t0dayy iish the lastt dayy 0f the yearr 2004.... iintending t0 g0 c0untd0wn... hehez... s0 ask k0r t0 0rganize.... hehez... den ii ask Mia0 Chan n Pei Jun t0 g0 al0ng.... hahaz.... den at nitez after uncle g0 t0 airp0rt lia0z,we wentt 0ut n0rhx.... hehez.... den g0 the cheers dere meet dem.... raiiny day s0 nv g0 pasir ris park... den cann0t decide whhere t0 g0 l0hz... s0 Mia0 Chan suggested t0 g0 m0ii h0use.... fine wid me anywayy.... den g0 Tampines Mart de mac eat 1st n0rhx.... den g0 h0me... Pei Jun g0 Mia0 Chan h0use 1st... s0 k0r,Steve n hiim f0ll0w me... den g0 h0me lia0z n0rtx l0ng,me,Mia0 Chan n Pei Jun n0rtx iin the gd m00d n0rhx... cryy iin the end.... then lyk dat we pass the lastt dayy 0f 2004...

~the snowy gal leaving the sad mem0ries 0f yr 2004~

t0day mahz.... g0 0ut n0rhx... my mummy make me waiit ferr veryy l0ng siia... ii m late ferr abt 1hr.... stupiid.... den jiie,k0r n his frens n hiim c0me n l00k ferr me l0hz.... haiiz.... s0 paii seh.... then ii g0 Tampines mrt statiion de platform.... g0 meet Fi0na,Michelle n Li Hui dere.... den 0n the traiin we t0k n0rhx... makiin n0iise dere.... hehez.... den reached liia0z g0 arcade meet Mia0 Chan,Pei Jun,Bernard n the 2 Jasons.... g0 playy ferr a whiile n0rhx.... den after dat g0 eat Yoshinoya wid Jasons',Fi0na,Michelle n Li Hui whiile the others g0 KFC.... den waiit fer Christie.... den g0 KFC meet dem.... hahaz.... then afterr dat g0 Hereen.... g0 dere take ph0t0... hahaz... den Gladys n Yvonne c0me nehz....den k0r dunn0 wad he wan t0 tel me lahz.... den sp0iil my m00d.... den afterr dat g0 Taka...g0 Kinokuniya t0 buy b00ks.... den g0 ar0und l0hz.... dunn0 where t0 g0... Mia0 Chan dey al g0 play arcade.... lolx... den affter dat jiie n ii g0 buy thiings t0 eat.... siit at the staiircase dere.... den i abiit bad m00d c0s 0f hiim n0rhx.... haiiz... ii m sad lehz....... then Michelle ask me t0 l00k back n ii see many ppl lyk persuading hiim n0hx.... den suddenly ppl ask me t0 siit at the p0siti0n den al siiam.... den he c0me n siit besiide me.... den ii veryy nervous.... den he sayy dunn0 wad waiit ferr hiim.... den sliient den afterr dat he say dat g0 h0me den t0k abt it.... den juz lyk dat l0hz.... haiiz.... ii dunn0 lehz.... haiiz.... den the Jas0ns' g0 Tampines wiid us.... 0n the traiin theyy tryy t0 help me ii thiink.... haiiz... den g0 Tampines Mall eat dinner.... den g0 Century Square arcade.... jie,k0r n his frens n hiim dunn0 g0 where.... den g0 h0me.... ii call hiim as jiie ask me t0 call de.... den k0r say sch reopen den he will giive me ans... haiiz.... dunn0.... haiiz....

