hmm . today my head really hurts . spoil my entire day . arghh . i cannot concentate in class . don't know what to do .

ehh . seriously i don't know whether people hate me or what . whatever i do , they just simply can find something link to dear . just like mr azhar . well , i talked to dear , merely just asking about the test as i have no clue of what is going on in the class . then he said that everytime he turn around he will saw us talking . he said that he want to ask mr loh to change our places . well , try doing that then . it just that he keep on catching me talking to dear . i talked to the others as well and of course , i DO concentrate in class .

first of all , i am absent for the test . next , when he went through the test , i am absent too . lastly , he can't expect me to ask xinying as she was absent on the other day too . so i wonder what he expect . make me a joke out of nothing . i don't mean to ask things while he is talking . i just wanna know what is happening around . nothing else . well , whatever . i don't want to care about this kind of things anymore . *rolled eyes*

oh ya . ms foong . i can't believe she asked sabrina , xinying and i take the test today . is like yesterday is cca day , so we can't take . today our class ends so late , where got time to take . in addition , we haven't study for that damn test . at first xinying wanna take the test . she end up also get pissed off so never take lohhs . the three of us are very bu shuang lohhs . tomorrow take the test also won't kill right ??

after school got maths remedial . actually i wanna went home when school ends as i am feeling unwell . my head hurts , feel like vomiting and i am feeling so cold and numb . but mummy got to go orchard for her treatment thingy . so i got to stay in school . =((

the maths remedial was quite noisy because it is made up for 2 classes . the class is too noisy to concentrate . so i decided to find teacher in another day . i can't believe that she also know about us -_-

after remedial , we stayed back for class cheer . then i went to the hall to look around . i have talked to mrs tan . she wanna asked me to write a statement to let my sisters dropout of school . i don't what to do . i think she has already given up hopes on them .

well , i am not prepared to do such stuffs . too sudden lerhhs . i even beg her to think of other alternative . well , there is a way out but it all depends on my sisters . it is up to them i guess . if they wanna quit , then i will have to do the job bahs . haiiz .

now it seems that i am feverish . better rest and later gonna study for that damn geography test . just in case she wanna give us the damn test . whatever .

with love ; TONS of problems and troubles .

hmm , today is so boring . nothing much i guess .

ehh , i get back my maths common test . well , i don't expect a good grade since i got that damn migraine when i was taking the test . anyway , i got 28/40 . an A2 . i know i can get better . but nevermind lahhs . (:

something really made me very disappointed and angry of myself . science overall results . i got 3rd in position . lost to jingzhe who got 85 and dear who get 86 . it is like so crap . i am always top in class lohhs . this is unexceptable . CONGRATS TO THEM anyway . (: i MUST work very hard to win dear . LOL .

oh ya . today i also got learn the dance steps for the cheering competition . well , the steps are quite nice though a little confusing due to the fast beat . but i am having so much fun !!

after school , i am so free . no training as i am on MC . then is like the other fencers went to bedok reservoir for a run . poor thing . hahas . maybe next week or this saturday then join them lohhs . it depends .

mummy fetch me from school . she brought me tampines mall to buy books . dear tagged along . nothing much lahhs .

well , my mum don't know about us but know that we like each other . thats fine with me . LOL . siians . now i got to worry about the damn PTM . hope that nothing will happen . i will try to prevent some stupid problems .

anyway , she find that dear is a nice guy . LOL . of course , i also got add in many things lahhs . hahas .

with love ; CONTENTED .

today i never went to school again . my head really hurts . >_<

anyway , i feel much more better now . both my head and my heart . well , i should say all thanks to dear bahhs . you really brighten up my day . of course , my dear friends also have a credit !

i really miss him alot . too bad . we can't talk on the phone and sms . only way is to treasure the time we have in class . of course , we mustn't lose concentration in class . we must do well for our tests , exams and of course , O levels . if i never do well , i guess teachers will look for him for sure . =p

so first thing of all , i should recover from my migraine as soon as possible . the damn headache really affect my results , like geography and chinese . seriously i can't imagine that i just pass my chinese test , 25/50 . this is so ridiculous . i MUST work hard . not only for myself , but for the both of us .

anyway , today i went to my mum's working place . she insist of asking us to go there . too bad we cannot stay there so we went to parkway parade to spend our time . after that we just simply sit in mos burger and do homework lohhs . so boring . end up we went back ourselves as mum work till very late . nothing much i guess .

hmm , heard that next week got many test . OH KAMI-SAMA !! ONEGAI !! give me a break . i got TONS of homework not complete due to my absence in class . my god . dear says that i got a stack of worksheets under my table . i am SUFFOCATE with homework and test .

