

today went to tampines swimming complex with junyuan , des and cheryl . hees .

we were having lots of fun there . hahas . so nice . =))

then i went to see doctor . i got stomach flu . then excuse from PE till next week . hahas . no training . yeah !! i am free !! lols .

nothing much . today quite happy .

tomorrow going to pasir ris park to cycle then afterward don't know will go where . looking forward for it . =))

I MISS YOU .
love you always .

confession ; happy always .

hmm . nothing much . got headache and slight fever today . arghh . maybe tomorrow then see doctor bahhs .

never go ptm today . cos no mc annd nvr go to sch this morning . hees . headache and fever mahhs . bo bian .

my results all like shit . 2 A1s . 1 B3 . 3 C6 and 1 D7 . arghh . stupid . lousy results nehhs . lucky my mum never tio suliha if not she very unlucky . she seems very buay song suliha . lols . who ask her to be so step . hahas .

say i sleep on class . is her class too boring lerhhs lohhs . lucky i never go if not i will shoot her back . =p

yeah . today steve , iman , des , cheryl and junyuan come . miss him too much . hees .

dizzy . got his care and concern is enough lerhhs . love him <33

i love you .
wanna be with you always .
missing you all the time .
mwackiies . <33

confession ; HEADACHE !!

i am sick . feeling so dizzy . but i still got to work . arghh .

hmm . i took the bus overshot . siians . then take back to hougang then take taxi . headache and fever till i was crying there . wish that he is by my side . =((

go there eat panadol . then very dizzy . swinging here and there . skip my lunch time in order to go home early .

went home straight away sleep . haiiz . he never ask how am i . am i feeling better .

tomorrow maybe not going to school . well , it depends . my body now cannot take it lerhhs . got to rest now .

dear . good luck for your practical exams .
jia you worrs .
i will give you all my luck .
love you . =))

confession ; sick .

tomorrow not going to school . don't feel like going . hees . but then cos steve last minute not free , i end up got to help my mum work .

arghh . actually intend to go cut hair de nehhs . =((

no choice lohhs . siians .today stay at home rust . so boring .

I MISS YOU LOTS !!

sorry for the things .
yeah . i owe you a big big apology .
sorry my dear .
i just want you to know that no one can replace you afterall .
i will always love you .

confession ; i love you <33

hmm . i am so tired .

aircon is finally fixed . yeah !! i don't have to sleep in a warm room . hahas . =p

yesterday went to swim . well , having so much fun there . i won steve in swimming frog style . hahas . =p

then after that went to suntec city . accompany steve to buy jacket for his brother .

well . i just only can say from yesterday till now , i am so happy . it is a secret . bleahs .

i will alwayys love you .
think it through .
i will never give up .
you are precious to me .
sorry for the bad and
thanks for the goods .
please always keep in my that ,
i need you . <3
wanna be with you .
hope that things will be just fine .

confession ; living with happiness .

today i am kinda of pissed off . some part is due to mood swing .

i played basketball with des , cheryl and junyuan . des and cheryl one team then junyuan and i one team . guys are not supposed to shoot . then all the way is cheryl and i shoot lohhs . i score 7 then cheryl's team score 4 . hahas . =))

then after that they went up to my house . suddenly my mum came back . hahas . she was very furious as house is in a terrible mess .

hmm then suddenly something that make me speechless . cos junyuan never call my mum when she came back while the others did . then my mum says : why you never call me ??

then junyuan says is to give her a surprise . then don't know what they talking about . suddenly my mum joke to ask him to call her mum . oh my god . i am like so embarrassed and speechless . x))

well , after that we went to KFC to have dinner . nothing much . talking about ghost stories . hahas . then we went back to my house .

no time to watch show . all thanks to some of them . keep on downloading songs . make me so irritated . hahas . well , though i am angry , junyuan manage to make me laugh . can't stop laughing . i think maybe thats enough bahhs .

tomorrow we will be going to swim at tampines swimming complex . hope that everything will be fine bahhs . =)

i miss you .
you are my everything .<3

confession ; hoping for a better day .

