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Thursday, January 31, 2008♥
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yesterday , my mum called and asked me to go meet her . it was 10.30am lahhs . i was sleeping at that time . she asked me to go to hospital to visit my great grandmother .
i meet my mum , uncle and aunt to have lunch and we went to presbetarian high to fetch my cousin from school .
well , i didn't want to go at first . why ? with my grandma there , who the hell wants to go ? can you imagine if you go there , she will pick at everything you do or whatever you wear just to scold you . pick on me . only me , for hell sake .
i went there and saw my great grandmother . she haven't open her eyes but pull through the danger moments . however , only one hand and one leg can respond due to brain hemorrhage .
there , my !$#*& grandma scold me just because i wear spegetti strap top . damn her . if it's not because of my shirts are in the washing machine and the others are already packed and sealed in the boxes , i won't even wear and let her have something to say . knn .
thanks to my auntie [grandma's sister] , pull her out for a coffee and i get to escape . after that , we went to grab a bite and came up . my auntie brought my grandma back . thankfully , my auntie sit between us .
she talked to me about my grandma . guess what happen ? my grandma say in hokkien "talk to her so much for what ? also cannot go into her brain lahhs . she has no brain . "
fuck . if it's not because of my mum who helped me , i will have blast her off in front of my relatives . my mum scold her "if she don't have brain , you have mehhs ? then you won't be here . don't like her face , don't look lahhs ."
yes , she deserve scolding from my mummy .
we went to have dinner afterwards and went home .
this morning , i went to meet my cousin for breakfast . i went to his house , intend to study amaths . but i guess i was too tired and i just fell asleep . hahas . so i didn't study at all .
nothing much . we were playing our DS for the whole day . tomorrow cannot play lerhhs . hahas . yan will be joining us for breakfast tomorrow . yayness ! hahas .
i just finished watching bleah 158 . it is sooooo nice alright . i am going to watch they kiss again 7 and hana yori dango next !
i will hang on there .
mixture of feelings .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Tuesday, January 29, 2008♥
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taken just the day before release of results ; going out with xinying .
our beverage . the hot chocolate is sooooooo big .
last time wearing uniform . taken before going to school on the 24th jan .
act cute . LOL .
xinying copy my pose . hahas .
taken at my cousin's house with all the amaths stuff =.=
this morning , i went to have breakfast with my cousin . after that , we bought something and headed home . yan came in the afternoon . she really have no sense of direction .
we did amaths for the whole day . yan seems to be still having trouble in logaritherm . hahas .
i just finish things that taught in simultaneous equation . wah lao . don't know why there is soooo many theorem . but , it is quite easy (:
yan and i went out to buy pizza for dinner . yum yum . the smell of the cheese is sooooo strong that my aunt thought that she steps on something dirty . hahas .
while i was eating , my sisters called me . a shocking news . my maternal great grandmother is in hospital , dying . i guess now my mum and relatives are still in the hospital . i am just speechless lahhs . kinda of sudden .
i continue to do maths till about 10pm , we headed home .
i guess , i saw something which i shouldn't .
troubled .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Monday, January 28, 2008♥
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today , i went to my cousin's house to learn amaths . siians . i hate numbers lahhs . matrices got soooooo many numbers . but it isn't that difficult .
after that , my cousin went out . so i went to mac to wait for yan to come . she actually meet me at 1 plus but she got to wait for her sisters as she as no key to go home .
she came and i taught her some of the things i learn . she has the same reaction as me "why so many numbers ?!" hahas .
we went to ate KFC afterwards . we chitchat for awhile and we went to wait for my cousin at the playground . he was soooooo late . hahas .
we continue to do amaths sums and we went home at nearly 11pm . tired mans .
anyway , i finally got my chanel two way cake from her . it is not the usual one but for whitening . the casing is much more nicer than the usual one . it is white with silver logo [normal is white with black logo] . compared to black , i still prefer white . thanks girl (:
tomorrow , i will still be going to my cousin's house . no choice . we still have 15 chapters left to complete within 6 weeks . how to finish ? one way . choing everyday . hahas . yan will be joining me too (:
i miss you soooo much .
maths are for squares =.=
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Sunday, January 27, 2008♥
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i still haven't recover from the results blow but not as worse as few days ago .
i have applied on the second day .
