Ye Lun and I . we took many photos cos' he wasn't sastified . LOL .


Ye Lun and the doll . cute right ? i can't help but to take the photo . he looks like the doll . LOL .


Calene and I . taking in the MRT .


the 3 besties ; Calene , PK and I . taking at one of the mirror at SASA .

i was too tired on friday and yesterday to blog . i shall blog before i go study (:

FRIDAY .
i got back my geography P2 . yes , from sec 3 still now , i finally pass ! 51/100 though . hahas . i pass overall with C5 . i was a little 哭笑不得 cos' i pass my geography but my L1R5 shot over 20 by 2 marks . haiiz . sadden .

after school , i went home and bathe then meet yan at burger king . we shifted to mac and study afterwards . i managed to finish one maths p2 despite of distraction . shall not say much about it .

YESTERDAY .
afternoon , i went to study with my cousin . after that , i headed to plaza singapura to meet my friends . i was late , but thankfully , i was the second to reach . poor Ye Lun , he waited for us outside swensen for quite sometime .

this time , Calene wasn't the last person to reach , if not i will nagged at her again . LOL .

well , everyone ate different stuffs . Ye Lun kept on taking photos when the food was served . hahas . i was very fully after eating the main course . actually intend to eat sticky chewy chocolate but Ye Lun asked me to share with him . well , it is also a better choice cos' i doubt i will be able to eat a whole glass of ice cream by my own .

after that , we went to walk around . it was a little bored when we walked without any aims . we walked to hereen , to cineleisure and then back home . of course , in between there are some window shopping and taking of photos .

there are still some photos haven't grab from Ye Lun . go to his blog later on if you wanna see the photos of the food . by the way , thanks Ye Lun for the treat !

TODAY .
i just woke up about half an hour ago . i just wanna blog and then maybe go mac and study . too many things to be done and i have not much time for me to waste .

thanks to my dearest for the advice . i will try to take a break sometime .

enough of sorrow and i should start work now . it is too early for me to give up . like what my dearest wrote in sms , "hardwork is the way to success . " it seems like a ray of hope struck on me . i will continue to work hard , or even harder .

ok . i shall go prepare to get myself up . (:

thanks my dear .
i appreciate the words .
no worries , cos' i will certainly work harder .
please sit back and wait for the good news .

after the rainfall , a beautiful rainbow appears .

nothing really special happen today .

first , i am in despair , dishearted and depressed . my results are still like that , not qualified for jc , not even that bottom ranking ones .

while i was talking to aaron , i was crying silently . what he said make sense but i guess he somehow still don't understand how exactly i feel .

i am unwilling to lose , especially to my closest friends . i swear that i always work double hard but why the results didn't show that ? i will have to comment that the world is very unfair . why ? just simply because a person's hardwork can't win a genius . they can surpass a person who works hard easily . seriously , i hate that .

i can't go to jc . what's left ? that's my motive and strength to strive . i have no more confidence because all those just went down to drain at moments ago . a life without dreams and love is as well as dead . kill me off and save me from the agony .

who can save me from that ? i guess if someone offers a hand , i rather drown in it . really . the world mean nothing to me if i can't get teriffic results and HIM .

maybe i shall not sleep and start studying again . i mean it . my eyes are red and swollen from crying . haiiz . all i do , i just want him and that's enough . only if he would know . ONLY .

i am a body without soul and heart .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JINGZHE !

today , i am not feeling well . cramp arhhs . >_<

anyway , i got back my history results . knn . 26/50 . all thanks to the SBQ . i screwed all the things that got to do with source A . darn it . i didn't know that last time japan's flag was spread out . i thought those were chiang's army .

so far , L1R4 17 . how in the hell i will get a B3 for my geography with ms foong's marking ? according to aaron , there is still a month of PAE . how in the hell i get in with it ? haiiz .

thanks for aaron telling me that i can make it . yes , i can . i am nearly there . i need to jiayou lerhhs . no more resting and back to work . but it seems like this few days my body cannot take any stress . perhaps rest till this friday and by weekend , revise at least 6 hours . die .

tomorrow , i hope that i can get back my geography paper 2 and provided with good grades . god bless me . haiiz .