I AM SO OBSESSED WITH TWILIGHT !! TOTALLY FALL IN LOVE WITH IT !!

hahas . oh my goodness . it is so nice . i finished reading within 3 days . i just simply can't stop reading . VAMPIRE LOVE . =))

i can't wait to buy the next book . new moon . AHHH !! too obsessed with it . can't stop reading it again and again . no book has ever caught my attention as much as twilight . not even harry potter .

okok . stop my madness and come back to the events .

i never go to school today . so siians lohhs . stupid suliha . ask me to go back to school to pass up the form . nahh . i am not going to do that . waste my time .

then i went to tampines mall with qiaoyan and yuanshan . i bought a white color dress and qiaoyan bought the same design but purple color . quite expensive but nevermind lahhs . hahas .

then we walked around . after that i meet miaochan and shunlai at arcade . the rock fever machine no music . oh god . i play more jia lat . then play photohunt .

after that qiaoyan , yuanshan and i went home . cheryl and des at my house but too bad junyuan never come . perhaps tomorrow bahhs .

well , i am not going to training for tomorrow . my sisters too . i scared there will be an upcoming trouble for the 3 of us . lets pray hard nothing will happen bahhs .

haiiz . i simply miss him too much . i wanna see him tomorrow . sweet sweet love .

confession ; obsession of twilight .

hmm . today no school till sunday !! actually tomorrow have to go school but then don't feel like going lahhs . =p

actually today have training . oh darn . is mr neo so desperate for training ?? arghh . i never go . this week ain't going for any training . just tell bixuan i got rashes can lerhhs . waste my time niia .

yesterday got back physics paper 2 . i cried like mad . the results is very disappointing . 43/65 . this is ths lousiest and most disappointing results among all the others . i knew that i did not put in enough effort and i can do much more better . i know that . but why ?? haiiz .

well , just now desmond , cheryl and junyuan come to my house to watch movie . hmm . surprisingly he got come . well , can say that i am having a nice day bahhs . =))

tomorrow i am going shopping with qiaoyan . hmm . going to buy the same dress . hahas . too bad qiaoyan is going to school tomorrow . well , all thanks to ms foong , never go to school on yesterday . arghh .

nothing much . just that kinda of miss him now <33

i miss you !!

confession ; missing you .

today is a mental torment for almost everyone of us . getting back results . >_<

well , i failed badly for DnT . i don't give a damn . hees . ask me to pass up the folio , fat hope . tell my mum lahhs . i not scared nehhs . what can you do ? as i said , i only scared of one person . see whether you can find out anot . =p

i failed my english paper 2 but i passed my paper 1 with 36/60 . got improvement . hees . maths paper 1 . so many careless mistakes . arghh . 50/80 . not very happy with the results . i pass my social studies with 29/50 and history with 25/50 . phew . just pass my history . =))

today i cry for nothing . i said that if i never get 60 and above for my chemistry paper 3 , i will cry for sure . i get back the paper , i get 59/65 . my tears rolled down my cheeks immediately . after that , teacher check answer with us . i keep on asking for marks . then i get 61/65 . top on class with 94% with aaron . hees . yeah !! i win nelson !! =p

just now just help yuanshan to edit her blog . in a mess mans . hees . hope that she will like it bahhs . =))

tomorrow will be doomsday for me . physics paper and chinese paper . oh dear . i wouldn't want to see the stupid paper . =((

where do i stand in your heart ??
i am always wondering .
hope that your answer will be similar as mine .
you occupie a large portion of my heart .
it will never disappeared .
I MISS YOU !!
good luck for your o level biology practical exams .

confession ; mental torment .

such a boring day . >_<

i have a question in my mind . when you help other people , will you request for something in return ??

i cannot understand why when people cannot get something , they will just shout out ' i just help you with something , shouldn't you help me in return ?? '

help means help . no need return . if you help someone just to get something back , mind as well don't help isn't it ??

haiiz . i am so confused . sometimes i will also like that . just simply can't understand why we will do that .

tomorrow get back results . well , another mental torment . this torment seems to be neverending . horrendous . after the results torture , next will be relationship . i just simply hope that i won't go mad . i am on the verge of getting mad .

I MISS YOU <33

confession ; IN CONFUSION .

i am so pissed off today . all thanks to steve . promise me to help me ask junyuan whether wanna come my house watch show anot . i help him ask miaochan . end up i got to do all the job all by my own .

no phone . what is public phone for ? then why yesterday don't want to call . what the hell . i was looking forward nehhs . i have enough of this kind of last minute cancellation nonsense . all thanks to him telling me last minute that he haven't tell junyuan at a late time , i ask then end up saying next time . arghh .

arghh . hmm . today i went to exercise with shunlai . after running run round , we end up chatting then eat lunch . hahas . exercise become chatting session . lols .

