today the common test is so easy !! hahas . physics maybe i will lose some marks there . but i don't think will be more than 5 marks . hees . =)

hmm , nothing much lohhs . today very attentive in class . i never sleep wors . hees . =x

today took 3 tests altogether , including the common test . hees . the maths test is very easy but i somehow forget how to do trigonometry . about 4 marks gone ?? weijie get full marks mans . hees .

today and tomorrow no training . rest day . next time training will be 4 hours . tired mans . but i got to train hard . i cannot lose to crystal and wenxin .

wenxin , crystal and jeremy in national cadet squad . the girls are acceptable , but jeremy ?!?! oh my goodness !! he can flick me with the blade lying flat on me . very pain . i think he will be kena trash like mad . may god bless him . wahahahaha . * evil grin *

i accompany daniel wait for annette . chatting with him . he seems to be very furious that jeremy is in national team . hahas . i can understand how he feels . hmm , when annette came , so did HE . yes , i saw him . hees . so happy . i didn't saw him for the whole day and FINALLY !!

some of the issues i think better don't say . anyway , i don't care about the things anymore . i wanna clear my mind and try my best not to hate anyone except for NEO AIK GHEE . hahas .

tomorrow i will get my trophies . hahas . so happy . =)

i miss you so much .
finally i get to see you .
once time is enough . =)
missing you . <3

siimply surprised .

hmm . yesterday and today i keep on sleeping . 18 and 12 hours respectively . the 3 days didn't have enough sleep .

siians . tomorrow got school . torture . i haven't study for physics lehhs . the common test , die liaos .

today never go for tuition . i misplaced my wallet . luckily i found it . hmm , i have been very forgetful recently . i wonder what happen to me .

my sis broke up with the shaun lee . finally . that bloody asshole . play with my twin sisters feelings . he never die before niia . he better watch out mans . =X

i miss him so much . i wonder if he know , perhaps . i hope that i can be the one who heal his heart . i wanted to , but secretly . i want him to know how much he meant to me . no one can replaced him in my heart .

i harrts you . =)
thinking of you alwayys .
never leave my mind for a single second . <3

siimply sleeping . =X

i am so tired . just reach home . few minutes to midnight . *yawn*

well , firstly CONGRATS TO ALL PRIZE WINNERS !!
yesterday's event , crystal - women's epee B div Gold . kuanyong and raphael - men's foil C div Gold and Bronze respectively . rasyiqah - women's sabre B div Bronze .

today's team event . men's foil C div and B div - Gold and Bronze respectively . women's foil B div - Silver . women's epee B div - Gold . men's epee C div and B div - Gold and silver respectively . once again , CONGRATS TO ALL PRIZE WINNERS !!

yeah , my eyes hurt . cry like mad lohhs . i never fence a single bout and i got a Gold . what for ? i know i let my juniors get experience but i never contribute anything to the team . though coach says that next time will let me fence for sure .

actually i am the one who supposed to fence with RGS . but he suddenly change to riona instead . she have fence for the 1st round with St Margret . it is so unfair . but everything is over . i got to let it be . daniel , ronald , kellie and junyuan ; thanks for conforting me . =)

yesterday i lost at top 8 to lynette . she is the 1st rank in round robin , of course she will win . but actually i can do it too , just that keep on missing . 15 - 10 . wenxin also lost at top 8 . work harder girl . you can do it !!

today men's foil match is very funny . PRC vs SJI . xavier , whose right leg got injured ( i don't really know where . calf i think . ) , use one leg to hop and fence his 2nd bout . it was so funny . then his last bout with the SJI lefty , he just stand on the en guarde line to hit him . though there is some red card here and there . =p

well , cry for 2 days lerhhs . my eyes is very pain . i cry for more than 15 mins each time lohhs . haiz . i have also lost my voice . screaming here and there till no voice lerhhs .

the RGS girls suck . especially the epeeists . they are bunch of SORE LOSERS !! some bitches walked behind cheryl and say ' we will win for sure . ' my foot mans . end up lose like mad . LOSERS !! one more thing , NEO AIK GHEE SUCKS !! i always think that he is a brainless freak but now i realise that HIS EQ IS REALLY PATHETIC LOW !! 'F OFF' YOU FREAK !

i reached pasir ris park at about 10 + when everyone is going soon . yenling's face got CREAMS !! hahas . nothing much lahhs . just that i cry again . i really hate people to say i never fence and get the trophy , especially is the person who know fencing and who is very important to me . nevermind .

i want to sleep . ZzZzZz ....

simply tired .

now is about 9pm . just come back from clementi . my hands and legs are so numb .