#1 Tampines Junior College (Science)
#2 Yishun Junior College (Science)
#3 Pharmacy Science (Ngee Ann Polytecnic)
#4 Music and Audio Technology (Singapore Polytechnic)
#5 Optometry (Singapore Polytechnic)
#6 Baking and Culinary Science (Temasek Polytechnic)
please please , pray hard i can get into TPJC . i am thinking of ways to appeal in . don't know through what cca lehhs . i am thinking of either dance or choir since they prefer people to offer performing arts .
i think i am going to worry till the 19th of feburary . no choice . i guess i need support from my family and friends to pull through this . within this time , i am going to continue to study amaths . i wonder if i am going to finish the syllabus by the school open .
chapters cover : logaritherm , sets and binomial theorem . what next ? maths .. haiiz .
anyway , thanks to my cousin , carol and belle for the support . i think junheng and i need it alot as our parents aren't so supportive to our choices .
and thanks again to carol for the treat (:
your care , concern , support and encouragement are needed too .
gradually recovering .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Friday, January 25, 2008♥
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well , yesterday wasn't a pleasant day . i was soooo scared till the very end . from the start i knew the news at xinying's house till we sat in the hall .
in the end , the outcome wasn't good . i am not sastified . yes yes . i cried once i opened the damn form A .
results .
english: C6
Combined Humanties: A2
Geography: B3
Mathematics: B3
Combined Science: A1
Chinese A2
L1R5: 17 L1R4: 14
look at it and see which of it spoil it all . yes , english . all As and Bs and just one damn shitty C came out .
no offence to people . but i studied sooooo hard than some of the people but i just can't understand they just get better . nevertheless , congrats to those people who did well in their exams ! weijie is soooo lucky . hahas .
xinying's mum let the both of us scare her to hell . she thought that we had scored badly . it wasn't really the case . haiz .
anyway , thanks xinying and her family for being soooo supportive , especially her parents . i appreciate it (:
just one less point , i can get into TPJC . now i only can appeal after apply . i am soooo sick of it lahhs . real upset . but what to do ?
sometimes i thought that some comfort from my parents or him will make me feel better . however , mummy doesn't seems to be comforting me the way i want . it makes me feel more worse .
for him , only asked for my grades and just say "don't go to the school just because you want to see me . anyway , you will hardly see me. but if you want , you still can appeal. "
seriously , is that all you can say ? you weren't there when i am crying . who's there ? xinying and jeremy . you don't even know how i feel after getting the results and saw those message . yes , you don't even know that i cried .
i want to get into the school . though i always say just because of the subject combination and stuffs , who doesn't know my ultimate motive of going to the school ? even an idiot knows .
whatever . later i am going to my cousin's house to discuss and submit the application . guess we have no choice but to do so asap .
one last thing , thanks to all the teachers who have put in lots of effort on us . without you , we will not achieve such fantastic results . again , thanks (:
frigging upset .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Monday, January 21, 2008♥
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i am quite tired so i will be making this post real short .
yesterday , i meet aaron at mac cos he was teaching me the things that he learned in JC . not very hard to understand for the first chapter of maths , chemistry and physics . we sat there and chitchat . i realised something .
i don't have an aim of where to go in the future .
i mean university . after hearing what he say , i have thought about many things . back up plans and stuffs .
i went to my cousin's house after meet aaron . after some discussion , i have made up my mind . but still , it depends on results and my own hardwork .
time for mugging in order to catch up lesson and to get what i want .
today , jon send me the MOE press release website . the results are coming out in the 24th . my blood went cold immediately upon knowing the news .
anyway , i went to my cousin's house to learn A maths . i learned sets and binomial theorem . after some practices , i understand the chapters better . tomorrow , i will be learning new chapters .
i wonder if my brain capacity can contain that much till the 2nd term starts . this period is a crucial period to determine the rest . hopefully , i can learn and cover as much as i can .
ok . i am sooooo tired and i got to sleep .
will you cheer for me ?
will you be there for me when i am down ?
i am scared .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Saturday, January 19, 2008♥
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i am soooo bored . having a headache in the afternoon . actually supposed study with aaron and yet i was asleep . poor him got to contact me for the entire day .
tomorrow we shall study together . i wonder . how long has it been since i am studying ? about 2 months ? that's really long .
time flies pass really very fast . 6 more days to the release of results . upon having nightmare every night about getting above 16 , i can't sleep . the feeling sucks and i think that's why i am having headache .
siians . i really feel like going out to shop . next week perhaps .
this few days , i have no time to think of relationship but results and the tests that will be taken for people who wants to offer 2 H2 science in TPJC . regardless what , i still have to learn what it is taught in the PAE period since they will not teach again .
nevertheless , i can't totally put it aside . sometimes , i really wonder . i feel that everything seems so different ever since that encounter of words . what can i say ? rather speechless bahhs . we are back to the original state whereby we seldom talk . busy ? i wonder .
what will become of me ? no one knows , neither does god knows .
hopefully everything will become just fine (:
i still love you that much (:
wondering ....