after that actually intending to bathe lerhhs then meet shunlai go play rock fever . end up mummy at home . i was shocked mans . hahas . cos house is in a mess . hahas . then end up i got to clean . then cannot go out lohhs . siians . =p

everything gone down to the drain . arghh . i just wanna see him . for awhile can lerhhs . why must make things so difficult for me ?? i wanna spend as much time as i can with him . i don't know what the outcome will be but i just wanna be with him if possible . because of him , there goes my chance .

i don't understand why miaochan or joey must go then he will go . is he really that desperate ?? i always wanted to say this straight to his face . if they never go , whole thing cancel . what the hell . if just now junyuan say can but miaochan cannot and you cancel , i wouldn't forgive you . arghh . very pissed off .

i mean like i just simply cannot tell him all my unhappiness straight to his face . i still need to maintain and control my temper . but then is like what the hell . i never say anything but that does not mean i am an idiot for him to fool around .

well , hope that it won't happen again . i don't wanna spoil the day and my image in front of the person i whom i love .

i just want you to know that i really care about you .
i am afraid that i am unable to be with you again .
i just wish to spend every minute and every second with you .
please understand .
i knnow that i am selfish .
but i can't help it .
i am afraid of losing you ,
afraid that everything will be gone .
sorry for my selfishness .
dear , hope that you undertstand
and know that ,
i will always love you .

i love you .
wanna be with you .
; pwincess selina .

confession ; I JUST SIMPLY LOVE YOU .

i just reached home . kinda of in a very bad mood . =((

anyway , NO MORE PAPERS LERHHS !! so happy . chemistry paper is indeed very easy . hahas . then DnT arhhs . i don't even give a damn about it . so sians lohhs .

well , after that i went to play bowling with steve , junyuan , iman , yongyi and his girlfriend . my skills , as per normal , lousy . then nothing much lahhs .

steve today very bad temper . it affects my mood terribly . then plus my mood swing , end up crying in the toilet . after that come out also cry . but junyuan very good lahhs . managed to make me smile in a short while .

after playing bowling , we went to tampines mall . iman went back home . hmm , on the bus , not that i wanna be anti-social . is like i seems to be a 'lightbulb' lohhs . cannot totally blamed steve . i don't think he wanna sit with me bahhs .

i never eat anything . i am in a very bad temper . already in a very bad mood and yet need to see people's face . what the hell . you bad temper but that doesn't mean that i need to tolerate you nonsense . if is not because of HIM , i will shoot straight right to your face . seriously , i hate all the last minute cancellation . so irritating and troublesome . just because no miaochan or joey then cancel . what the hell .

i went to century with miaochan afterwards to play rock fever . nothing much lahhs . then meet them back then go another place to eat for people haven't have their dinner .

again , in bad mood . thus , walkinig very fast . angry , i didn't even have the apettite to eat lohhs . but also nothing to eat lahhs .

hmm , actually wanna take bus opposite the library . wanna spend more time alone with him . but yet steve insist of taking bus at interchange . sometimes he really don't know when to do approprate things at the right time . asking junyuan to send me home . i am afraid to go home on my own at such a late time , but if he don't want then nevermind bahhs . i hope that he really do .

tomorrow will be going to exercise with shunlai . hope that he don't ps me . hahas . then at night will have movie marathon . muahahaha . good nehhs . =))

sorry for showing some bad attitude .
i don't mean it .
loving you always .
hope that you will still remember that . =))

i love you .
wanna be with you .
; pwincess selina .

confession of a pwincess <33

just now eat dinner with miaochan , shunlai , zhiyuan , gangjie and peter . eat malay food . miao eat alot lohhs . as if one week or longer never eat anything . hahas .

after dinner , we went to buy fire sparkers and play . but too bad zhiyuan , gangjie and peter went home lerhhs . left the 3 of us playing lohhs . hees . sit at the playground chit chat , play catching and listen to music . =))

anyway , today got maths paper 1 and chinese paper 2 . maths arhhs . coodinate geometry is forever my killer question . always die at the question . siians . then chinese , i was too tired when i was doing the comprehension question . do till nearly dozed off . hees . =p

tomorrow got history paper . hmm , guess i only study world war one and russia bahhs . don't really understand the china revolution . hees .

after the paper i will be meeting shunlai for running . gosh . long time never run lerhhs .

hmm , got to study now . hees . =))

I MISS YOU VERY MUCH !!

i love you .
wanna be with you .
; pwincess selina .

confession , truth from my heart .