~the snowy gal ish very c0nfused.... haiiz...~

haiiz.... t0day ii cryy duriing traiining.... c0s 0f the Nich0las lahz.... say say say.... i meann he nv sayy me lahzz... ish ii veryy sensetiive de.... g0 say him n pei jun.... haizz.... i m hurtt.... i actually sit dere quietly nv t0k t0 any0ne.... but whenn Crystal finiished fenciing n appr0ached me, she askk me wad happened... i refused t0 tel any0ne but end up i criedd.... i askk her t0 acc0mpany me t0 the ladies n i cryy.... she c0mf0rted me.... haiiz.... i feel s0 useless.... cryy s0 easilyy.... bef0re me iish Crystal.... she nearlyy cryy... haiiz... c0s 0f her mum n Harry.... herr mum g0 sms Harry n0rtx t0 disturrb herr n st0p sms herr.... anywayy iish n0rtx abt lurve mahz... mus she d0 thiis t0 Crystal... den iin the traiin Harry veryy quiet.... he cried lehzz.... den when i l00kin n smiling wid Jun Yuan,he l00k at the b0th 0f us.... l0ts 0f tiime lia0z...thiink he still lurve Crystal de bahz.... see him treat Crystal s0 differently fr0m Pearlyn can see.... haiiz... i d0n understand y ourr mum iish s0 unreas0nable sumtimes?? d0n beliieve wad we say already veryy hurtiing n yet say m0re hurtiing de thiings.... haiiz.... den t0day the c0ach g0 check my epee... wiire br0ke siia.... haiiz.... chamm.... gt t0 re-wire.... $20 siia.... thenn afterr dat i b0rr0w weapon frm Jing Si t0 fence n0rhx... i fence wiid Harry... wa la0... i l0se lyk sia0.... dunn0 h0w t0 fence hiim siia... he c0me ii s0 scared.... den afterr dat i nv fence wiid any0ne... c0s.... juzz siimply 0ne reas0n.... sad.... haiiz... mus made me cryy de nehz.... haiiz.... den after dat g0 eat n0rhx.... Jeremy n Daniel g0 h0me lia0z... den they eat....me,Crystal n Deirdre nv eat l0hz... den after dey eat liia0z g0 h0me.... 0n the traiin veryy funnyy l0hz.... dunn0 y.... juzz siimply veryy funnyy.... hahazz.... then when i g0 mac t0 buy ice cream dat time... i saw teacher siia.... suay.... hehez....

~the snowy gal iish very sad t0day... trying t0 smile but h0w m ii supp0sed t0 smiile wiith0ut hiim?~

waa.... t0dayy verii tireed siaa.... muss wakee up earlyy g0 sch ferr physiical traiining... siann.... grr.... den n0ee wadd... g0 dere 0nly liisten t0 cher t0k nia... den takee c0nsentt f0rm n0rhx... waa la0.... my g0d.... but 0s0 b0 bian nahz... den me n Crystal stay bak t0 watch dem train n0rhx... siian... den Jeremy 0s0... hahaz... ka0z... the plastr0n damn xpensive n0rhx... $130... but den me,Crystal n Jeremy takee 1st l0hz... den t0dayy whenn i g0 sch dat tym,takee the samee bus as Nicholas,Xue Qian nn him n0rhx.... he 0s0 blurr de.... nv butt0n his shiirt sia... haizz.... den juzz askk hiim t0 butt0nn n0rhx.... den in sch wait fer dem t0 finish training den g0 h0me... i g0 h0me wid J0ey nn Rachael... hahaz.... den i saw Mia0 Chan att the bus st0p... she nv g0 ch0ir againn sia.... hahazz.... bad gal....lolx... i g0 mac wid Rachael fer a while lahzz... she eat mahzz... den chat n0rhx... den g0 h0me preparing g0in t0 arcade... ka0z... Mia0 Chan g0in t0 bugis wid Michelle dey al 1st den c0me... b0 bian i meet Pei Jun 1st... then when i g0 c0miics c0nnectii0n dat tym,i saw Xin Li... wid herr bf w0rx... *evil grin* i keep disturbing dey al norhx.... den after dat g0 arcade... her bf play r0ck fever damn pr0 sia.... 0mg.... scaryy... den i plat wid Pei Jun n0rhx.... wa la0... dere ish an idi0t keep dia0x me.... ka0z.... den after Xin Li n herr bf g0 watch m0vie lia0z.... Michelle n Mia0 Chan c0me... den g0 dance para... den the 0ther ch0ir de gals c0me.... but dey nv stay ferr l0ng... g0 bak veri early... thinkk deyy gt b0red lahzz... hahaz.... den Pei Jun 0s0 left veri early lahzz... ka0z... t0day at arcade gt ppl ask ferr our fone n0. .... ka0z.... hahaz.... aiya we 0s0 dun caree.... den g0 h0me n0rhx.... mus laterr g0 buyy pizzaa mahzz.... hahazz....
~the snowy gal will wait fer euu f0rever de.... lurve ya....~