CONGRATS TO THE MEDALIST FROM PRCS .
trivia - women's foil B div bronze . vanessa - women's foil C div bronze . Andy , Eng Liang and Marcus - men's epee C div gold , silver and bronze repectively . GOOD JOB TO THE OTHERS TOO !!

the sports hall is real hot . well , tomorrow is my turn . i am so nervous . got 14 epeeists , including myself . i think i can do it . =)

hmm , although today i have no lessons , but i am quite tired . being a scorer and time keeper is really very tired . hees .

well , nothing much . trivia is seems to be really very sad for losing to cheryl wong . train harder and i am sure you can make it !!

today i only saw him once , to take things from him . i really miss him alot . hees . tomorrow i will think of him when i am fencing . wahahahahas .

oh ya , today i have a nice chat with my primary school friend kellie . tomorrow hope that i won't fence her because ... NO MERCY !! hahas .

i miss you alot . <3
wish to see you tomorrow . =)

siimply tired and nervous .

today . a day that makes me feel very bad . a very special day for the past 2 years and for this year , it is like hell to me . the memories and the things i do haunt me .

i feel like crying but i never . i just simply sit quietly . either sleeping or doing my work . thinking of the thing . really hurt . all my fault . MY FAULT !!

hmm . anyway , today at physics lesson , i went up to HIS class to pass message to jinheng for mrs koh . well , actually i didn't get to go up cos nizam wanna go up for fun . luckily michelle they all shout my name so i can go up . but then so embarrassing . think cher also know lahhs . =x

well , i didn't get to see him . his recess . think he went down lerhhs bahhs . wasted . hahas . hmm , but then after physics lesson , which is my recess , i went to the hall where HIS class is taking photo , to pass up my work . last week never pass up .

yeah . finally i get to see him . this is enough for me lerhhs . better than nothing .

lunch break , yenling look for me to borrow protractor and compass for him . well , i don't have so i borrow from caline . hees . maths paper 2 never bring the mathematical set . i pei fu him . hahas .

well , i was accompany yenling till my break end . i don't really like to sit outside on the floor but i don't want to go into her class cos later other people say something and will have many problems . hees .

the english common test , i think should be can pass lahhs . not a problem i think .

hmm , tomorrow to friday no lesson . wahahahas . qiaoyan gonna be lonely . poor thing . hehes .

siian . my weapon FAIL . think the tip there got problem . should be wire broke or disconnected . so unlucky . hmm , i think i borrow from auntie riona cos she not competiting as too little people for the event to run .

tomorrow only be scorer and time keeper . hehes . but may be very boring . hahas .

i gonna miss you for the 3 days . <3
i wonder ...
do you remember what day is it .
i'm sorry .

siimply depressed .

i am kinda of tired . just come back from training . hees .

MY WEAPON GOT PROBLEM !! siian lohhs . no matter how i try to fix , IT DON"T WORK !! change tip , contact spring all this also no use . what the hell . stupid mans . die lerhhs narr . got to borrow weapon from other people .

YEAH !! competition on school hours . though i only competiting for 2 days , i will be going for the 3 days . that means wednesday to friday NO SCHOOL !! hees .

my team mates are wenxin and crystal . hees . i am afraid that i will pull down the team's score . =(

anyway , today the history common test . i am going to FLUNK lerhhs . DOOMS DAY !! 2 questions i only write about 1 page niia lohhs . die lerhhs lahhs .

tomorrow got english common test . i am so scared siia . scared that i fail my english . =(

i miss you . <3

siimply worry .

just came back from junyuan's house . feeling kinda of sad and joy . don't know how to put into words .

yes , i cry again . i am being weak but i just can't help it . =(

i wanted to know what he is thinking as i see him . but i didn't dare to ask . i am afraid that i will be a burden to him . i am so scared .

i wanted to cry . thinking of the happiest moments we have . and now we are in this pathetic and akward state . i don't know what to do .

sorry . though i promise not to say this . i cannot deny that i still love him so much . i can't deny .

i knew that everything needs time . i hope that time , my care , love and concern can heal the wounded heart . i will recover the shattered heart by myself .

sorry for my habit .
yeah . call your name .
i will remember .
i miss you . <3

siimply waiting , wondering and sad .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIAOYAN !!

yeah . my best sister's birthday . too bad she never go out with me today . =p

today i went out with miaochan , yenling , jer and my sisters . we went to far east plaza .

wahh . i was late plus i forget to bring yenling's disc . she kill me sehh . hees .

nothing lahhs . we just simply shop lohhs . i bought one black bag and the 4 of us bought thick white colour hairband . hees .