anyway , i was enjoying my book , eclipse . i love it , especially , EDWARD !

i thought that you don't want to talk to me anymore .
you scare me to death .
since you are busy , i shall not disturb you .
i miss you alot .
what about you ?

i am particularly in a very bad mood today .

i am so tired right now . i shall make it a short post .

today , i got back my chinese paper 1 , geography paper 1 and social studies paper .

results.
chinese p1 : 39/70 [i did it while i was halfway asleep . LOL ]
geography p1 : 27/40
social studies : 30/50

overall grades for certain subjects .
english C6
maths B3
science A1
chinese A2

that's all . still got history and geography paper 2 left . i think ms foong will take a long time to mark . hahas .

now , i am still busying guessing about something . arghh .

just now , my sisters and i went to thomson plaza to look for my mum . we went to fetch uncle and went to suntec to have dinner . i didn't have a good appetite today , especially after the car sick .

nothing much . we just window shop around the place . now i have decided with brand of lipstick/lip gloss to buy . BOBBI BROWN will be a good choice with variety of earth tone colors . nude lips isn't bad either .

mummy bought a shu uemura brush cleaner liquid for me . thanks mummy . it is always good to be a girl whereby mummy can buy lots of stuffs for you .

i am going to sleep soon . i am so tired till i am lazy to make a daily blogskin . siians .

i miss you .

a very tired day .

left: our drinks . right: jingzhe looking at the screen , listening to kendrick singing .


left: the bubbletea that yan smuggle in . right: kendrick singing .

yesterday , i was too tired to blog . i slept 1 hour after i reached home .

yan , aaron , jing , kendrick and i went to kbox yesterday . nothing much . we just sing lohhs . but jingzhe very funny lahhs . you must really see what he sang , 'flintstone' . hahas . lame right ?

kendrick and jingzhe sang 5 times of 不能说的秘密 . the song is nice but listening to it for so many times is like ... i am going to fall asleep anytime . hahas .

after the singing session at kbox , we went to parkway parade for dinner . it was like so difficult to find a place in the food court lahhs . then we can't decide what to eat . hawker centre also got many people . in the end , we settled it at KFC .

aaron and i went back taking bus 31 . we were kinda of tired .

today is a day with lots of heart attacks cos we are going to take back our prelim papers .

results .
English P1 : 33/60
P2 : 25/50

maths p1 : 51/80
p2 : 72/100

physics p1 : 15/20
p2 : 52/65

chem p1 : 20/20
p3 : 55/65
p5 : 14/15

end of results . tomorrow , we will be getting back the damn humanities papers . *praying hard*

quite sastified . in fact , i was surprised that i scored pretty good for my maths . thank goodness . chemistry paper 1 , i should say is terrific ! hahas . too happy with it . again , i got top in chemistry in class . YEAH ! hahas .

anyway , i was reading my book , eclipse . VERY NICE . hahas .

after school , i went to white sands with jingming and aaron to have our lunch . we also chatted for awhile before we went home .

till now , i still haven't take my nap . i was so tired . but if i fall asleep , later i can't sleep . haiiz . nevermind . i shall wait for awhile so that i can watch KAMICHAMA KARIN that i have awaited for a week . (=

see my improvement ?
you are my motivation .

happy for the day !

left:weijie . right: aaron and weijie , chatting while walking .

left:name of the donut store . right: my favourite design , but flatten in yan's bag . =D

the three donuts that i have bought except for the last one , cos yan took my smily orange . sob sob . hahas .

ok . enough of donuts . LOL .

today , yan , weijie , aaron and i went to plaza singapura to shop , eat then went to the nearby cinema to watch movie , ratatouille . it is so nice ! i love the show , especially the rat . lols .

hmm . there was one inconsiderate fat man blocking the way for us to go into the lift . tmd . so selfish lohhs . so many space also don't want to move in . darn you .

after the movie , we went to ben and jerry to eat ice cream , aaron's treat ! thanks brother ! we went to plaza singapura's arcade afterwards , waiting to play the mario game together . we waited for very long .

we played basketball while waiting . girls VS boys . we lost of course . after that was aaron and i VS the couple . we lost by 1 mark . hahaha . yan and i played mario till very embarrassing cos we can't control the game and we got last position . LOL .