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Friday, January 18, 2008♥
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i was doing house chores for the entire morning . packing stuffs inside the boxes . i still left a little stuffs unpacked . later i shall pack them up .
i am quite pissed right now . sorry piggy that i have to break the promise to scold some vulgar words right now , at this moment to vent my anger .
my damn ass sisters didn't go to school again . they took the "clothes got mud" excuses for not going to school .
now , first of all , they came back from camp on wednesday and they rest . yes . they didn't went to school on thursday as it was no choice as they got to make their ICs . they didn't even attend the lessons after making it .
moreover , they were free for the entire day . they don't even bother to wash their clothes despite knowing that they have school tomorrow . why ? they depend on me to wash . if i didn't do the washing , they will just leave it there to rot .
i called mum and they told mum that they only have one set of uniform . that isn't true . they have another set , just that they don't have name tags on them . but which is a more severe offence ? playing truancy or not having a name tag ?
they don't even give a shit to it .
mum didn't scold them but just talk . they came out of the room scold me " you bloody woman . fucking bitch" .
i didn't say anything but just continue to do my chores and help them to wash their dirty shoes . now , who's the fucking unreasonable bitches ? i went out for breakfast later . out of kindness , i asked them what they want to eat . i bought back and what ?
not even a single thanks . not one . those ungrateful bitches .
i asked them to pack their clothes into boxes and i told them i have some clothes which i can't wear . i asked them if they want them . guess what ?
they wore it . don't want ? throw them on the floor with all their unwanted clothes .
asked them why they do that . they said that they don't have enough time .
one of that bloody fucker says " we are not like you , crazy to pack so many things and that's your problem anyway ."
those two bitches have change from worse to worst . nothing can save them . their attitude sucks . they have no right to critisize my attitude because theirs are as worse as mine . at least i know my bad points , they don't .
worst , one of them talks like a gangster . don't know who the fuck she learn from . knn . i am not their maid to help them clean the things . if i didn't vacuum and mop the floor , wash the clothes , fold and keep the clothes , none of the two lazy bums will .
yes , i have nothing to do at home . other then using the laptop , sleeping and eat , nothing else . but at least better than them . i have already done my part on studying so now is my time to rest . i doubt they even put in half of the effort i have put in a year .
now , i am going to start revising again . there goes my rest day . but at least better than them .
those two are hopeless .
soooo pissed .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Wednesday, January 16, 2008♥
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taken few days ago . my newly rebonded hair . i just can't stop camwhoring =p
Me , taken before i went out to tampines mall .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MATTHEW ! i didn't know that there are soooo many january babies . i always thought that there aren't that many around me .
i was soooo bored . didn't manage to sleep till today 4pm . i stayed up for the whole night and i ordered macdonald delivery this morning . i ate real lot . i should have taken a photo and let people 'WOW' about it .
They kiss again aka 恶作剧2吻
seriously , i love this show . this time , joe cheng is sooooo shuai alright , better when he was at it started with a kiss . now only till episode 5 . siians . i want to watch lahhs ! he is soooo sweet lohhs .
tell me , what show should i watch next ? i have no idea what to watch so after i finish They kiss again , i watch princess hour again . i think this is my 3rd time watching it . oh god .
nowadays , the show's plot are almost the same . only some drama caught my eye . it's stupid and boring of me that i am going to name all here . LOL .
Kdrama: Sassy Girl Choon Hyang 豪杰春香 , Princess hour 宫,我的野蛮王妃 , My Girl , 新娘18岁.
Taiwan Drama: Dolphin Bay 海豚湾恋人 , 微笑pasta , it started with a kiss 恶作剧之吻 , They kiss again 恶作剧2吻 , Lavender 薰衣草 , 恶魔在身边 .
think that's all . not much right ? hahas . now , i am waiting for bleach episode 156 to come out . ICHIGO !!!
i will try not to be a disturbance and stand by your side .
i love you .
i am soooo bored .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Tuesday, January 15, 2008♥
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ok , i shall not make this whole blog sooooo bored . now , i am putting some bishounen pictures from bleach and there are some information of them . those names in brackets are the direct translation . ENJOY !
Name: Kurosaki Ichigo 黒崎 一護
Rank: Strength similar to Captain rank , Vizard , Substitube Shinigami
Zanpakuto: Zangetsu 斬月 [cutting moon]
Shikai Command: Since the Zanpakuto is already in released state , there is no Shikai Command .