SHAG ARHHS !! I CAN'T IMAGINE I HAVE MADE SUCH STUPID MISTAKE ON MY COMBINED SCIENCE PAPER 2 . THAT IS SO RIDICULOUS !! >_<

well , i cried after the paper . i can't stop crying . about 10 marks gone . am i stupid anot ? thats so PATHETIC . people keep on confort me and says that can use my chemistry results to pull up , but thats not enough . i wanted to be TOP IN LEVEL for combined science . even if i got full marks for paper 3 , it seems to be impossible .

my dreams are shattered . for always being good in sciences , this is a 'critical hit' to my morale . i don't have any confidence anymore . i can't stop thinking of this .

people told me that it is over and let it be , but the disappointment of myself , it will never be gone unless miracle happened whereby i have no other mistakes in the paper . which is totally impossible .

i don't know what to do next . i know that i never put in my very best . i am not decisive . keep on changing my answers . from correct to wrong . guess from this , i have learn my mistake . but whats the use ? can i retake the paper ?? NO of course !!

at the moment when i cry , i just simply feel like hugging him and wish him to be by my side . last time i could , now it only can happen in my dreams . hugging him and cry seems to be can relieve all my discomfort and sadness , it calms me down .

when i cry , he used to be by my side all the time . now , only friends . some people say things that will not calm me down but agitate me even more which make me feel worse . they don't know how disappointed am i and say things just like it is nothing .

well , got to prepare for chinese paper 2 and maths paper 1 . =((

i simply wish that you are by my side .
i wanted to cry .
i am in this pathetic state .
no one understand me .
no one except you . =((

i weanna be with you .
; pwincess selina .

confession ; truth from my heart .

sleep the whole day . so tired . miss the party quest cos i overslept . arghh . >_<

tomorrow got exams . siians . english paper 2 and geography paper 1 . no need to study . hahas . =))

I MISS YOU SO MUCH <33

i love you .
wanna be with you .
; pwincess selina .

confession ; truth from my heart .

yesterday too busying studying so never blog . >_<

hmm , yesterday the social studies paper . i would say is average bahhs . neither hard nor easy . but not enough time for me to write . =((

then i went home take a nap , after that woke up to do maths questions . siians . do till my head really hurts . arghh .

after dinner study geography till 2 + am . so tired lohhs . actually today wanna wake up at 5am to study , but i am really very tired . oh man . the 2 days add up together , i didn't even sleep for more than 4 hours . thats pretty bad .

the maths paper . shit lahhs . more than 20 marks gone i think , though some questions are totally the same as the other school paper's question . not enough time . some people even lose about more than 30 marks . that's alot .

geography . well , i managed to study 4 BIG topics within 20 minutes . some questions i don't know how to do . but still can manage for most of them .

after exams , i went to safra to meet steve , junyuan and des to play bowling . well , as per usual , i am the lousiest . my ball don't roll and my fingers are stucked that it is very difficult for me to throw .

my sisters don't have key so they came with miaochan to look for me . i lost the game so i got to treat the guys drinks .

hmm . then we went to KFC to eat lunch . well , on the way i wasn't feeling very well , got headache . i think my body has meet the limit and cannot take it lerhhs . with so much stress and pressure that my head cannot take it . so didn't eat anything . i wished that he will show me some concern .

today is lantern festival . supposed to celebrate with my cousins or with junyuan they all . but i overslept and i am not feeling well right now . so this year didn't get to celebrate . but tomorrow should be fine i guess . :)

next coming paper is english paper 2 and geography paper 1 . well , i got to study for my geography . siians . =((

i really hope that everything is gonna to be fine .
well , at least you know that i am not feeling well .
gosh , i feel like crying again .
with failure in my maths paper and the stress and pressure .
i am going to crush into pieces .
if it is not because of you ,
i would have give up .
thanks for everything .
i love you alwayys . <33

i love you .
wanna be with you .
; pwincess selina .

confession ; truth from my heart .

HAPPY FAMILY x))


PAPA , NUER , MUMMY <33


NUER AND MUMMY . smiles . =)


HAPPY FAMILY !! <333
[[ ah ma , papa , nuer , mummy ]]


BAOBEI NUER AND ME !!


those are the photos we took on saturday . nice anot ?? hees . =))

so boring . i am studying social studies right now . arghh . so many things to memorise . my head gonna burst anytime . siians . >_<

today i never go to school , so did aaron . hahas . i woke up at about 1pm . studying at home till i went out to meet junheng and edmond at mac to study together . hees . =D

my papa came just now . bought some delicious food for us . hees .

exams starts lerhhs . arghh . maths and geography on friday . i gonna flunk the 2 subjects for sure . siians . hope that everything will be fine bahhs .