just now while waiting for the movie , i went to shop around with yan . we walked to the times bookshop and i bought this . i didn't know that there is a continuation of new moon . YESH ! EDWARD !!!!! hahas . there are other titles of this series coming out next year too . (=

after playing the mario game , we decided to took a cab home . aaron and i alighted first and i accompanied him to buy stationary for his brother . hope the couple will talk in the cab . at least yan took initiative today .

and i have to comment something . i feel that people shouldn't accuse me of copying other people's blogskin style . i hardly view other blogskin , ever since last year , so don't anyhow accuse me .

common or not , as long it is nice , it is good . colours ? too striking , people complain . too plain , people also complain . for the title , different people have different perspective of the pictures .

unless you can make very good blogskin , don't keep on critisizing people . i am just making blogskin in my leisure time . as for color combination , i am not as artistic as my sisters .

pardon me if it really look ugly . advices is welcome but please , no critize .

i want to talk to you .

i am so tired today , arghh .

left: lihui , seekhei and lingle posing . right : seekhei and lihui singing .


both pictures : michelle standing on the chair , trying to take our photos .


left: lihui , staring into nowhere . LOL . right: our ms lim facing her backside on us . hahas .


left: yan taking her bag to cover herself , lihui and seekhei twists . right: yan and seekhei .


left: me , taken at the bus stop . right: lingle trying to search for peanuts in the darkness . LOL .

today , THERE IS NO SCHOOL ! lalala ~

i met my cousin for breakfast and in the end we walked around tampines mart . after that , i went home to bathe and get ready to get out of the house .

i waited for seekhei at the bus interchange then we went to bedok . we supposed to meet those nu ren staying in pasir ris at bedok but in the end they took a cab cos they were late . hahas . in the end , we met lingle at bedok and we took a bus to parkway .

well , we sang many songs and enjoying playing games . hahas . today seekhei is the loser queen . hahas . hmm , when we sang the song superstar , everyone very hyper till michelle cannot take it . hahas . after that , she was the one who was very hyper and the others were tired . LOL .

after the singing session , we went to pastamania to have our dinner . the baked rice is nice but eating too much makes me feel like puking . >_<

lihui , michelle and yan took a cab home and the rest of us took a bus . i enjoy the day very much . after o level , let's go out and shop !

tomorrow , i will be going out with yan , aaron and weijie for a movie . we shall see what will happen tomorrow . *evil grin*

i miss you .

i love the girls .

YEAH ! NO MORE PRELIMS ! I FINALLY GET OUT FROM THIS PRELIM EXAMS !

yeah . true . i am indeed sick of it . i can't stand the pressure anymore . i need the weekend break . LOL .

anyway , today's history paper is very easy . i was praying that either cold war or war in europe will come out . yes , war in europe came out then i no need to do the long winded russia chapter . huray !

after that , yan , aaron , kendrick , weijie , jomo and i went to white sand to have our breakfast . we ate at ya kun . hahas . it is so nice . hahas . i realised that many fathers have some strange method of eating food , that is same goes to my dad too . hahas .

we kept on disturbing yan till she got pissed off . hahahaha .

we sat there and chat till 12 ? we always very long winded de . hahas . but we enjoy each other's company .

i went home and sleep straight nearly 12 hours cos 3 days in a row didn't sleep . all thanks to the exam . damn it mans .

tomorrow , i will be going to kbox with lihui , yan , michelle , lingle and seekhei . hope that we can have lots of fun and relax after the exam stress .

countdown . about 1 month to o level . darn it .

i miss you .
shall not say much as i know that you know it .
love ya .

the second last exam is finally over . left with the final shot .

left: aaron's food . yum yum . right : jomo eating his food . =D


both pictures : donut that i bought at shop outside white sand . i love them ! =p

I LOVE DONUTS !

today's is geography paper 1 . well , i nearly dozed off while doing the paper cos i can't sleep yesterday night . tmd . hahas .

after school , i went to white sands with kendrick , yan , aaron , jomo and chunny . we ate at carvana . well , it was very funny when kendrick's food came . something got to do with salami . LOL .