Bankai: Tensa Zangetsu 天鎖斬月 [heavenly chained cutting moon]
Special move: Tetsuga Tensho 月牙天衝
Name: Ichimaru Gin 市丸 ギン
Rank: Former 3rd Division Captain
Zanpakuto: Shinso 神鎗 [Divine Spear]
Shikai Command: ikorose , Shinso 射殺せ,神鎗 [shoot to death , shinso]
Bankai: Unknown
Special Move: Unknown
Name: Hitsugaya Toshiro 日番谷 冬獅郎
Rank: 10th Division Captain
Zanpakuto: Hyorinmaru 氷輪丸 [Ice Ring]
Shikai Command: Soten ni zase , Hyorinmaru 霜天に坐せ,氷輪丸 [reign over the frosted heavens , hyorinmaru]
Bankai: Daiguren Hyorinmaru 大紅蓮氷輪丸 [Great Crimson Lotus Ice Ring]
Special Moves: Ryusenka 竜霰花 , sennen hyoro 千年氷輪
Name: Ukitake Jushirou 浮竹 十四郎
Rank: 13th Division Captain
Zanpakuto: Sogyo no Kotowari 双魚の理 [Truth of Pisces]
Shikai Command: nami kotogotoku waga tate to nare, ikazuchi kotogotoku waga yaiba to nare , Sogyo no Kotowari 波悉く我が盾となれ雷悉く我が刃となれ , 双魚の理 [every wave be my shield, every thunder become my blade , Truth of Pisces]
Bankai: Unknown
Special Moves: Unknown
Name: Kuchiki Byakuya 朽木 白哉
Rank: 6th Division Captain , 28th head of Kuchiki Clan
Zanpakuto: Senbonzakura 千本桜 [A Thousand Cherry Blossoms]
Shikai Command: Chire , Senbonzakura 散れ,千本桜 [scatter,senbonzakura]
Bankai: Senbonzakura Kageyoshi 千本桜景厳
Special Moves: 1st scene ; Senkei 殲景 , 2nd scene ; Gokei 吭景 , 3rd scene ; Shukei 終景
Name: Urahara Kisuke 浦原 喜助
Rank: Former 12th Division Captain , founder and former president of the Shinigami Research Institute
Zanpakuto: Benihime 紅姫 [Crimson Princess]
Shikai Command: Okiro , Benihime 起きろ , 紅姫 [awaken , Benihime]
Bankai: Unknown
Special Moves: nake 啼け
Name: Hisagi Shuhei 檜佐木 修兵
Rank: 9th Division Vice Captain
Zanpakuto: Unknown
Shikai Command: Unknown
Bankai: Unknown
Special Moves: Unknown
Name: Abarai Renji 阿散井 恋次
Rank: 6th Division Vice Captain
Zanpakuto: Zabimaru 蛇尾丸 [snake tail]
Shikai Command: hoero , Zabimaru 咆えろ,蛇尾丸 [howl , zabimaru]
Bankai: Hihio Zabimaru 狒狒王蛇尾丸 [Baboon King Snake Tail]
Special Moves: Higa Zekko 狒牙絶咬 , hikotsu Taiho 狒骨大砲
Name: Kira Izuru 吉良 イヅル
Rank: 3rd Division Vice Captain
Zanpakuto: Wabisuke 侘助 [miserable man]
Shikai Command: Omete o Agero , Wabisuke 面を上げろ,侘助 [Raise your head , Wabisuke]
Bankai: Unknown
Special Moves: Unknown
Name: Shiba Kaien 志波 海燕 [deceased]
Rank: Former 13th Divison Vice Captain
Zanpakuto: Nejibana 捩花 [screw flower]
Shikai Command: Suiten Sakamake , Nejibana 水天逆巻け,捩花 [uncoil the liquid heavens , Nejibana]
Bankai: Unknown
Special Moves: Unknown
Name: Ishida Uryu 石田 雨竜
He use Bow and Arrow . Specials moves are unknown .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
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First of all , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JINGMING ! next year let's go buy alcoholic drinks together ok ? hahas .
i know i didn't post pictures like i did in the past and especially now my posts are flooded mostly about my love life . bear with it , i know it's boring for people to read .
now , my eyes are swollen . from double eyelid to single eyelid . yes , i cried for don't know how long and countless time .
i don't want to say much . but the things i wrote in italic will be for him to read .
i don't know if you are mistaken that i insist on patch up .
yes , i want but not now since i know that you have not fully recover from the previous ones . i am not dumb you know .
i don't expect anything because as time goes by , everything will be fine and it will come naturally .
if you want to stop hurting me , then don't ignore me or trying to push me away . it doesn't help as i am as deep as i can't get out from it anymore .
i know that currently you can't return my love or anything . i understand . i also know that you just want to stop hurting . i am glad that you also appreciate for me being nice to you and so patient .
just leave it this way . time will prove everything .
and yes , i am very depressed . you hate to see me cry so don't make me cry ya (:
i love you and still love you as ever and always .
finally , i have cleared what i actually wanna tell him yesterday . i only cry , cry and cry . poor joey laopo . once picked up the phone , i was crying . thanks laopo to be there for me . love ya too (:
i think i am slightly ok . i just hope there isn't any sudden attack . i can't take it any further as i am reaching my limit .
today , someone supposed to come and teach me some JC stuffs . in the end , he didn't turn up . well , it is also good lahhs . if not he see my eyes , he will be shocked to death . LOL .
how many days more to final judgement ? oh god . 10 more days .
i still got many things yet to be done . my aunt's shopping blog . arghhh .