oh ya , aaron called me and say jingming said that mr loh never come today . stupid sehhs . should have go to school today . wasted . arghh . >_<

tomorrow he never go to school cos he got no paper . siians narr . =((

shunlai , thanks for your encouragement !! i will jiayou de . =))

dear , i really miss you alot .
sob sob .
no concern , no encouragement and never even say jiayou at all .
well , it may be my wild imagination .
i will work hard tomorrow .
love you always . <33

i will always love you .
wanna be with you .
; pwincess selina . <33

confession ; truth from my heart .

just come back from my cousin's house . went there study with junheng and edmond . hees . everyone is so busying study there . =D

well , today the lessons are so boring . i can't help to sleep in geography class . so siians lohhs . i prefer history to geography i guess . hees .

today check our results . i PASSED my english . hees . both humanities got C5 i think . maths , i got an B3 . quite unexpected lahhs . hahas . i got TOP IN CLASS for combined science . yeah !! i win nelson again . hahas . 3rd for chinese . but .. i got LAST IN CLASS for DnT . F9 . it sucks mans . arghh . >_<

hmm , tomorrow confirm not going to school lerhhs . don't wanna waste my time get scolding and all this shit . maybe aaron will accomapny me . hahas .

nothing much lerhhs bahhs . haiiz . i still didn't get to see him . so sad . hope that i can see him on thursday bahhs . he must be studying real hard now . so i don't wanna disturb him . good results is more important then relationship . hees .

i am thinking how to spend my time for tomorrow . boring . studying for social studies . i wanna get very good results . jia you bahhs !!

I MISS YOU SO MUCH !!

i love you .
missing you .
i wanna be with you . <33
; pwincess selina .

confession ; truth from my heart .

just came back from maths tuition . regina is indeed naggy . =D

well , just now everyone was laughing like mad . i made too many funny comments lahhs . hahas . but well , at least it was not so dry and boring . =)

today i was slacking in school . doing nothing lahhs . so siians lohhs . i can't imagine i passed my history with a B3 . thats pretty good . hahas .

i just got back the test on weathering . well , ms foong was very angry with my results . i failed with the marks of 5/20 . very bad right . hees . bo bian narr .

hmm . anyway by tomorrow i must get all my chemistry and physics past year exams paper . so that i can do as i am going to absent myself on wednesday due to the stupid DnT foilo . i go to school lohhs . all thanks to DNT . arghh . >_<

haiiyo . cheryl and des don't know who keep my ez link card . the couple so forgetful de . hahas . =p

hmm , i must study for exams lerhhs . panic panic panic . hees . =D

but i can say ... i miss him too much . didn't get to see him today . sad nehhs . =(

i miss you so much .
i wanna see you .
i wanna hear you voice .
you are my everything .
can't live without you .
love you FOREVER <33

i love you .
wana be with you .
; pwincess selina .

confession ; truth from my heart .

siians . nothing to do today . too tired to go for tuition .

yesterday stayed at cheryl's house . i sleep on the sofa . too tired lerhhs . watch less than 15mins of Eight Below then sleep lerhhs . all thanks to steve and des lohhs . play gunbound . i finish reading my theory book they still playing . cannot stand them mans . =p

hmm , yesterday i accompany steve went to junyuan's house to borrow clothes from him as steve got to go work today . then we borrow bicycle from cheryl . mine still ok . but then steve's bike tyre flat . then he go change another one .

after that , he realised the other one also flat . so we went to the petrol station to pump air . and thus , we realised that both tyres burst . then we cannot go anywhere . neither i can pull the bicycle back nor go to his house on my own . so we waited for junyuan to come lohhs .

junyuan helped us to bring the bicycle to tampines mart . before that , i got frighhtened by steve . he cannot cycle and pull another bike so he must cycle me to tampines mart . *though i wanna junyuan to cycle me there , but too bad steve cannot pull the bike . =( *

then was like very scary lohhs . he don't know how to cycle with a person behind . shaking here and there . then i was screaming lohhs . scare me to death mans . then end up steve cycle junyuan to tampines mart then junyuan pull the bike . i cycled on my own . but then due to the fright , i was stunned and cycled till nearly knocked into many things . >_<

after that junyuan went home lohhs . thats so sad . =(

today i just simply watching cheryl and des played maple lohhs . we eat our lunch together then i went home lohhs . so tired . tomorrow still got school . argghh .

thats was so scary .
how i wish that you can cycle me there .
well , good luck for your tomorrow physics paper .
next friday then we go out bahhs .=)
take cares .
god bless you and i will always love you .

i love you .
wanna be with you .
; pwincess selina .

confession ; truth from my heart .