FOR GOODNESS SAKE , GIVE ME A BREAK . in such environment , how am i suppose to recover from migraine ?? i wonder .

dear , i really miss you alot .
sorry for not being understanding .
i know that i am so wilful .
i just wanna let you know that i love you and you are very important to me .
lets us work hard together !

with love ; with DETERMINATION .

haiz . now i am still feeling damn guilty and bad . i just can't help it .

anyway , this afternoon i went to bugis to buy something . i bought a wallet . emily the strange . it is cool . then i bought a new pencilbox . it is very nice too . well , i also bought a new mathematical set . finally . i love the color . it is purple in color . (:

i went home with my sister afterwards . nothing much . just that i have tons of homework to complete . i am dead lahhs . still got that damn geography test . after missing so many lessons , i realise that i am so confused with the maths topic locus . crap crap crap ... got to ask mrs see to teach me again . >_<

now studying for tomorrow's geography test . well , everyone is telling me the different thing to study . oh crap . ask dear and guess what i get ...

I CANNOT SMS AND CALL HIM ANYMORE . his mum is unhappy . well , come to think of it , it is my fault again . curse myself for sending that damn sms at wrong time ...

haiiz . but after talking to joey and jingzhe , i hope that tomorrow i will know how to react in class . things are getting so hard for me that i can't even have a space to breathe .

i really feel like getting a MC tomorrow . i wanna run away from the reality . my head really hurts . haiiz . oh god . kill me please !

haiiz . suffering from this damn depression isn't nice . but how can i ever stop worrying and adding on stress to myself ?? i wouldn't wanna give up this relationship .

whatever . let's see what will happen tomorrow .

i feel like killing myself .

with love ; in DEPRESSION .

today i never go to the class cheer rehersal . i am simply too tired . but it seems like everyone is having so much fun .

nothing much . some things happen today . i guess i am indeed a troublemaker . i bring misfortune to people who are dear to me . i am much to be blame . always a jinx to everyone .

what can i do ?? i feel so useless . i only can sit back and wait . nothing else .

I JUST WANT PEOPLE WHO ARE DEAR TO ME TO BE HAPPY . I ASKED FOR NOTHING ELSE BUT THAT .

i lost my appetite and my damn head starts to hurt . i can't take any pressure . i feel like falling backwards .

i wanna cry my whole heart out , left with no tears . i wanna cut myself , to take away the pain and guilt i am suffering from . i wanna knock my head against the wall to make me forget everything .

I AM SICK OF EVERYTHING BECAUSE I AM A JINX , A USELESS BITCH WHO CANNOT DO ANYTHING .

i just wanna tell you that i am sorry for getting you into trouble . i am really very sorry . i can't do anything but to say sorry . that is the most i can do .

thanks jingzhe and qiaoyan to listen to my problems . i appreciate that .

with love ; feeling USELESS and HELPLESS .

today i am on MC again . FIRST thing in the morning , i received a very sweet message from dear which brighten my day !!

at 1st my mum bring me to the polyclinic . but then she got very pissed off because firstly , there were MANY people . next , my mum don't really trust those doctors and nurses in polyclinic or non-private hospital . then my mum just simply brought me back to the original family doctor lohhs .

well , i was given a month's prescription . must take my medicine everyday to prevent migraine . no choice lahhs . got to do that for my own good .

after that , my mum send me home . i was preparing to go to school and revise for my maths common test .

hmm , i went to school , the 1st thing i went to the hall . then those people who knew that i am absent , were very surprise . but then is like so suay lahhs . come to school and first thing get scolding . whole fencers kena by neo lohhs . whatever lahhs . i don't care . i am on MC anyway .