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troubled .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Monday, January 14, 2008♥
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i am alone at home . kinda of lonely . i only can hear sounds from my surrounding , what else ?
here i am , sitting on my bed with my laptop , typing this post and waiting for some particular person's message . till now i haven't receive a single one .
i am looking at the screen with solitude in my eyes . i want to scream . i want to shout . i want to cry . but who's there for me to listen ? who's there for me to confort me with a hug .
the answer is no one .
in fact , i was quite pissed and unwilling to message him . yet , i am soft hearted . i gave up the angriness , took off my fake mask , raise up my courage to sms him . yes , it's kinda of stupid . but it's hard for me .
i am so excited upon looking at my phone when the message ringtone rang . however , it's not him . again and again , it pours into my disappointment .
i stared into the empty spaces . i don't get to sleep well as i am too occupied with so many things . yes , him . but another one is results . i can't sleep till i exhaust myself till the morning and i collasped and sleep . seldom eat as the mood is affecting me .
i am so pathetic . because of such stuffs , i am in this weak state . but what can i do ? i can't help it .
how i wish that i will never wake up from my sleep just for days . i need some break from the reality . more of them are coming up to give me more problems .
i really hate to see people to worry for me , especially those who are close to me . joey laopo has been helping me to share my problems this few days . thanks laopo , my cousin carol and aunt eunice to be there for me .
i think i need to stand up again when my 3 days break from noise is over . crying for a few days and it will be time for me to return to my old self (:
please enlighten me of what you have been thinking and doing .
don't torture me this way .
it is hard for me to be myself if you are giving me cold treatment .
is there something you want to tell me ?
though regardless of what ,
you won't change my mind or anything .
but i just want to know .
you seems a little strange since 2 days ago .
is there something happen ?
is there something occur which what you actually wants instead of staying by my side ?
who know's if you don't tell me .
my dear , please be fair to me .
i am not as strong as you think .
without knowing anything ,
i suffer more .
but ...
i still love you .
melancholy .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Sunday, January 13, 2008♥
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTERS !
today , mummy brought us to salon to cut hair , i rebond my hair . actually , i wanna dye my hair if mummy not bringing me to rebond . guess i don't have to (:
hmm , kinda of upset . some particular people seems to ignore me for the past few days . today , worst . play MIA game . haiiz . i don't know what to do or what to say . i feel soooo insecured .
OH GOD , PLEASE HELP ME !
tomorrow till wednesday will be quite quiet with my sisters in school for camp . i will be real alone at home . siians .
this few days , i can't sleep due to the counting down of getting o level results . real fast . in addition , someone makes me more headache with the sudden neglect . haiiz . don't know what he wants lahhs .
i was waiting for his sms and now one unexpected person sms me . siians .
anyway , people , please visit http://www.whitehearts-shopping.blogspot.com for the lastest update on handphone accessories . hello kitty are also available .
actually , i have more design buy my aunt forget to give me the price list . arghhh .
why you suddenly MIA ?
why you this few days kinda of cold and neglect me ?
i don't know what to do already .
please enlighten me .
saddened .
worried and flooded with thoughts .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Saturday, January 12, 2008♥
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i just came back for dinner . steamboat . not very nice though . hahas .
well , i am having a slight headache . somehow , i didn't manage to sleep till 8am this morning . worst , my phone kept on ringing while i was asleep . what a day .
mummy came around 4pm to fetch us out . we went to orchard for awhile then we went to bugis for dinner . steamboat . as i mention , it is not really very nice .
we went to bugis street for shopping of clothes . my sisters bought those punk-rock-lolita style . some are quite nice though i don't wear this sort of clothes .
i bought a metallic top . my sisters say it must be wore with a legging if not it looks strange . perhaps ya . i bought a blue dress top too . i was wondering whether should i wear it with a white skinnies .
oh god . i can't decided . hahas .
i think i will still be going out to shopping but not so soon cos i am broke . should i shop for some cosmetics instead ? anyway , i am waiting for my chanel two way cake .
siians . results are coming in 13 days time ? that's according to the rumor date , 25 january 2008 . i keep on having a nightmare on getting more than 20points . haiiz . hopefully , it is 15 and below . i worked freaking hard .
tomorrow , i will be rebonding my hair . i am thinking of dye hair but i don't know if i should . fickle minded . LOL . maybe i should change my fringes ?
i miss you lahhs .
can't stand a day without contacting you .
love you sooooo much (:
wondering .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Friday, January 11, 2008♥
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PK !
finally , your turn to officially turned 17 ! hahas (:
actually , i have nothing to blog . just simply not in a good mood and state . arghh . i am having a headache now . with more problems , head more pain .
now i am waiting for my dinner . basically , i haven't eat anything today . where's my food ? it seems like i am on diet but i am just too lazy to move my butt . LOL .
i am soooo bored . what have i done for the entire day ? the answer is nothing . all i did was sleep , playing DS , updating blog right now and stare at my phone stupidly waiting for a particular someone's message .
apparently , none of the message belongs to that person . saddened .
actually intend to go to fencing training but i am having headache . haiiz . now , i am trying to find things to keep me occupied . if not , i will have wild imagination again .
i have been waiting for your message for the entire day .
do you know ?
i can't see you for this weekend .
i wonder when .
upon knowing this ,
it spoil my weekend's mood .
when you will ever know how i feel ?
sadden but yet , i still love you .
bored .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Thursday, January 10, 2008♥
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the photo was taken when i went to work with joey (:
pk and i ; going to cut the cake .
the pretty foursome (:
our cake .
us again (:
sarah , pretending is her birthday . LOL .
pk posed .