we chatted for very long and about many stupid stuffs . the guys are perv . LOL .

the rest went off first except yan , kendrick and i . we wanted to go to popular to check history past year questions but the thing was it was sold out . damn it . thanks to my cousin who asked his friends for the question , yenling and ronald provide me the questions of 2006 .

after that , yan and i bought donut . it was so nice alright . if i got enough money , i will surely buy more than 5 . they looks so cute and delicious .

when i reached home , i was very tired but i don't know why i can't sleep . siians . i tried to force myself to sleep from 7 to 10:30pm so that i can study till the morning . haiiz .

finally , tomorrow is my last paper and i can rest a little . maybe i should go to my aunt's house to visit my runaway from home de cousin . poor girl . i hope that she is ok .

i miss you so much that i am chasing after your footsteps .
turn your head back cos i am just right behind you .
i love you .

mugging for history exam . tired . >_<

today is chemistry paper and science paper 1 . overall , the papers are very easy . LOL .

yesterday midnight , desmond korkor came to my house and stay cos there was no more bus for him to go home . then i kept on calling him 'the husband that is chased away from home by his wife . ' hahas .

we chatted for the entire night . i was very tired for the entire day . the school hall's aircons are very cold plus i was very tired , it is a very good place for sleeping . hahas . i nearly dozed off in the science paper 1 . LOL .

one more thing . i decided to go to the prom night since majority of the people are going . hahas . now i must plan what cosmetics i need to buy . muahahahaha .

after school , kendrick , yan , shan , jing and i went to white sand KFC to have our lunch . we chatted for quite sometime , bullying yuanshan . LOL .

we went back afterwards . i was so tired that i slept for 8hours straight . hahas .

and one more thing ... YE LUN LOOKS SO SHUAI IN THE TEENAGE MAGAZINE ! hahas .

hmm . i shall go study some history and geography stuffs . so siians . if i am free and i got the mood , i will make another blogskin . hehehes .

i miss you .
what about you ?

i look at our photo and i realised how much i miss you .

left: jingming , looking at aaron . right: jingzhe , laughing at jingming .


left: jingming holding cups of water . right: aaron playing his nitendo ds lite .


left:jingming , covering his face . right:kendrick and jingzhe , playing O2jam . =p


left and right : cheers ! the water the jingming took for us .

today is physics paper . it is so easy lohhs . but hopefully there is no clever mistake . thanks to jeremy for teaching me physics . (=

after school , yan , jing , kendrick and i went to downtown mac to have breakfast . aaron , jingming and weijie joined us later .

we played o2jam [handphone version] together . we said that whoever got the lowest score for the first round must go to the mac counter to get 4 cups of plain water . jingming was the unlucky one . when we looked at the process whereby he took the water , we laughed like hell . hahas .

the 2nd round , the loser supposed to go to subway to ask where is burger king [subway is just right beside burger king ] . hahas . unfortunately , jingming is the one . but we decided not cos later kena bash . LOL . then we thought about many funny stuffs . in the end , he didn't do anything . nevermind . he owed us one punishment .

siians . i don't know whether we should go to the prom night anot . hopefully , another theme is added . sighh .

tomorrow is chemistry paper ! yeah ! later i shall go and study and make another blogskin . hahas .

i miss you .

i wanna be with you .

loving you .

laughing like hell for the whole day .

I AM SO TIRED ! (>_<) i still don't have enough sleep . yawnnn !

i woke up this afternoon . i was so hungry ! anyway , i was playing with my nephew . he is so cute !

i spent my whole day doing nothing . siians lohhs . i actually wanted to study history before hand first but it seems like i am too tired to do so . i think maybe tomorrow then i study physics and chemistry . yawn ...

the dinner was alright , though i am still very hungry right now .

i just got to say that some people does not treasure he or she has . why do some people have such low faith on him or herself ? things are just right in front of you . just a little courage will make a difference . why do him or she does not treasure this ?

i have waste my chance for so many times just because i didn't treasure what i have right in front of me . i just don't hope that he or she will follow my footstep . if you really like a person , treasure the partner . don't let it go away or you will regret .

haiiz . how i wish he is right here now . but how ? i seldom see him . this doesn't help at all . my fate is all depends of my o level . if i don't get below 15 , that's the end of the story . even if it will be a dead end , i truly believe in myself and him .