Huray! Today can skip physical training.... hope they do iron man today so tml only play game nia... *evil grin* hahahahahaz..... but then of cos.... we got to go Clementi fer training.... hahaz.... today i m early manz.... reach pasir ris interchange at 8:30am.... hahaz.... after buying sweets, i saw Daniel.... hahaz.... then Crystal n Jeremy come liaoz.... still no sign of him... soon, Deirdre n Pei Jun n Harry come liaoz he still haven come....overslept mahz.... play here n there.... dunno nxt yr how.... he nortx worry i worry fer him.... then before he come,we saw Mr Leung.... hahaz.... then after dat he come liaoz go to the train norhx.... i damn tired sia... i nv slp yesterday.... kaoz.... hahaz.... but later after training i still wan to go arcade sia... hahaz....then today de training arhx... at 1st abit siong lahz.... but then after dat slack as my blade faulty mahz.... hahaz.... then when the training end.... kaoz... Nicholas n Derrick damn disgusting sia.... omg.... dun wish to say liaoz.... hahaz.... then go take bus norhx.... wa lao.... i still wan to slp sia.... wish i can lie down on his shoulder.... haiz.... sleepy sleepy..... waahaa.... then after dat i go home i slp fer abt 1hr... the Miao Chan come my house liaoz.... askin me to go arcade.... bo bian mus wake up norhx.... hahaz.... then go there liaoz horx.... wa laoz.... the song dat i play special de ish in a mess sia.... hahaz.... then para still ok.... dance expert mode mahz.... hahaz.... still can lahz.... ddr.... so so... still the same... dere ish a gal keep lookin at the both of us playing sia.... sure she play veri lousy then buay song diaoz us lohz.... kaoz.... hahaz.... anyway.... my rock fever ish getting abit beta liaoz.... mus train hard nehz.... but then no money.... sob sob.... haiz... tml still gt to go sch.... sian.... iron man sia.... damn tired.... but then at least i still can see him fer 3hrs... hahaz.... happy.....

~the snowy gal ish veri tired rite now....ZzZz....~

Today ish christmas eve.... haiz.... the most boring de christmas eve liaoz.... i m veri lonely.... more ever tml ish the 25th.... another 25th.... haiz.... the 5th mth liaoz... haiz.... i m al alone.... really juz simply hope he ish by my side.... but dats impossible.... y mus this kind of thing happen to me.... haiz.... without him.... i really dunno how to smilez oso... this year de christmas eve ish the saddest day i had nv ever have lohz.... haiz.... at home oso nth to do.... go out many ppl mahz.... sianz arhx.... juz sleep.... missing him.... lurve him.... thinkin of him.... dream of him.... smile at the photos dat we take together..... look at the msgs dat he send me (of cos nortx the break up msg lahz....) haiz.... sianz.... yesterday help more than 100 ppl rite testimonial rite till hand oso pain.... sleep till 4pm then wake up lohz.... haiz.... this christmas ish BORING.... i m al alone.... alone.... lonely.... sad.... depressed.... hugging my pillow n cry.... y m i soo unlucky??? i dun understand.... things abt lurve oways seems to be veri bad fer me.... bad omen.... bad feeling.... break up.... y?? oways me.... juz cannot let me simply have someone to be wid me?? sharing al the happiness n sadness wid him??? y he juz cannot understand how i feel?? i m al here waiting fer him.... fer his lurve.... fer his care.... fer his everything.... juz wan him to give m a chance.... y i cannot have.... dats my wish.... cannot mahz.... haiz.... juz feel lyk hugging him.... really.... i lurve him lots.... really hope he can think thru.... haiz.... buden now ish 25th midnight.... this time make me remember of how me stead.... how we get together.... how we have gone dat far.... the kisses.... hugs.... haiz.... dat will be forever in my memories.... anyway i wish everyone a merry christmas!

~the lonely snowy gal who miss her lurve one veri much.... this christmas make me think of the day we get together.... juz simply a veri happy moment.... but now.... lonely.... al alone...~

Today lyk the same.... gt training lohz..... today Pearlyn got go norhx..... hahaz....go there see nia....hahaz... then when on the way i goin to the MRT station, i take 17.... i saw him.... take the same bus....i m veri happy.... anyway think today ish the last training lohz... haiz...dunno when can see him norhx..... anyway having fun wid him lohz.... getting beta liaoz... then today i nortx feeling well.... but in order to see him, i still go...haiz....the training to me ish lyk hell.... my body this few week ish nortx veri gd lahz.... but i juz keep quiet.... haiz.... then my epee arhx... siao liaoz.... faulty manz.... haiz.... everything i do oso nortx gd.... then veri tired lohz..... then after training go kfc.... actually i cannot eat but then the whole day i haven eat anything so eat lohz.... i feeling more worse....i go bak wid Jeremy,Daniel n him norhx.... cos Pearlyn got to go home early norhx.... then Crystal go bak wid her lahz.... then on the train i feeling damn bad.... wanna vomit..... die sia.... i sit down there.... i wanna someone can lend me shoulder to lie on it..... kill me i oso dun wanna lie down on Jeremy de shoulder....then i ask him norhx..... he die die oso dun wann let me lie down.... haiz.... ask Daniel le, he tok crap to me.... haiz.... really lohz.... lend me shoulder really so difficult mahz... haiz.... then go home wid him norhx..... Daniel taking bus 3 lahz.... then ish lyk slient..... dun really tok much..... haiz.... m i really tt scary? i dun understand..... dunno wad he thinking oso..... haiz.... we had been together fer quite long le but then nw he lyk tt.... really hurt me.... but then i dun blame him....onli can blame myself..... haiz....