after the damn meeting , i went to look for mr loh . he was in the canteen , eating with ms foong and chatting with lihui and michelle . well , at first things were going fine . but then after QIAOYAN came , mr loh and ms foong know everything . then mr loh say must thank him for changing the seat . LOL .

then the maths test . i am so nervous because everything is last minute practice lohhs . then is like my hands and legs are damn numb . then i have taken about 3 pain relief tablets . when i was taking the test , i blackout for some time . luckily i manage to get back to my mind . phew...

well , i would say that the test is fairly easy . some questions like the stupid histogram , i really don't know lahhs . it is over and i shall not think about it .

after the test , qiaoyan , dear and i went to central . nothing much . actually , i do find something strange . like got a strange aura .

i went back home then i received a call from my dad , asking me to go to uncle jason's house . actually , i am very tired due to that damn test and my head really hurts . but he insist of asking me to go lohhs . then i just wait for my sisters .

but then i realise that i couldn't go anywhere cos jeremy is coming to my house . like that lohhs . then is like i quarrel with my dad till i cry . is like so sickening .

nothing much . after awhile , dear come to my house . i don't wanna let him see me cry . but i just can't help it . thanks dear . without you , i really don't know what to do .

hmm , then we just chat lohhs . after that we just chat with jeremy . i feel very akward cos one is my present boyfriend and one is my ex boyfriend . i know it is nothing but i just help it . LOL .

but finally . jeremy and i can talk about our past relationship . for nearly a year , we don't really mention it after break up . guess now we are really BEST FRIENDS !! (:

tomorrow got cheering competition practice . hope that tomorrow will be a fun day .

i am willing to share all your burdens .
see you in this state , i really feel like letting you go though i am unwilling to .
but i believe that both of us will survive through this obstacle .
just wanna let you know that i love you and i will not let go of your hands .

with love ; feeling AKWARD >_<

seriously , i really hate migrain . i wanna take the test also cannot . i can't even tolerate the stupid headache of mine till after the test . i went home at the 1st period of ms foong's lesson . my head really very pain till i cried . >_<

thanks for all my friends who are by my side all the time . teachers too . they are so concern about me . of cos , not to be forgotten , thanks dear to be by my side all the time . =)

my dad bring me home and i rest lohhs . so boring . nothing to do .

hope that tomorrow i can go to school cos tomorrow there is maths common test . i can't afford to miss any test cos i have miss 2 lerhhs .

oh ya . heard that today some people spread the news . darn it . so busybody for what . now i realise that guys are more busybody than girls . can't stand them . they and their damn big mouth . arghh .

anyway , dear brought my homework and test paper to my house for me . he is so nice , isn't it ?? hahas .

hmm , guess i tomorrow comfirm never go to school . if got time , i will go to school for the common test bahhs .

gonna miss me dear alot and i know that he will miss me lots too . wahahahas . lols .

with love ; HEADACHE !!

I HATE THIS DAMN MIGRAIN !! >_<

today my head really hurts . i don't know why . eat medicine also no use . haiiz .

dear come to my house and we go school together . my sisters never go again . don't know what they want lahhs .

just got back SS common test . when i see the results , i really feel like crying . but i can't . dear will start to worry about me de . 14/25 , just reach the class average isn't good enough . i know that i can do much more better .

well , today like usual , teachers 'target' the both of us . mr azhar disturb us , mdm tan also doing funny things and seriously , i don't know why nowadays mrs ang loves the both of us to answer her questions . last time she don't even wanna ask me lohhs .

after school i never go for training . luckily mrs tan let me off . then i waited for dear to go home nd put his stuffs then we went to white sand . he helped me to return the library books . after that we went to tampines . i ate KFC for my dinner .

then he accompany me to the clinic to see doctor . well , i wait for very long lohhs . anyway , i asked him to go home early as i don't wanna him to get scolding . if he get scolding just because of me , i will feel very bad . i don't think worth it lohhs .

after that he went home when my sisters reached there . waited for about 1hour , finally is my turn .