OH GOD , PLEASE LET MY HARDWORK PAY OFF . I CAN'T SMILE WITHOUT HIM !

see that ?
understand ?
know how i feel ?
and what about you ?
i love you .

i am so tired right now .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOEY LAOPO !

today is social studies paper . yesterday , i studied sri lanka/northern ireland , good governance and population . only sri lanka chapter didn't come out . our class almost all study the same chapters . thank goodness .

to jeremy : you should thank me for telling you vernice will not come out . hahas .

after exam , yan , shan , lihui , lingle , yizhen , caline and i went to downtown mac to have our breakfast . we were eating , chatting and laughing . we also discussed about whether should we go for prom night . siians . still cannot decide . unless they add another theme . lols .

after that , i went home straight and took a nap . i was really very tired as i slept at 3am because of studying the social studies points . tmd . hahas . i slept about 8 hours ? hahas .

two horrendous humanities papers have finished and now left with history , one of the most dreadful paper . there are science papers too . finally can relax a little .

tomorrow there is sort of celebration or family gathering . tmd . i got plenty of house chores to do . thankfully , my sisters are helping out . hahas .

what should i do now ? REST ONE DAY !!

i want a big hug from you !!
i don't care , i don't care !!!
i love youuuu .

finally , one day for me to rest after the hectic papers .

today is chinese paper 2 and geography paper . i nearly dozed off when i was doing the paper . aaron sleep till never finish paper . hahas . for geography paper , for the first time , i hate human geography questions . tmd . if is not because i didn't study coast , i will do that for sure . arghh .

anyway , i just know that the aircon is so cold that it tempted me to sleep . yesterday really don't get enough sleep lohhs . so siians .

i got back my prep social studies paper today . i got 37/50 . hahas . same as midyear . one more mark to A1 . hahas . must jiayou tomorrow .

after school , yan and i went to downtown to eat cheese fries . we sat there and chat for very long . we were very tired cos yesterday didn't sleep well . yawn . even though i took a nap just now , i am still very tired . >_<

later still must study for Social studies . those exams really drain our brain cells lohhs . hahas . must jiayou . hope that those chapters that i study will come out . if not i go bang my head . hahas .

i miss you so much .
how i wish you are here with me .
i need some strength and help in studies .
i love you <3

mugging for exams . yucks !!

the first two pictures were taken on monday and others were on this afternoon .


left: shan teaching jing maths . right: kendrick mugging on chinese . =p


left: weijie , staring into empty spaces . right: yan , staring into empty spaces . LOL .

left: yingquan , unable to get away from my snap shot . hahas . right: yan and yingquan .

ok . enough of pictures . next time shall take some more . muahahahaha . LOL .

first of all , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEIJUN !

today is maths paper 2 . well , thankfully i know most questions though i lost 20marks . darn it . hahas . but it is quite alright lahhs . but then for one question , i finished the 2 parts and then the teacher says no need to do . tmd . waste my time .

and ... what the hell . i drew the graph from quardratic to cubic . i wanna bang the wall lerhhs narr . tmd .

after school , yan and me went to white sands . we decided to wait for the guys to come . so we went around shopping . we went to buy earrings . hahas . everytime also doing the same thing .

the guys came and we can't decide what to eat . weijie didn't bring enough money for swensen student meal , so yan decided to go to mac for lunch .

we did lots of funny stuffs , asking weijie and yan go buy first . then ending up yingquan and aaron followed them down and aaron sneaked back . yingquan helped weijie take his tray so that he can help yan take . so funny lohhs .

after that , all of us went down to buy things , leaving them alone . hahahas . we came back and chatted for very long . we also did some demo of feeding people eating fries . hahas . jingming more funny . when i fed him , he said he want to dip the fries into curry sauce . then everyone laughed like hell . hahas .

aaron and jingming went back afterwards , leaving yan , weijie , yingquan and me . to let weijie sent her home , we tagged along though i was supposed to go to yan's house . we ending up sitting at the pavilion .

yan was very funny when her mum saw weijie . i was with her also lahhs , but then i wonder if her mum know who he is . lols .