after that we went back to pasir ris . jer went home to change while the remaining of us went to yenling's house . her house is so far away from white sand lohhs . we walked there lehhs .

then at night we went to downtown east to eat our dinner . miao went to century square to meet her friends .

nothing lohhs . i went home afterwards . i am going out later . hees . =p

siimply tired .

a terrible day . i wonder why my headache hasn't go away . =(

nothing much . yesterday too tired till never blog . hees .

today the DnT practical was pretty fun . we use the acrylic to put at the sides of the 2 woods . just very fun lahhs . but then we are slacking there . hahas .

then the physics practical . i was staring at the graph paper for more than 10 min . i was so dizzy and blur after that . so small that makes me get irritated easily . hahas .

today the training is pretty tough lahhs . cos next week is our competition . left with today and monday's training lerhhs . headache also much train if not that Neo AG will got something to say lahhs .

well , today many people cry . wenxin , yixi and riona . and today is the 1st time i see coach so angry . i never see him shouting at us before . =x

i am going out tomorrow . hees . =p

i harrts eu .
missing you .

simply sick .

hmm . i didn't go to school again . went to see doctor this morning . luckily i only got 2 medicine . hahas .

my sister never go to school for the 3rd day . i wonder what she really wants . she doesn't seems to be sick and she rather sleep than go see doctor with me . aiya i also don't wanna say her lerhhs .

nothing lohhs . after eat medicine , i sleep like pig . sleep till my mum came home bahhs . very sleepy .

hmm , heard that i top in chemistry test with the score of 27/30 . though not really very sastified but then nevermind . i want PERFECT score . but then the stupid ms tay don't wanna let qiaoyan check or take my paper home . darn her .

wahh , next week so many tests . siian . altogether 6 tests if include the common test . siian norhhs . i wonder how to study . stupid .

well , tomorrow i will be going to school . so tired . going to eat medicine and sleep lerhhs . siian . tomorrow got training . too bad i only got excuse for today's training . if tomorrow also excuse , that means i got no PE . too bad narr .

2 days never go to school makes me miss you so much . <3

siimply sick and boring .

hmm . i am sick . head damn pain norhhs . so xin ku . arghhs .

yeah . i never go to school . at home so boring lohhs . but got diana accompany me cos she also never go school . hees .

well , my head really hurts lahhs . never go see doctor . give letter narr . if tomorrow still like that then i go see doctor lohhs .

siian . tomorrow go training sure get scolding cos friday never go training . so many people never go but cher only find me and riona . guess why . IS THE PERSON WE BELIEVE THE MOST GO COMPLAIN !!

yes , yixi . its her . thats what my sister madeline and shaun lee told me de . she is forcing me to bao toh other people lohhs . what the hell . best friend nehhs . some more she is not captain . riona and i was very angry with her .

yeah !! my physics test get 14/15 . but then is like what the hell . i made mistake at mcq . so careless lohhs . thats why i always hate mcq . hmm , it seems that tomorrow i am going to take back my chemistry test . so nervous .

but it also depend whether i am going to school anot . siian narr . i hate to eat medicine but also no choice .

i miss him so much . <3

siimply feeling sick .

wahh . after tuition class , i am so tired . hahas .

having so much fun there with fiona and benny . hmm , seriously i don't like the new guy there . he is like so act 'dao' lohhs . out he go mans . saying things behind don't think i never hear anything .

well , i never go for training cos got tuition and i won't be able to come home if i go . hees .

the lessons today are quite ok . surprisingly i never sleep in geography class but sleep in english class . the weather in the morning till afternoon is so breezy . hees . a good weather for people to sleep , especially i am sitting near the windows .

hmm , today never get back the chemistry test . so sad mans . i wanna see my marks and mistakes though i know is not perfect score . i aim for more than 25 marks for chemistry and more than 12 for physics . they shouldn't have any mistake cos this 2 subjects are my best subjects .

okiies , i now got headache . may not be going to school tomorrow . depends .

siimply sick .

hmm , now is mignight lerhhs . just reach home . so tired . i want to sleep . wahahahas .

afternoon i meet steve and junyuan at downtown mac . but i reached there 1st so i went to find miao , yenling and jer . hahas . got people accompany me . hees .

then after steve came , he told me that they are going to esplanade . siian norhhs . i was wearing a shirt and shorts . ask me to go there . -_-

then junyuan overslept . we wait for him for quite sometime . after he came , we sit at mac for awhile then we headed to tampines . i was going home to change . hahas . no choice lahhs . i am a girl mahhs . hees .

at 1st i though something good will happen today , but i didn't know it is a disaster . when we were taking bus 291 on the way to the bus interchange , i was sitting behind the guys . guess what i saw . I SAW THE 'GIRL' SMS HIM .