well , it turned out that my sickness has become worst . cos young people don't get migrain so easily and last for so long . so i was given a MC for tomorrow , excuse from PE and training till 4 march and i was given a letter to refer to polyclinic and hospital . oh god . seriously , i don't wanna go there .

i went home and take a rest . call dear and told him about it if not he will be worry like mad . i will try to go to school lahhs . but my sisters want me to have enough rest . anyway i also very difficult to study those bloody test .

dear , thanks for your love , care and concern .
don't worry , i will be fine .

with love ; LOVE , CARE and CONCERN .

today is kinda of boring . my sisters went out to watch movie with friends and boyfriend then leave me at home , ALONE .

luckily dear's surprise made me feel so... HAPPY ?? i don't know how to describe the feeling . hahas . as what i have said , he always gave me surprises . somehow , i LOVE them . hahas .

like what he did yesterday , i didn't realise that he is on his way coming to my house . hahas . always like that de .

well , we do homework together then he just accompany me lohhs . hehes . i am living with happiness and filled with love .

hahas . sounds so mushy . hmm , after that we went to tampines with him . he took MRT to sengkang . . oh gosh . i miss him alot =x nevermind . tomorrow i can see him in school for all i want . hahas .

hmm , i went around shopping . i bought BoA's new album . hahas . so happy . then i saw zhiyuan in century square . so he accompany me as he is waiting for miaochan .

after that my sisters come and look for me . well , i just went to buy dinner and we just went home lohhs . we saw shayne while we were waiting for the bus .

today uncle is going back to japan . hmm , gonna miss him alot . =)

finally , the school reopen . oh gosh . i haven't finish all my homework . darn it . hehes .

in love with happiness .

with love ; WITH HAPPINESS .

today is the 2nd day of chinese new year .

well , i never go anywhere . just simply stay at home to rot . hahas .

yesterday after i left aunt eunice house , i went to great grandmother's house then to another auntie's house . nothing much . didn't play blackjack cos i am really very tired .

i fell down yesterday . hook by an umbrella , lost balanced then trip and fell .

then i went home at about 12 + going 1am . so tired . but i am waiting for dear's message . i really miss his voice . we talked on phone for about 3 hours or maybe more than that . really miss him alot .

i have a nice chat with him then have my beauty sleep . hahas .

since today i never go anywhere , so i just laze around lohhs . anyway , dear trick me . i thought today he is very busy so no time to find me . but then he give me a big surprise by coming to my house and i didn't know till i call him and he asked me why my door is close .

hahas . he is always full of surprises . with him , i don't feel bored and lonely . he is so nice to come here though he is very busy . even though it is just only for 1/2 hour , i am already very happy .

then i accompany him to tampines interchange . just simply go top up card then i just went home . hmm , gonna miss him alot . hehes . nevermind . maybe tomorrow i will get to see him . hehes . hope that school will start soon . can't wait for school to reopen .

hmm , tomorrow we will be going to yihuan's house. maybe going out to shop . hope that shopping centre will be open bahhs . yeah !! shopping spree !! lols .

simply miss you .
i will always love you .

with love ; with HAPPINESS .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOEL !!

today is the 1st day of chinese new year . well , i guess it don't start off well . =((

many things have happened before daybreak . i hope that there will be nothing to make me sad again .

today is sort of a chaos . firstly , my dad on the music so loudly that my head really hurts . next , i can't find my blusher . anyway it is in my handbag . lols . lastly , i got to make a decision whether i wanna got to my mother side's grandmother's house .

well , first stop i went to my grandmother's house . after we reached there , the others came too . i received quite a number of red packets .

after that i went to another relative's house . then go to my auntie house , which is where i am right at the moment . well , the house is pretty nice and well decorated . hahas .

later i will be going to my great grandmother's house then maybe to my other auntie's house . i think maybe will play blackjack bahhs .

i am quite tired right now . maybe i really cry too much in the morning .

i miss him alot . due to some circumstances , i can't even message him . i have no choice but to be understanding . i don't want to let him worry about me anymore as he has enough problems .

i truly believe that the both of us can overcome this problems . no matter what will happen in the future , i just wanna let you know that i will be always be there for you .