~the snowy gal wid the saddest moment.... lurve him forever....~

Today i go out quite early.... so nv late lohz..... hahaz.... then on the train rite..... the Daniel veri disgusting norhx.... yucks.... hahaz.... then we keep bullying Jeremy.... hehez.... bad,weren't we? hahaz..... then today de training okok lohz..... nth special oso.... juz nv jump skippin rope nia..... hahaz.... then after training goin home to put bag then go pasir ris park fer the bbq lohz.... hahaz.... then go there onli saw a few ppl nia.... then go to the cliff dere wid Wen Hui lohz.... then chat dere lahhz..... veri coolin sia.... hahaz.... then until abt 7 sumtin then they start fire..... forget to mention.... juz nw gt a bunch of idiots ask me fer my fone no..... i dun care n run liaoz.... then after tt they ask again lohz.... i ignore them.... then when they go near the bbq peak, i saw Jun Yuan so i quickly pull his hand..... no choice mahz.... mus pretend lahz.... sia lahz.... hahaz.... then go playground dere.... tot they chaoz liaoz..... suay suay see them again.... a guy in blue shirt approach me n Wen Hui.... then keep askin fer fone no. lohz.... aiya then of cos Wen Hui help me gif them fake de norhx.... hahaz.... then go bak liaoz they juz start fire..... cannot light up as the wind ish too strong liaoz.... hahaz.... guess wad Miao Chan do..... go buy fire crackers n then go put at the thing..... omg..... the scariest way i had never ever seen lohz..... hahaz.... then the fire suddenly too strong norhx.... hahaz.... then the guys make lahz.... then eat lohz.... wa lao..... so oily.... kaoz.... the gals put too much of oill liaoz.... then finiish eating, i go see the starz.... wid Wen Hui.... haiz.... i do realli hope ish him lohz.... then suddenly Belinda,Yun Xiu n Joanne al come lohz.... hahaz.... veri cold manz.... then when i go bak, Desmond say tt Jun Yuan gt sumtin wanna tel me.... i wonder true or nortx... but then i run away..... i dunno y..... i realli scared of the ans..... dun dare to noe.... but then when Miao Chan go look fer me.... she told me tt think he dun wanna say liaoz..... haiz.... then after tt they juz go home norhx.... me Miao Chan,my sis n Desmond + his frens dere.... waiting fer my jie,Yen Ling.... but she veri slow... wait till 10.45pm we go home liaoz.... hahaz.... too late le mahz.... hehez.... today realli havin lots of fun norhx.... hahaz.... chaoz.... ZzZzZz.....
~the snowy gal wid the gd memories wid frens but...... ~