some people will think that i am too sensitive and over reacting . but i just can't help it . my mood change suddenly and i feel like crying . i tired to contorl my tears cos i don't want to spoil the day .

in the train , i was sitting beside him . i nearly counldn't control my tears . but luckily i managed to . i was messaging miao , yenling and joey . i was stuck in between 2 decisions . the 2 ways that miao and yenling suggested was that i just get down and go home , if not , i just be happy and don't spoil the day .

though what yenling and miao told me something which is very right : why must you spoil the day and suffer like this ? why not just go home and take a rest . want to see him , ccan see him anytime .

i knew that they are right , but i just can't afford to miss a chance to be with him . even if i have to surpress my feelings , emotion to deep inside my heart . so i choose to continue with the journey .

i know that i'm very obvious that i'm in a very bad mood . i tired to control . but i don't think it work very well . =(

well , i ending up never get to watch the rock concert ( though i don't like it ) . it was too squeezy to squeeze in lerhhs . so i wait outside . we went to raffles city centre without iman and his friend .

steve was pretty pissed off with my mood swing . i'm sorry . i just can't help it .

after that we took train back to pasir ris . we decided to drink . i don't drink beer , only steve drink . so he just help me bought some hooch to share with yenling .

we meet yenling and jer at town park . hahas . steve don't know how to play a swing . =p

the floor is full of sand and i wearing HIGH HEELS ! hahas . no choice . we were playing see-saw . hahas . again , i saw him sms HER again . why so unlucky de . whenever his phone ring , you will know who reply him . i was very pissed off .

luckily jer and yenling is with me . we in the end went to pasir ris park to drink . hahas . not nearby the sea but on the bench . hahas .

steve open the beer with his mouth . then the glass don't know why break a little and hurt his lip . bleed so much that jer and i find it very scary . then junyuan went to buy tissue .

nothing much . jer never drink . only yenling and i drink niia . both of us drink one bottle each . hahas . so nice . =p

suddenly his phone ring again . then this time i was very pissed off . i raised my voice a little and say : can you stop smsing her ?

i know it is not up to me to say because now he got freedom . but i really don't like it . i am putting up with this for very long and i cannot pretend that i never see anymore . kinda of piss off you know .

but in the end steve told me that he was smsing with joey . i don't think all the way is lohhs . only for a short while is smsing joey . the other is not .nevermind. i will ask her later .

after awhile , jer and yenling went home 1st . now left with the 3 of us . nothing much lohhs . we went to interchange with steve as he wanna take bus 15 home . but then the last bus go lerhhs . so he took 21 with us .

nothing much . i was pretty quiet for the whole journey cos i was very tired already as it was already 11:30 plus .

well , i wanna go talk on phone with joey then steve for awhile before i sleep .

dear and steve .
so sorry that i show my temper today .
i promise that it won't happen the next time . =)
i just hope that i never see anything .
yes i am jealous , very jealous .
but what can i do but to swollow down everything deep inside me .
sorry guys .

siimply tired and pissed off .

hmm . i am so happy . just got my new phone . finally mans . hees .

few days never blog lerhhs . too tired . hees .

wahh . today the DnT class . the wood filled stuck in my fingernails . luckily i managed to clean it . so disgusting mans . hehes .

today seems like no lesson . the physics test is pretty easy . hahas . i got study wors . =p

then after school i went home . i never went for training . at clementi nehhs . so far lohhs . actually wanna go but then so many people don't wanna go then i also don't go lohhs .

is like only for 2 hours . go there confirm late one . surely train less than 2 hours . so no point going there and waste time . either i take my bags and go there go i go home put bag and take taxi . so troublesome lohhs . heard that adeline and vanessa spend $20+ for the taxi fares . so expensive .

the training for the past two days were at elias community centre . then is like so far away that i reached home at 8pm + whenever i got training . siian .

nothing much lahhs . tomorrow i will be going out but i cannot decide where to go . hope everything will be fine bahhs . hehes . =p

siimply happy . =)

well , again i am very tired after talking on phone with yenling and steve at night . hahas .

today my temper is pretty bad , though i never scold people . i get pissed off very easily especially at maths lesson . the suliha provoke me . i was very irritated and pissed off that i threw my textbook on floor hardly .

hmm , qiaoyan today also never come to school . SIAN narr .

wah , we get back the physics test today . stupid siia . i made 2 very careless mistake . another one is i not very sure of the answer . so in the end i get 12/15 . such a bad result . oh gosh . not top in class . qiaoyan and shafiq top . they got 14/15 . careless mans .