my turn . hahas .
calene's monkey pose .
blow out already and yet she still blow . LOL .
what is she doing ???
my share of cake with the lovely ichigo (:
chocolate fondue at andersen of denmark .
us , posing . pk looks like she gonna give me a peck . hahas .
i can't wait to eat !
me , grining while eating .
calene and sarah feeding each other .
looks delicious ?
i want to eat lahhs . but got to pose .
now then i realise . why got 4 sticks ?
mymy , calene with her mouthful of food .
calene and sarah again .
nice shot huh . by sarah (:
taken at the angle where calene sat . sooooo dirty .
sarah's side is cleaner .
my birthday present from pk and sarah (:
today , we went to AMK hub to have our dinner . all of them were late and got some scolding from me . next time , i must go one hour later the time i am supposed to go . humphs .
it was to celebrate our birthday . when we finished our dinner , calene wanted to went to the washroom . however , she didn't go cos she said that it was tooo far . i scolded her . in the end , guess what ?
5 minutes after she came back , the people from the restaurant came and sang birthday song , along with a birthday cake . she said that she went to ask them to bring birthday cake . LOL . i have scolded wrong person .
we took some photos and ate our cake . it is soooo nice .
we went to walk around the place and we got tired . so we decided to rest at the ice cream shop named andersen of denmark . we ordered chocolate fondue . yum yum . they are really very nice . we took many photos again .
the people beside us kept on looking at us . oh damn . they never see people camwhore is it . or it is because they can't camwhore ? stupid people . we got soooo pissed .
after that , we went separate ways . actually , i intend to go to my cousin's house . i think she slept already since she didn't pick up my call . i took a cab home .
i am very tired . stupid blogger . i spend quite some time to upload those photos . arghhh .
i am soooo vexed .
really . without knowing what are you thinking ,
it's hard for me .
i don't know if you are trying to make it difficult or what .
but you are really hard to guess .
my dear , give me a break and don't make it so hard for me .
the will is there but my mind and body may not take it .
spare a thought for me , will you ?
haiiz . it is soooo hard for me to make you happy and to entertain you .
regardless of what ,
i still love you .
tired .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Wednesday, January 09, 2008♥
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first of all , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEIYANG .
guess what ? now i have already start thinking what to give to my precious one for Valentine's day . kinda of too early , isn't it ?
but i just can't think of what to give lahhs !
from sec 1 till now , i gave him all sort of different stuffs . now what ? oh god . what should i give ? make a puzzle ? DIY ? haiya , don't know lahhs ! hahas .
you know , everytime after talking to him , i always find that my day isn't that depressing though i miss him alot . looking at his messages , i will always smile to myself . hahas . i just can't help it (:
now now , he asked me to call him a strange name . vladimir or something . i don't know what the hell it means . he said if i call him that till the end of the month , he will tell me why . strange huh . i can't find what it means in the net too .
so anyone can enlighten me what it means ? hahas .
he is just too cute to find those cute ways to make fun of me or disturb me . LOL .
tomorrow , i will be going out with besties to celebrate PK's birthday . time really flies pass sooo fast .
still , one more thing . anyone interested in handphone accessories spree ? hello kitty . cute and affordable . clothes spree is still on , instock will be updated soon . visit http://www.whitehearts-shopping.blogspot.com
you are really making me sooooo happy (:
thinking , smiling and wondering .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Tuesday, January 08, 2008♥
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i was soooo bored , spending my time at home watching 微笑pasta . the guy is soooo shuai alright . anyway , i wasn't in a real good mood .
my dearest , i really don't know what you are thinking . with all the hardwork , will i ever get to touch your heart ? did i managed to do it on the day we went out for a movie ?
seriously , i really don't know .
you leave me with lots of questions which i am unable to answer , i doubt you can too . now i begin to wonder , how am i supposed to reach you when at best i only can see you once a week ?
tell me the answer . it isn't a positive answer .
i have tried my best to be very understanding . yes , busy with work and exams . as i said , if you are not free and don't have time , i will have time for you . it doesn't matter .
however , this is really soooo hard for me . i tried to be encouraging and to be supportive when you are busy with work . i don't want your apology for not having enough time for me . i don't mind .
the main point is that i want you to know how i feel . don't make me feel like you are hard to reach and i got to stretch extremely hard to reach for you . i am a human being , not a god .
i will be very patient so don't you ever try to push me away or something . you know what i mean . currently , that's all for now .
i really love you alot which make me willing to sacrifice time for you . remember it .
don't let it be a dream .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Monday, January 07, 2008♥
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yan took this photo . kinda of funny . LOL .
yan's flats and my heels (:
my secret recipe's strawberry cheese cake . yum yum !
me , cutting the cake .
the first bite .
taken before going out .
reflection .
yan and i (:
vivo city .
mama and i (:
ok , it's my birthday . so it's strange to wish myself . LOL .
anyway , i went out with yan and mama . yan was late so in the end , we were late for an hour . we went to eat KFC and we went around shopping . too bad , there wasn't any nice clothes . sadden .