cheer up and i will see you on wednesday . though the time without you will pass very slowly , but for your sake , i will put up with it . remember that i will always love you .

missing you always .

with love ; with DETERMINATION .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE !!

today is chinese new year eve . so siians .

in the morning , i went to bedok reservoir with dear , jingzhe and wenying . well , due to my stupid headache , i stopped at 2km . i walked with wenying while jingzhe and dear run ahead of us .

after that we went for a drink then jingzhe went home . dear went to cut hair .we went home first then meet him at bugis . he accompany me till i have to go off to fetch my uncle at airport . he and my sisters keep on make me very embarrassed . hahas . luckily they get along quite well with each other .

just now i went to my grandmother's house . go mother side then followed by father side de . they cooked many delicious dishes . but my stupid headache make me lose my appetite . sorry to my family members for being so restless .

haiiz . got 3 days to endure before i can see him nehhs . siians . i really miss him alot . maybe is because i see him everyday except for sunday . hahas . how nehhs . only can talk on phone niia . later i may be talking to him for the whole night . =))

with love ; MISSYOU .

ehh . today is HALF DAY of school . so happy . hahas .

well , no trouble for me . everything seems fine . people never disturb us lerhhs . dear had suffer lerhhs so i no need to suffer . hahas . but then it seems that ms foong is trying to pick on us .

after school , i went home to change . meet dear , jon , reuben , jingzhe they all at tampines mart . we ate our lunch then go to the LAN shop . i just stay there play maple lahhs . then they all play DOTA and CS lohhs .

after that wenying , chinkiat , joseph and leslie came . they cannot play so end up the guys go play soccer then i was sitting aside .

my sister madeline came afterwards . can't imagine that joseph never talk to my sister at all . oh damn . i really don't know what guys are thinking .

my sister is like so moody then dear and i got to cheer her up . well , she followed us go watch movie lohhs . only reuben , jingzhe , jon and sean join us , the others never go lohhs . we watch just follow law . so funny lohhs . hahas .

anyway , i saw yixi , yihuan , weiyang , seekhei , gangjie and zhiyuan . what a coincidence .

after that dear come to my house cos that stupid jeremy at my house . then was like something bad happen . haiiz . don't wish to say . that moron . i gonna chop him into pieces .

tomorrow still must go bedok for a run . must sleep now .

with love ; MIXTURE OF FEELINGS .

tomorrow i will have a big trouble for me . so sickening . whatever , i don't care lerhhs .

today i am on MC . curse that damn migrain . arghh . my head still hurts lohhs . darn it .

luckily tomorrow is only till 10:30am . seriously i am kinda of worry on how to stop those bo liao people 's mouth . siians narr .

i just find out something which make me hate the person . don't you ever dare to hurt my best sister's feelings . nobody can hurt those people who are dearest to me . try me if you dare . in conclusion , whatever things that you wanna say , kindly think of others feeling .

i got to rest lerhhs . tomorrow still got chaos to face . damn siians .

with love ; I HATE MIGRAIN .

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STEVE !!

today is the day filled with lots of love between friends , couples , teachers , students so on and so forth . we shouted HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to our teachers .

though i don't have a valentine partner , but i am quite happy lerhhs . people who know , shhhh .... =p

today kena tease by mr azhar for nothing . i never talk to nelson also kena tease . so paisehs . lols .

my date for today is 'neo' . of course is literally date . i got training but i went home early cos i got a damn bad headache .

the headache already last for one week plus so i decided to see doctor . well , as expected , i got migrain lohhs . then tomorrow i am on MC . but i will try to go to school lahhs . if not arhh ....

PRESENTS FOR TODAY :
caline ; sweet .
mrs see ; 2 pie .
mrs ong ; sweets .
joey laopo ; sweet .
fiona and qiuhui ; chocolate .

i think thats all bahhs . thanks for those people who gave me the presents . i appreciate that .

got to rest now . just eat medicine .

i have found you .

with love ; HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !

today i am VERY moody .

people who are close to me may probably know why . i shall not say anything about it . it really worsen my headache .

haiiz . i am very disappointed with my science common test results . oh damn . i can't imagine that not only that i never win nelson , the marks is on par . arghh . seriously i don't think i did well for the stupid test . 41/50 is absolutely too low and i can do much more better .

whatever . i don't want to care lerhhs . i just know that my head hurts even i have taken a nap .

slacking at today's training . never free fence at all .

tomorrow is VALENTINE'S DAY . seriously i hate this day .