Today arhx.... hahaz.... morning dat tym walk to Tampines Mart then realise dat i nv bring my hp.... oh gosh.... then go home take norhx.... then end up goin to late liaoz.... so juz take 291 go tampines MRT ask them to take to Tampines MRT norhx.... hahaz.... so pai seh.... i m oways the one who ish late de lohz..... dunno y.... keep forget abt things.... hahaz.... den when i reach dere, the guys keep saying i 'dua pai' lohz.... nortx i wan de mahz.... oways blame me lohz.... then today de training arhx.... wid St Margret de..... after warm up liaoz then i realise dat my pri sch fren,Kellie,was dere.... hahaz.... nice manz.... heard tt their sch de fencing club ish juz open de.... muahahhahaha.... advantages..... hahaz.... then when free fencing rite.... i fence wid 4 person n i win 2..... the 2 i lose one ish warm up(1st match) n the other one ish i kena distracted by the others as they keep askin him to support me lohz.... then dunno wad crap they say lahz.... then the other 2 horxx.... they dunno how to defence lyk dat norhx.... i attack they step bak nia.... my fren say i hit damn hard.... gt mehz.... hahaz.... anyway veri happy to see her lahz.... i mus win her nxt yr manz.... hahaz.... then after tt go home norhx.... take the same bus wid him.... hahaz.... on the way i keep disturbing him.... veri fun.... hahaz.... goin out wid Pearlyn n Crystal.... wa lao.... i go home my mum keep nagging me abt my room al this.... fer 1hr.... then end up i clean norhx.... haiz.... ish nortx i make de oso wan me to clear everything.... nvm.... then go bugis take neoprints norhx.... then go buy mac... take away.... go the city link mall eat then go esplanade.... hahaz.... then i lyk veri wad lohz.... wear dress.... then the guys lyk veri surprising lohz.... Joey cut her hair damn nice.... fits her face veri well.... hahaz.... then the others gals oso wear veri nice lahz.... the horx.... he wear the clothes damn nice.... juz simply lurve to see him to wear jeans.... hahaz.... then Daniel kor kor n Samuel kor kor wear will veri funny.... hahaz..... then we take the tickets rite.... when we go in.... Rasyiqah sit beside him lehz.... actually she wanna nchange place wid me but then i reject lahz.... haiz..... the 1st half horx.... me n him actually fall asleep.... Crystal say de norhx.... then the concert quite nice lahz.... hahaz.... Christmas songs.... then after tt uncle send me bak lohz.... kkz.... chaoz!

~the snowy gal wid a happy memories....~

Today Michelle goin home liaoz.... will miss her de.... hahaz.... wa kaoz.... damn tired.... i slp at the morning 7+ lohz n she slp at abt 9+.... hahaz... scary rite? then today veri suay lohz.... ezlink card no money then forget to bring my sis de card..... then gt to ask Crystal to lend me money.... then reach there liaoz juz train norx.... see him realli veri happy.... wah...today i haven eat anything sia.... abit no strength..... then they fencing team event.... Jeremy,Daniel,Ronald n him vs Jing Si,Deirdre n Pei Jun..... then Crystal n I gt to practising hitting arm lohz.... then after tt rest.... then the Harry ask me go fence wid him.... i veri scared sia.... hahaz.... but then he let me win lahz.... i didn't noe i manage to hit his hand.... the score ish 15-9 lohz..... hahaz.... then Crystal seems to lose lyk mad bahz.... hahaz.... then still, i lose to Daniel.... dun really noe how to hit him lehz.... compared to Crystal n Nicholas, he veri difficult to hit lohz.... then after tt I go home wid Crystal,Jeremy,Daniel n him.... wa lao.... on the way to MRT horx.... we saw Derrick.... suay.... then he wanna borrow my epee.... i lied tt ish nortx wid me.... actually ish wid Jeremy lahz.... help me take mahz.... then i help Jun Yuan to take norx.... then he pester Jun Yuan fer his epee.... pls lohz.... ppl dun let still wanna pester.... tt time i lend him horx.... the wire already come out liaoz then more worse then one of my screw came out lohz..... scared sia.... dun dare to let him use.... then he pester till the MRT dere.... Crystal,Daniel n Jeremy dunno go where lahz.... then i wait fer them lohz.... the Derrick gif up liaoz lahz.... cos he go pass the control station liaoz mahz.... hahaz.... then go into the train horx.... veri full manz.... suddenly i gt gastric pain as i nv eat anything lohz.... wanna vomit.... haiz.... he dun really concerned abt me.... but anyway i dun care.... really feeling lyk vomitin.... then my sis cal me n say ask me to settle my own meal.... pls lohz... yesterday i lost the $50 already broke lohz..... the comin friday go out still gt to tel my mum to gif me my nxt wk allowence.... haiz.... then intend nortx to eat today lahz.... i die oso nobody cares abt me.... even the person i lurve the most oso dun really gif a damn even i pain lyk mad.... then i take bus 21 wid Daniel n him lohz.... haiz.... on the way juz nv say anything lohz.... juz alight tt time say bye nia.... nvm.... beta then nth.... realli dun feel veri well.... headache.... die.... chaoz....