for dinner , we can't decide what to eat . at last , we stopped at pastamania . i ate a 10 inch pizza myself . LOL . after that , we went to secret recipe to eat cheesecake and ice cream . yum yum . hahas .
i am sooooooooo happy with this year's birthday celebration . again , i am soooooo touched with people remembering my birthday (:
thanks zhenhui korkor , suzie , mama , liping , xinying , xinli jie , aaron , riona , pricillia , aunt sharon , weimin , yenling jie , sabrina , jimmy korkor , weiquan , cindy , kenneth chew , hila , weixiang , rasyiqah , matthew , ellyn , lizhen , ronald , kellie ,kelly , spencer and lingle .
i miss you so much .
since you are busy , it's ok .
jiayou piggy .
love you (:
happy day !
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Sunday, January 06, 2008♥
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me , before going out .
fencing . kuanyong and shayne .
kuanyong with a twist . isn't him cute ? hahas .
joey laopo and i . we were wearing white color top (:
us again , taken at KTV in bedok .
piggy laze around while steve was singing .
me , with piggy behind act dao . hahas . soooo cute =p
my shuai ge piggy (:
he is so cute , isn't he ?
camwhoring . hahas .
piggy with a twist and a big smile =)
joey laopo twist to cover her cute face .
piggy and i singing , taken by joey laopo .
another picture of us singing duet .
piggy stands up (:
piggy and steve .
daddy and mummy . she looks blur isn't it ? hahas .
me , taken at clarke quey .
few more minutes before i turn 17 . time has really fly pass soooo fast that i have graduated from secondary school and turn 17 soooo soon .
yesterday .
i went to PRCS cca open house . well , it was still as crowded as ever with students around the place . i was alone as joey laopo was soooo late . i made her treat me drinks . hahas .
we went to piggy house then we took bus 12 to chinatown . unfortunately , the KTV at chinatown was fully booked . we wanted to go to katong's KTV instead . again , it was fully booked . sooooo unlucky . in the end , we went to the KTV at bedok .
singing with the same old gang is fun . piggy finally sing more songs than usual (:
anyway , i must say that something unpleasant happen in between . only joey laopo knows . i saw something which i don't want to see . i went out , called yan and cry it out . my make up was destroyed by the tears .
i was ok later on . we can't decide where to eat so we went to KFC to eat buddy meal . hahas . i should have taken the photos of it . what a pity .
joey and steve went off while piggy and i went to century square to catch a movie . there was nothing nice to watch as piggy watch most of the nice ones . in the end , we decided to watch warlord .
since there was one hour plus before the show starts , so i went home to put some of my stuffs , took a bath , remove make up and change my tedious heels to slippers . not to be forgetten , i brought a jacket too .
the show was alright . interesting and i would give a 7 stars to it .
i don't feel like going home after the movie so we just walked to pasir ris as there was no bus at midnight .
the road to pasir ris is real dark . i was scared . if it wasn't for piggy , i will trembled till i reached the destination .
today .
i woke up pretty late . steve flooded my phone with miss calls and messages . i ate my lunch and laze around before i went home .
mummy was already at home when i was back . of course , i said that i went out earlier to get things from my friend . a white lie don't kill . hahas .
we packed some of the things as we will be moving to our very own house soon , at the end of this month for very sure .
we went out to fetch daddy and we went to clarke quey to have dinner . the food was delicious . we walked around and we ate the turkish ice cream too . lemon flavour is real nice . we went home afterwards .
tomorrow , i will be going out with yan to celebrate my birthday .
for now , thanks piggy , joey laopo , dimple korkor , daddy , mummy , steve , my sisters , clarissa , weijie , joseph , gangjie , gerald , my aunt , colleen , calene , jianhao , sarah and course , yan to wish me happy birthday .
thanks for spending time with me .
i appreciate it alot .
though tears keep on rolling down ,
i still love you .
though i am always acting tough an sprouting nonsense ,
i still love you with my heart and soul .
regardless of what , you don't have to explain ;
because i understand it all .
if you are busy , i will keep myself occupied and wait for you .
no time for me ?
it's ok because i will have time for you instead .
don't push me away because of whatever reason .
i need you because i love you , not the other way round .
you are a dear to me .
i love you .
filled with love .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Friday, January 04, 2008♥
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well , i know it's a little late . but the following stuffs are the resolutions of the year 2008 !
#1 slim down !
#2 save more money by shopping less =p
#3 hardworking and get good results .
#4 get 15 and below so that i can go to Tampines JC =p
#5 spend more quality time with my family and relatives .
#6 treat piggy better <3
#7 together forever with blackhearts hime sisters .
#8 get promoted to JC 2 with splendid results .
#9 stop falling ill like last year .