we sat at the pavilion till evening . we talked the whole day . quite fun , especially when i snapped shot their photos . muahahahah .

siians . now is 3am and i only finish 2 themes of physical geography . i think i need to speed up a little . this time , i shall not fail ! hahas .

my dearest , i miss you so much .
I WANT TO SEE YOU !
lalala ~~

mugging for exams . >_<

today , it is english paper 2 and maths paper 1 . damn it . just the maths paper 1 , i have already lost 20 marks . the whole probability question blank . it is like i never do the type of question is before lohhs . tmd .

anyway , thanks jeremy and my dearest for teaching me the vectors , though those questions didn't come out . hahas .

after school , BHH sisters and i went to take our prep geography paper . well , ms foong mark really very strict . the highest and the only person who pass , nazirul , who pass with 50/100 . now you can imagine how bad people do in the exam . many people got 10+ . well , i got 37/100 . not very good but still got more work to be done .

yan and i went to downtown to have lunch . we chatted for very long . we decided to walk back to her house there . we missed many buses and then we chatted till 4 plus . we looked at those nursery kids . so cute .

oh ya . helena is very funny . she took a bus and then realise that she forgot to bring ezlink card and coins . but i don't know what happen next . LOL .

i went home afterwards . i was so tired . later i am going to do some maths and geography . =)

here , i wanna say sorry to yan for saying something that i am not supposed to say . tomorrow i will help you . hehes .

i miss you .
arghh . please teach me maths .
when ?

i am a goner today .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUNJIE !

today there was english and chinese paper 1 . they were absolutely horrendous . i am very afraid that i will write out of point . for chinese , all i can say that i have never written such a short essay and letter before , though i am not the only one .

tmd . i wrote for about one and a half hour and i was so free . i also never write any proverbs or idioms . what the hell . worst of all , the hall is so cold that it is so nice for sleeping , especially when it was raining outside . hahas . i dozed off while checking the dictionary . LOL .

after school , i went to white sand to have lunch with aaron , chinkiat and keith . we were eating KFC . after that , we went to take bus 21 together .

i was so tired this afternoon . afterall , i didn't sleep yesterday night . i tried to sleep but i just simply cannot . even reading chinese reading materials also cannot sleep . then i end up watching an old taiwan drama . not old lahhs . is ' at the dolphin by ' . LOL .

tomorrow there is maths paper 1 and english paper 2 . but i think i am too tired to revise lahhs . hahas . i think i have done enough of it in the holidays .

i miss you .

i am so tired .

today is the last day of holiday . so sad . why can't it last longer ? i finally understand why people says when you are occupied , time passes faster than usual . however , when you are left with nothing to do , time passes slowly till you wanna bang the wall . hahas .

this afternoon , i was spending my time doing house chores . i didn't even have the time to touch my books today . hahas . later i am going to read up some chinese stuffs , english and geography .

many things need to be done as soon as possible . worst of all , tons of clothes are waiting for me to wash . arghh . LOL .

anyway , time really fly pass very swiftly . it seems to be yesterday when i just started my secondary 4 life . now , prelim is just tomorrow and o level is coming in a month's time . so fast . how i wish time can just slow down a little .

sometimes , i wish the time can pass as fast as possible . why ? because i want to stop this stressful lifestyle for once and i may get what i want . but sometime i don't wish time to pass so quickly . why ? i will miss my friends and i need more time to study . however , time doesn't stop or rather cannot for us .

a chinese proverb says gold cannot buy time . that's pretty true . hence , we should treasure whatever we have right at the moment and enjoy while you can . never leave something which will make you regret for life .

ok . i shall end my long winded story . say goodbye to holiday and hello to prelims ! >_<

i need more support from you .
anyway , if i am not mistaken , you promotion exam is coming .
here , i will wish you a good luck .
i love you .

trying to let myself to remember stuffs .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ELLYN AND YIXI !

hmm . quite a few days have passed since i updated my blog . recently , i am too busy with the revision and stuffs . finally , i finished all the 4 schools maths papers and all the english assignments .

now i am left with geography homework and to complete more physics p2 . i am only done with 3 paper 2 . more work needs to be done ! hahas .