~the snowy gal ish veri sad.... nobody concern whether i die nortx.... nortx even the person who ish dearest to me,who i lurve the most~

Today arhx... go out wid my pri sch frens.... of cos Michelle oso tagging along.... then today late again lohz.... abit lahz... cos of the stupid bus 518... hahaz.... nvm.... Jia Jun dye his hair.... so style.... then Jason Goh cut hair... hahaz... then Christie gt lots of earholes.... scary.... Daniel they al juz more tan lohz.... Ye Lun juz look beta lahz.... hahaz... then we go taake neoprints at cineleisure.... take wid the pri sch galz.... then after tt take wid Michelle... they go yoshinoya find the galz.... then go take neoprints again.... take wid Michelle n Christie.... the 2 galz seems to be lyk get along veri well..... admiring each other... lolx.... then go arcade play fer a while then go kbox as the guys al there complaining lohz... then go there sing... the guys nv sing much except fer some lahz.... having lots of fun lohz.... hahaz.... then the Joon Liang n Wei Yang they al keep disturbing me... even the Jasons oso... keep saying tt me n Ye Lun.... come on.... tts the past liaoz lohz.... hahaz.... then the Michelle still push me.... the galz still cheering.... omg... i complain to Christie n she say cos her bro nortx there so they keep disturbing me... then i think.... huh... bro nortx there.... then sumtin on my mind.... Jun Yuan.... cos the both of them surname ish 'Chua' mahz.... hahaz.... then after sing fer sumtime liaoz,go arcade lohz.... play lyk mad... then go up stay fer a while then go liaoz... noe wad.... i lost my $50 note le.... omg... then Jason help me pay lohz... then after tt still gt tibits n service charge tt cost $58... oh god.... then Ye Lun pay fer me lohz.... then after tt i rush to Centrepoint to meet my mum.... then uncle bring us go eat dinner then send us bak lohz... hahaz.... then at nitez juz watch tv norx.... n of cos miss him lahz.... today i Sing the song 'Shi Jie Mo Ri' by Jay Zhou.... think of him.... my tears nearly roll down my cheeks.... nvm.... tml gt training.... gd manz... can see him.... yeah.... today Michelle n i m havin lots of fun... saying tt she wanna tag along wid me when goin out wid them... :p

~the snowy gal wid a wonderful memories....~

Today Michelle tag along wid me to go Clementi fer training as she stay at my house yesterday.... we yesterday sleep veri late... 5am.... hahaz....then juz simply late lohz.... Deirdre,Pei Jun,Crystal,Daniel,Jeremy,Harry n him waiting fer us.... so pai seh.... hahaz.... too blur liaoz.... then Deirdre disturb Michelle by saying Samuel's name.... hahaz.... then at there rite... our original training place ish use by the ppl who play basketball.... so no choice go the other side nohx.... then Michelle looking at us training.... hahaz.... poor her.... she keep laughing.... veri funny mehz.... hahaz... anyway today de training still okok lahz.... hahaz.... still nortx tt bad lohz.... then i 1st time fence wid him.... nortx bad lahz.... 5-3.... although i lose, but then ish a nice experience...... then fence wid Crystal.... i win.... then wid Daniel.... omg.... the worse.... dun even score a point manz.... then wid Jeremy.... 10-6..... oways lose de lohz.... wan to flash oso dun dare.... kekezz.... haahaz.... then actually intend after training go the nearby arcade but den Michelle say we beta go Century Square de.... so tt i can go take train wid him.... den juz on the way to the MRT rite... Pei Jun cal me to ask me to check my glove.... i had taken hers.... so embarrassing.... haiz.... maybe think to much liaoz lahz... anyway... on the train rite....we making lots of noise... but den lots of eye contact wid him.... really juz wanna hugz him.... juz once.... but tts impossible.... haiz.... n i realise tt i scold too many vulgar words liaoz.... i must change.... fer him n myself.... nw mus watch my words liaoz.... kekez... then go arcade lohz.... saw Miao Chan n Pei Jun(nortx the fencing de) hahaz... playin rock fever.... then my arms damn pain.... but then still go play para para.... hahaz.... then after tt go home lohz... my father buy food mahz.... hahaz... then finish eating rest liaoz then sleep lohz.... then my mum come bak frm Japan.... she nv buy much stuff lahz.... cos the rate rise.... hahaz.... after tt juz everyone gt the shares lohz.... Michelle oso gt cos my mum buy too much liaoz.... hahaz.... then tml goin out wid pri sch frens.... lookin forward to the outing lohz... hahaz.... hope won spend too much money can liaoz.... hahaz....