WHO WILL BE MY VALENTINE ???

i don't want to get hurt again .
i want the truth .
but who knows when the truth is coming out from your mouth .
my heart is already wound .
don't hurt me again .

with love ; CONFUSED .

today i OVERSLEPT !!

i took a taxi and managed to get to school on time .

oh gosh . today in class i was like so embarrassing , blushing all the way . i think something is not right about me . nelson says i have strange expression but i am not telling him why . worst thing of all is he says he wanna find out why . wth .

hmm . today the common test is so difficult . i don't think i can make it this time . oh shit .

we also get back our english common test . well , though i never pass , i managed to get 11/25 . all thanks to someone who give me confidence . thanks .

ehh , today's training is so boring . no seniors except for daniel . well , i fence many bout lahhs . then i very tired lohhs . during PT , i got headache after i finish the 5 rounds . maybe tomorrow i am going for check up bahhs . depends lohhs .

seriously i don't know what you are thinking .
you make me wonder all the time .
oh god , save me from blushing .

with love , SHY ME .

why the world is so unfair ?? i am not getting what i wish for .

my house seems to be very 'cold' and odd due to the chaos yesterday . haiiz . i am going to die of stress and yet they still create more for me . i am the middle person standing on the fence .

TO SOMEONE IN PARTICULAR , thanks for your listening ear . without you , i may cry and do silly things . don't worry about me . i am fine now . thanks (:

today i just stay at home doing homework . siians . tomorrow there is one more common test and mr azhar haven't finish teaching . oh god . dooms day .

i wanna buy my wallet before chinese new year . when is my free day and time ?? i wonder .

i think i have fallen deeper as time goes by .
what should i do ??

with love ; confusion .

today went to bedok resevoir for jogging . qiaoyan in the end say don't want to go , so left with fiona , nelson , jingzhe and i .

well , i saw my friends , fencers of cos . they are also running there . luckily they never saw us . lols .

i ran about 2km then my headache occured . so in the end i walked finish the route . nelson accompany me and fiona and jingzhe run ahead of us . after that we went to a coffee shop to have some drinks then we went back .

i was late for my study group . poor guys . they waited for me for 1 hour . lols . sorry guys . we went to xinying's house to study . they very what lohhs . asked nelson to sit beside me . really speechless sehhs . at this moment , my mum called . then is like WTF , scold me for nothing .

i think it is very unfair to scold me as i have done my part . just that she didn't see that . whatever . i just knew that i talked very loud till the others were looking at me .

after study , we went to bugis . oh ya , i saw jeremy , daniel , wenxin and eugene chua at the mrt station . nothing much lahhs .

well , qiaoyan and i went there to shop and the guys went to the lan shop i think . qiaoyan and i walked around . wahh . so many people . then we went to eat strudel and have a nice chat .

after that , my cousin called and ask me to go home asap . heard that my sisters and mum are having a fierce quarrel . then my sisters seems to say something hurtful that make my mum cry .

we took taxi home then i just doing nothing lohhs . help to clean up . then went for piano class . i got headache now . end here bahs .

SERIOUSLY I CANNOT TAKE ANY STRESS AS I MAY BREAKDOWN ANYTIME ~

harrts ; DEPRESSED .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEREMY !!

today i am so tired after yesterday night accompany people to do foilo . >_<

hmm , nothing much happened lahhs . just that today the english common test is so dificult . maybe it is not but i somehow black out lohhs . i cried in the end . seriously anyhow do the paper .

science common test is so easy . well nazirul suddenly say want to compare . whatever . i don't give a damn about it . can win then tell me lohhs . cannot then get out of my sight . is like i already got headache then got such nonsense .

today is the release of O level results . i saw some people very happy and some people breakdown . the senario seems like 4 years ago when i was taking my PSLE results .