#10 be happy with my love ones , especially piggy , always (:
that's all , i think . the 10 resolutions i can think of .
tomorrow , i will be going to PRCS cca open house . i will help out some . afternoon , i think i will be going out . with who ? it's a secret for now . shhhhh (:
i think that will be the best birthday present but of course , the person also must give me one . muahahaha . i am sooooo evil . LOL .
loving you ...
bored yet happy .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Thursday, January 03, 2008♥
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camwhoring while i have nothing to do =p
so boredddd .
reflection . hahas .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEIMIN ! surprisingly , he still remember my birthday . LOL .
today , i meet yan and my aunt out to town . nothing to do . we were just too bored . i sw christina at the train . hahas . it seems like i always saw someone i know when i was out .
we shopped around the places . i bought a black skirt and a shirt . they are damn nice alright . i have also bought some simple star earrings . finally got something to fill in my other earhole .
maybe i should pierce on my left ear . but if i pierce somemore , someone may scold me . think better not . hahas . =p
i was quite pissed when fiona sms me and told me that the school didn't give clear instructions for the withdrawal form . why should we travel so far just to withdraw ? can't my friends help us take that freaking damn form ? Millennia institute really sucks . fuck off lahhs .
anyway , i saw my primary school friend , daniel , working at hereen adidas . hahas . he really very change alot . he grow sooooo tall . he is taller than me for about one head even though i was wearing 3 inch heels .
i am kinda of tired right now . i think is because of yesterday's events . stupid . if i was going to MI for 6 weeks , i rather jump off the building and die .
OH GOD , PLEASE LET ME GET FANTASTIC RESULTS FOR MY O LEVEL FOR ME TO GO TO TPJC !!
i miss you . i miss you . i miss you .
a tiring day .
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Wednesday, January 02, 2008♥
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well , i am not in the mood to take any photos though i have brought my camera . i am really very tired and having headache .
i woke up darn early and went out to meet rasyiqah and yan . MI is really damn big . basically , i am having fun there . i make new friends and dancing was kinda of funny . yan and i can't stop laughing when i am dancing with a stranger guy .
the food was unappealling so i didn't eat anything till after school , which was 5pm . seriously , i hate the stupid principal , DM and OM . they are like gays and soooo disgusting . i can't see a difference between them and mr ong . LOL .
i decided that i will never go there again . yan and i decided to withdraw from the school . afterall , TPJC is better but i can't get in . i think we will be spending our time doing shopping blog . sell perfumes i think . hahas .
i want to study lahhs . hahas . anyway , we went to orchard to take my commission and yan's pay . she can't get hers yet . after i get , we went to AMK to meet mummy and my cousin . we ate dinner and went home .
mummy open the letter box and i got many polytechnics newsletter . don't know for what siia . hahas . best of all , i got a best progress award . yes ! 150 bucks . hahas .
tomorrow , i will be going out with my aunt and yan . boring lahhs .
and one thing . MY SISTER IS A FCUKING BITCH .
happy , happy and happy (:
i am soooo in love with you ♥
Tuesday, January 01, 2008♥
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taken before i went out to work (:
after work , in my uniform .
myself , joey and janice .
joey and i (:
myself , joey , jiahui and janice .
uncle rom and mummy .
aunt and i (:
another picture of us .
mummy and aunt .
mummy and i .
uncle gary and aunt .
well , first of all , HAPPY NEW YEAR ! WELCOME year 2008 ! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY !
i haven't been blogging for days . i was too tired as i kept on sms-ing till very late .
3odec , sunday .
i went to work today . i meet joey at kallang and we took a cab to geylang . seriously , the place is very complicated . i don't even let my mummy know that i am working as an event girl there . we nearly got lost . thankfully , we found our way .
it rained for the 1st one and a half hour so we just sat down at the coffee shop with the others . after that , we went back and got scolding from the singtel people . but it is stupid lahhs . she can't expect all of us to work on rainy day .
we went to walk down the streets with janice , jiahui , joey and 5 guys . the guys were our escort as the place is darn complicated . well , you can see those china women there . yucks . got police there too . you can see people running around the place . hahas .
we walked for about 6 rounds and we called it a day . we took some photos and then jiahui , joey and i took a cab .
31dec , monday .
i was pretty tired on that day . i didn't take an afternoon nap the day before and i slept quite late . i was bored anyway . no one ask me out to countdown . hahas .
i called steve to ask where were they going . however , i got angry in the end . i nearly quarrel with him . i was like sooooo pissed the whole day lahhs .
at night , i went to pub with my mummy they all . well , my sisters can't go cos it is more risky . nothing much . i just go there and sing nia . actually , i was kinda of feeling down . we went home at about 3am .
i fell asleep as soon i got into my bed . i am soooo tired .
today.
i am doing blogging and nothing else . i am waiting for mummy to bring us out to buy my sisters' school shoe .
tomorrow will be the 1st day of school . seriously , i really don't feel like going anywhere other than tampines jc . but too bad , i can't get in there . haiiz .
hopefully , everything will be just fine !
i just want you to be happy .
but i can't deny that i still love you deeply .
i miss you sooo much that i can hardly sleep .
wondering ...
i am soooo in love with you ♥
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