~the snowy gal wid happiness.... hope can see him more often lohz.... miss him lurve him...~

Today gt training again.... hahaz.... goin wid Crystal n Jeremy.... then on the MRT dere saw one actor lohz.... hahaz.... then meeting Daniel n him at control station..... then ish lyk they walk veri fast lohz.... lucky Crystal,Jeremy n Daniel noe wad to do despite of i keeping quiet al the way lohz..... kekez.... then reach there onli saw Jing Si dere nia.... then today i gt individual lohz.... wa kaoz.... ish veri de tired lohz.... hand too stiff liaoz.... then my arm n thigh veri pain.... hahaz... tired.... more ever yesterday i tok on fone till 4am lohz.... hahaz.... then today my cousin using veri freak way to wake me up... play the song waiting.... i tot he call manz.... haiz.... anyway i change my blog song liaoz.... to 'Waiting' by BoA.... nice.... gt veri gd de meaning lohz.... cos i realli waiting fer him.... forever.... juz simply cos i lurve him.... haiz.... then after training,i goin bak wid Crystal,Daniel n him.... Jeremy ish mother come bahz.... then today Crystal's mum nortx free.... then gt to take MRT home.... then on the way the Daniel n him make fun of me lohz.... abit angry lahz.... but nvm.... but thn on the MRT rite.... he make fun of me;say i lyk tat idiotic Ronald... .pls lohz.... i won lyk him lohz.... then i m veri angry.... sad.... hurt.... he noes? i doubt so.... i nearly cry there.... he noes? haiz.... forever he won noe how i feel.... dun even noe wadever he said had hurt me.... anyone can disturb me by saying al those craps but he cannot..... angry fer almost the whole journey.... they keep on trying to make me happy.... type on the msg on hp to communicate lohz.... then i tel him how i feel.... depressed.... before he joke wid him,Daniel say tt he wanna see my pics in wallet.... i gif him the whole wallet lohz.... dun expect tt he take the photo tt i take wid him de.... i dunno wad to say oso lahz.... feeling veri akward lohz.... but after tt okok liaoz lahz.... then when reach Pasir Ris,Crystal's mum fetch her bak.... then i follow Daniel n him..... Daniel take bus 17 n the both of us take 12.... then i keep on disturbing him lohz.... tok craps..... hahaz... havin fun lohz.... but then realli miss him.... hope can send me home or wad so ever.... actually in the bus i intend to kiss him de.... but then.... think,beta nortx lohz.... after he alighted,i realli feeling veri sad.... realli hope he noe tt i really lurve him alots.... n waiting fer him.... juz wan him to gif me a chance to lurve him,take care of him..... but did he noe?? juz hope he will go my blog to see....

~the saddest gal wid happy moment wid him today but veri depressed.... hoping him to noe how i feel.... how much i lurve him~

Today i got training.... sian arhz..... yesterday tok on fone wid PK till 4am lohz.... kekez.... haiz... anyway today de training okok lahz.... idiot manz.... the Ronald gt go.... dun wanna see his face..... anyway i dun care oso lahz..... then ish lyk veri fan lohz... cos the Nicholas keep disturbing me.... i dunno how many times mus i tel him tt i m nortx interested in tt Jeremy.... i onli lurve Jun Yuan kkz.... then he lyk veri wad lohz... then when i goin to fence wid Pei Jun, noe wad he say? he say if i win,tt means i lyk Jeremy.... if i lose,tt means i lurve Jeremy.... pls lohz.... veri pathetic de..... but i kena distracted by him.... veri wad de lohz.... then end up lose....haiz.... Jeremy n i am onli bez frens.... nth else.... i swear.... i hope Jun Yuan will noe mistaken lohz.... anyway today me n him tok alot lahz... laughing n joking.... he ish still so cute.... hahaz.... lurve him sooo much.... hahaz.... then today i lose many match lohz.... but then i today realli no strength lahz.... nv eat anything but still go drink lemon ice blended lohz.... kekez.... haiz.... depressed.... but then i do realli hope everything ish ok lahz.... mm.... then after bathing al this, Crystal's mum fetch me n Jeremy home lohz.... then Jeremy n I chat lahz.... decided to share money to buy a present fer Crystal's bdae.... dunno wad to buy oso.... hahaz.... but think give her 'Harry' will be enough lohz.... hahaz.... if she noe wad m i saying, sure die de.... hahaz....