anyway CONGRATS to those people who do well . yenling jie , alina , ellyn , gawaine , ronald and those remaining people i have asked , congrats !!

somethings have happened . i also don't know lahhs . siians liaos lohhs . someone give me advise bahhs . haiz .

harrts ; tiring day .

just came back from toa payoh . went there for dinner .

today is just like per normal . lessons are quite boring . i nearly fall asleep . if i never talk to nelson , i confirm sleep de . hahas .

i was having a headache . i wonder when will it stop . how am i going to take both english and science common test tomorrow ?? very stress lehhs .

anyway , thanks for a particular person who keeps on encourage me . you make me believe that i can pass my english common test . thanks (:

today's PE lesson is very tiring . i run 15 rounds . it is around the cross country distance . i will continue to work hard to get better position .

got to practice my scales and study for science lerhhs . but seriously not much things to study .

it seems that i am sinking deeper as time goes by .
what should i do ??
i am afraid .
in dilema .
i can't decide . teach me how .

harrts ; in dilema .

today many things had happened .

firstly , i was late for school due to traffic jam . heard from yixi that there was an accident at loyang area . think there was a parent told mr ong about this and thus , people who took bus that caught in thr jam can get into school .

seriously i don't understand why people like jeremy can be late for school . weijie then all went to play soccer then late for school . serve them right . hahas .

next , i was having a headache when i was taking my chemistry test . it feels like it is tearing my head apart . luckily i managed to get the answers correct . it seems like when i am thinking about something , i will have a headache .

the last thing is NELSON MADE ME CRY . hahas . think i am really very angry to cry . i cannot shout as i will have a headache so no choice , i cried . he SEEMS to be remorseful . at least he apologies to me , both personally and message . anyway , apology is accepted . shall not think about this lerhhs .

there is training today . well , today there is a theft case . someone stole fadhil's wallet . they still haven't find out who . everyone in the hall , including the people in the detention group , was suspected . thus , a spot check was carried out . but nothing was found .

after training , mummy came to fetch us for dinner . after that dear came . many things happen in that instant .

seriously , now i am in dilema , don't know what to choose . i don't feel like thinking about the answer . it seems like i am sinking to certain things deeper and deeper . who is going to pull me up ?? i am sick and tired of everything . i have enough problems and stress that make me fall sick . sometimes disappointment can change all the perspective .

I JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF . DON'T YOU DARE TO MANIPULATE WITH MY LIFE .

harrts ; in dilema .

today is such funny day . :p

we went to the computor lab during the DnT period . then qiaoyan and aaron were sitting opposite nelson and i . aaron and i spammed qiaoyan's blog . the content really very funny .

after that nelson bo liao go love calculator and begin to do funny stuffs . type qiaoyan and weijie's name . 77% lehhs . not bad right . then arhhs . the stupid qiaoyan go type nelson and my name . gosh . 79% . of cos this isn't true .

worst of all is everyone start to go that stupid website . the jingming go be a busybody . type my name with jeremy . 95% . my 1st reaction is WHAT THE HELL !! i can't believe that mans .

anyway after that nelson and i did something funny during recess period . yesterday he asked me to find love poem and copy down . he rewrite , write weijie's name then put into qiaoyan's pencilcase . hahas .

after recess jonathan , nelson , reuben and i was wondering why she haven't notice it . she was like so blur lohhs . hahas . we keep on disturbing her by taking things from her pencilcase . hahas .

oh ya . forget to mention . today the chinese class also very funny . mdm tan was talking about if you have problems , who will you share it with . she asked weijie . then the whole class keep on shouting 'qiaoyan' . hahas . then she asked qiaoyan . the we all shouted 'weijie' . hahas . they liked so embarrassed lohhs .

worst thing of all is the qiaoyan go tell mdm tan that i tell my problems to nelson . of course , it is definitely not true . mostly all concern about studies . then after that mdm tan seems to keep on pick on weijie and nelson , of course also got mention qiaoyan and my name .

hmm . physics lesson that time i don't know what happen . mrs koh seems to pick on me . say i keep on talking to nelson ltr boyfriend angry . duhh . i cannot talk to him mehhs . hahas . nevermind .