today , i am staying at my cousin's house again . hahas . at least got people help me to solve some maths questions or something . anyway , i think i am very tired right now . too much stress , especially i didn't sleep well yesterday .

desmond korkor and cheryl dao sao slept in my room and steve slept on my queen size bed . oh gosh . i ended up sleeping at around 5 am at the sofa . pathetic right ? hahas . but it's ok . i woke up pretty late , at 2.30pm . then i prepared to get out of the house to meet my cousin to study .

the JCs students sitting beside me were really strange . they eavesdrop on our conversation . most idiotic of all , they looked at my sisters and say , " heys ! they are twins ! " as if they never seen a pair of twins before . LOLS .

time really fly pass quickly and tomorrow is the last day of the september holidays . when the school reopen , the horror comes ; PRELIMS ! siians .

one of my elder cousin make a joke out of something but it really make sense . what will happen to me on that they if i didn't manage to get into TPJC ? arghh . i think i better get this dumbass question out of my mind . no jumping to conclusion till the day i take my results . a definite and firm NO NO to it .

haiiz . i am so worry about it . but i am sure that i can overcome it .

i miss you so much .
give me some courage to score well .
oh kami sama .
for the effort i have spent , please don't turn me down .

praying very hard , believe that hardwork won't pay me off .

this afternoon , i went to my cousin's house to study . anyway , i wasn't in a very good mood today . i may be hyper at various point of time but definitely not now .

i wanna say something to delicate to yan , " be strong and everything gonna turn out right . "

around 7 plus , i went to meet steve , weiquan and HIM . well , nothing much . just that we had our dinner together . they went to my house afterwards .

first of all , i am glad that he uses the wallet that i gave to him for birthday present .

well , now i begin to doubt myself . am i able to stay cheerful without him till after o level ends ? i don't know why i am so moody right now . all i know is when the guys and my sisters going to tampines mart with them , i refused to go . why is it so ?

firstly , i think that i am somewhat unhappy because of the closeness between my sisters and him . i know it is rather very stupid to be jealous of my own blood sisters but i just can't help it alright .

next , i think i can't see him walked away . the sight of it seems to me like a few hundreds or even thousands of knife stabbed through me . tears just roll down my cheeks and i have to use the blanket to cover it .

lastly , i don't want any of them knows that i am unhappy . i don't want to worry or makes them think that i am very petty . i am just like that .

i began to wonder like my sisters always asked me whenever i spent some time with him . "even if you go to tampines JC , will you able to get him ? " yes , i began to doubt myself again . i am always full with confidence and filled with hope . now , what is happening to me at the moment ? oh gosh .

i guess i need to relax myself and be alone for the time being . i need to get rid of those negative thoughts right now . since i love him , the trust must be present . i trust him and myself .

sorry to people that i am so emo today .

i just want you to be mine .

i want the time for myself .

here are some of the bishoujo anime characters .

kinomoto sakura [cardcaptor sakura ]

karen [ mermaid melody ]

tsukino usagi a.k.a chibi usa [sailor moon]

tomoe hotaru [sailor moon]

aino minako [sailor moon]

kaioh michiru [sailor moon]

nanami luchia [mermaid melody]

hanon [mermaid melody]

noel [mermaid melody]

seira [mermaid melody]

coco [mermaid melody]

hanazono karin [kamichama karin]

higurashi kagome [inuyasha]

yagami hikari [digimon]

daidouji tomoyo [cardcaptor sakura]

kujyou himeka [kamichama karin]

ok . that's all with the pictures . now i must think what pictures should i post the next time . hahas .

this afternoon , i went to mac to meet peijun . i reached there first , so i am spending my time download some shows . hahas .

the weather is so cooling as this afternoon , there is a heavy rain . hahas . i love rainy days ! LOLS . today , i am spending my time doing nothing accept chemistry . so siians .

i think today i am particular in a bad mood . i just don't know why . maybe yesterday i have done too many papers and i am tired . perhaps my cousin is right . i need some rest . but what if i rest too much and there is not much time for me to study ? my aim will go down to drain . haiiz . maybe i should study a little later .

i miss you .
looking at some photos in my wallet makes me think of you .

very pissed off with some people .