~the snowy gal wid a ray of hopes...~

Today gt training in the morning... kaoz..... when i goin out, my hp low batt..... damn itz...... then ni got to use my sis de fone lohz.... i late fer 15 mins.... hahaz..... kena nag by tat pathetic de Jeremy..... ask him go eat shit..... humphx..... then go there horx.... we still reach there early.... onli see Pei Jun reach liaoz..... then after tt he come le..... haiz..... sad sad..... juz wish to hugz him.... even fer one second oso can..... haiz.... then after tt Jing Si come liaoz.... her leg swollen i think.... then Deirdre nortx coming cos goin dental.... then the Nicholas come abit late.... wid Nazreth..... then then Derrick come..... oh damn.... the training horx... kaoz.... too siong liaoz.... then the skipping rope thingy rite.... keep hitting my head lohz..... omg.... then the training quite siong oso lahz.... then after tt ish free fencing..... then today ish the guys nv wear breeches.... hahaz..... last wk ish the opposite..... anyway i fence wid tat pathetic Jeremy lohz.... dunno y i hit him liaoz then no light de..... god.... then after tt Derrick take over..... haiyo..... dunno y the Jeremy still can gain point..... humphx.... then the Nazreth fence wid him.... oh come on... lose sia.... then the Nicholas preside lohz.... making soo many comment.... then when Derrick fence wid him, of cos i support him lohz.... no need to say de.... then the Nicholas keep saying.... n lahz.... haiyo... make me soo embarrassing.... haiyo..... then Nazreth oso disturb Crystal abt Harry lohz.... poor her... oso one of the victim..... then after the training we gals go bath.... then come out onli see Jeremy.... he ish soo pathetic no wonder the guys dun wan him lohz.... stupid Jeremy..... keep tokin things abt him.... aiya anyway he oso cannot win de lohz.... haiz.... realli miss him miss him miss him..... today gt do pair work wid him lahz.... but then i dunno wad m i doin oso.... haiz.... then we go buy things to eat lohz.... then we go MRT there sit on the floor gossip.... tokin jokes n ghost story.... kekez..... haiz.... then go home still got lots of prob.... my mum quarrel wid my aunt lohz.... haiz.... y must i live in this kind of family?? i wanna get out.... i wanna stay wid him forever.... but nw cannot..... i realli hope he is by my side.... i realli veri desperate tt he can come bak to me.... i feel tat i m the most stupid person who can let go of my happiness juz becos of my mum..... i realli veri guity.... i cried.... i realli veri regret but then wad i have say had hurt him... nth i can do.... i realli hope tt he will noe tt i m waiting fer him.... forever.... till i die.... i won give up.... i realli lurve him n i need him to support me.... it isn't easy to stay in this kind of hell.... hade..... i cannot stand it.... i wanna commit suicide but i remember his words ask me nortx to... must think of him be4 i do anything.... haiz.... nw i nobody noe how i feel..... onli PK understand..... haiz.....

~the saddest gal wid full of regrets,guiltiness,sorrow,worries~

Today i went bak at 9 sumtin..... nearly lost my way.... hahaz.... then the bag ish veri heavy lohz.... then after tt i reach liaoz then take a nap..... then go eat lunch wid my mummy..... then Crystal call me n say tt she ish sick.... fever.... oh god.... then after tt i go meet Jeremy lohz.... on the bus rite.... i saw Derrick..... omg.... so sway mehz..... dun care lahz... then juz tok lohz.... at 1st i m trying to pretend nv see him but then he sit in front of me.... sway.... then i meet Pei Jun n Jeremy liaoz.... then the 4 of us go together.... then when we reached the sports hall, i saw Deirdre,Jing Si n him dere liaoz.... then we al do warm up lohz.... then ish lyk..... still see him.... realli miss him.... hehez.... then the Nicholas come liaoz.... then after tt continue training.... then they keep saying abt me n him lohz.... then end up plus the Jeremy in.... i swear tt i onli love him but nortx tt Jeremy kkz..... damn it..... then the guys nv wait fer us then i go bak wid Jing Si,Deirdre n Pei Jun..... juz tok on the way lohz.... then Jing Si go eat mac.... after tt we go take train..... then we gossip here n there lohz.... hahaz.... fun manz..... actually they r veri friendly de lohz.... lyk actualli i think Deirdre veri quiet de.... but then she ish quite talkative..... hahaz.... nice person lahz.... then after tt i eat at Tampines Mall wid mummy n uncle.... actually wanna watch movie wid them but then is MC18.... no choice but to send me bak 1st.... i m sooo lonely..... but luckily gt him to chat wid me on msn..... haiz..... dunno wad to say oso.... juz feeling veri depressed..... i will wait fer the day tt we can be together n i noe tt i can do it..... ano zettai daijoubu ne? hahaz....

~the saddest gal fill wid hopes~