today the training ends early at 5:30pm . mummy came home that time very angry . not that i do anything but is because of my sisters . don't know lahhs .

anyway i am looking forward for another interesting day !!

harrts ; FUN DAY !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FION !!

today got headache . damn pain lohhs . so never go to school . my sisters ate something bad and both of them are not feeling well too .

i went to see doctor in the afternoon . nothing much lahhs .

now i begin to wonder what qiaoyan say behind my back . hahas . when i find out tomorrow , i gonna scold her again . hahas . i find out something very interesting . tomorrow will disturb her about it . hahas . she is DEAD .

seriously , i hope that my worksheets won't fly away . don't know who is the person who collect my worksheet . pray hard that xinying got help me . >_<

heard that the tests are so difficult that even nelson worried about his physics test [according to jingzhe ] die liaos lahhs .

hearts ; confused .

today i went to downtown to study with qiaoyan , yuanshan , xinying , nelson , jonathan , reuben and jingzhe .

so sad mans . i was the 2nd last to reach , lose to nelson by abit niia . he gonna nag again when we plan for the timing and venue for the next study group >_<

actually we study at burger king . but somehow there were 2 irritating kids there . so distracting and the mothers were just simply chatting away . heard that jonathan scolded the parents indirectly . i scolded them indirectly too .

we studied for the 1st 2 hours . then it all started with qiaoyan , talking crap . hahas . then we disturb qiaoyan about weijie thingy lohhs . she like so angry that she made up nonsense . say yuanshan and jingzhe then nelson and i . wahh . we are so innocent lohhs . so paii sehhs lehhs .

hahas . too bad . monday she is gonna get it from nelson and myself . who asked her started with it . lalala ~~

then after that qiaoyan , yuanshan and i went to whitesands . nothing much . qiaoyan wanna buy some assesment books and the both of us bought some nice earring . hehes .

then we went home . for me , i go for my piano class .

seriously , i forget everything lerhhs . simply cannot remember . so paii sehhs that i cannot sight read well . lols . got lots of theory homework to do . must do that and revise for science . siians .

hearts ; having fun .

arghh . my head hurts . >_<

i am having a slight fever today . not feeling well .

never go for training as i am sick .

maybe i am really putting too much stress on myself lerhhs . all thanks to so many test and i haven't recover from the stress when taking the maths test .

tomorrow got study group . i think by then i will be fine bahhs . just kinda unfit for physical training .

stupid jonathan say i die liaos . never die before arhhs . lols . at least nelson says something nice . but then i really look pale arhhs . hahas .

anyway thanks to qiaoyan , yuanshan , xinying and nelson's concern . i am slightly better now .

good luck to the people who are fencing in the cadet and junior competition . =)

confession ; sick .

well , today is a DAMN LONG DAY !!

i am so sleepy lohhs . anyway today is very boring lahhs .

the maths test is quite ok but it makes me feel so tired after finish that paper . still can manage lahhs . history test seems to be gone case . i did memorise the points . i don't think i will have much mistake on that . but then is ALL THANKS TO MY 1ST STATEMENT . '..... is the most important reason ' and yet behind i write the other one . arghh .

oh ya . for the 1st time i got 1st in class for english test . an A1 . hahas . i can't believe that i do so well . i am so happy lohhs . =)

PE is just merely measuring height and weight . my height shrink every year due to the stupid parallex error of the teachers . oh shit . i gain 1kg . think i may have to go on diet lerhhs . =((

today SS remedial qiaoyan and weijie kena tease by us . we don't really mean it but then it is really very funny to see their reactions . they looked so shy . hahas . actually many people really think that they look competible lohhs . hahas .

then after that i went for physical training though i no need to go . wahh . the damn cooling weather really makes my throat damn dry that i can't breath . it really slow down my speed . nevermind . i will train harder .

shit lahhs . tomorrow 4/8 also in the chinese remedial . same day lehhs . oh gosh . i really don't know what to do . headache lohhs . it is really such a hassel to me . haiiz .

got to study for geography test soon . siians narr . this whole week never sleep enough lohhs . so tired .

confession ; TIRED AND WORRY .