but nevermind . i will try to score perfect marks for tomorrow chemistry test and this friday's physics test . i cannot lose to other people especially aaron , shafiq and nelson . hahas . THE VICTORY IS MINE !! lols .

hmm , the lessons after recess are very boring . 2 geography class and then 1 period of english . i nearly fall asleep . siian . especially ms foong's class . i want to lesson , but i just can't help it . hahas .

then before self study period , i went up to the 4th storey to look for yenling to help me with my maths . if i never finish , i got to stay back . very difficult lohhs .

when i went up , i saw celestier and giselle outside the class . well , i don't understand why they have to stare at me everytime i walk pass them . i never do anything . i don't even wanna look at them , just that when i look around , i just nice turn my head and see them staring at me . is like what the hell .

i don't know what i do to them lahhs . every morning in the bus also like that . though i don't like them , i never stare at them , or rather don't even bother to look at them to prevent getting myself into some stupid trouble which i wanna avoid .

i hope that this can put to a stop lohhs . unless if i stare at the person , if not i will get pissed off with the person who stare at me . i stayed at 4th storey for more than half an hour . i got to put up with this nonsense . whats wrong with doing homework there ? i don't get it .

anyway , there is some question that yenling don't know how to do . hahas . i don't really expect from her cos her maths is pretty strong . then we asked junyuan how to do . unexpected , he also don't know how to do . hahas . this shows that suliha's worksheet is very hard till genius also cannot do . hahas .

but one more thing . don't know whether is it i too sensitive or not . when we asked him for help , he seems to be like very cold to us . maybe is i think to much but thats the feeling he gave me lohhs . i hope that is i think too much .

throughout the self-study period , i was chit chatting all this lohhs . want to sleep also cannot . after that i went home with joey .

she came to my house to use the pc . hahas . we are laughing like mad looking at the video clips . hahas .

meaning of peace and love . <3

siimply tired and pissed off .

hmm . i am so tired . hahas . it seems that i everyday also very tired . i nearly slept at english , maths , geography and chemistry class . imagine , chemistry is my favourite subject and i can fall asleep . hahas .

wah lao . the stupid ms tay . show attitute to us . very annoying lahhs . she teach till so boring lohhs . i don't like her . i will provoke and make her angry like mad . humphs . hahas .

siian lohhs . qiaoyan and yuanshan never come to school as one is grandma passed away and the other one got hospital appointment . luckily fiona and xinying keep me accompanied . hahas . i was so lonely lohhs . only got jonathan , weijie , jingming and reuben to talk in class . siian .

the whole day i was either sleeping or day dreaming . if not , i will be thinking about the things that i wonder in my mind . questions keeps on poping up that makes me keep on wondering about the answer and what do they imply or what they are trying to tell me .

hmm , after school i got nothing to do , i change my training to thursday cos i got tuition at 7 . i cannot make it on time if i go for training . so i went to find miaochan and yenling .

miaochan and i wait till yenling's lesson going to start lerhhs then go downtown east eat pizza with jonathan (not my class de . )

i walked pass him when i was going to the stairs there . hahas . i siao liiaos . hahas . yes , i put on a nice smile .

when we reached downtown east , then we found out that the pizza hut there don't offer student meal . sad mans . hahas . then we think very very long then we decided to eat KFC . we were talking for quite long lohhs . hahas .

then miaochan and i took bus back . hahas . she came to my house . think about 6 plus i went for tuition lerhhs .

i meet fiona at 6:50pm . but then the bus came late . very late till two bus 28 came at the same time . we waited for half an hour lohhs . siian . then we were late for 30 minutes .

after tuition , my teacher send me to tampines mart . i meet steve there . then went to miaochan's house to take the disc . hahas . he came to my house till about nearly 11pm then he went off to meet des to go home .

siian . tomorrow will be a very boring day cos 2 period of geography makes me feel like sleeping . hahas . bo bian narr .

hope that tomorrow qiaoyan and yuanshan got come so that i won't feel so lonely . i very ke lian de nehhs . hahas .

missing you .

siimply boring and tired .

hmm . i am kinda of tired . not enough of sleep . hahas .

actually intend to watch the next half of the world cup . but in the end i sleep like pig . hahas .

well , yesterday we cut the birthday cake . hehes . we cut to 7 parts and then the remaining small piece the brothers put on des face . hahas . lots of cream . then they took photos of him . hahas . so funny . like add on to his pimples . hahas .

the chocolate cake is very sweet . thats why i don't really like chocolate cake . i prefer strawberry shortcake . but too bad is not up to me to choose because is not my birthday . nevermind . in 6 month time is my 16th birthday . hahas .

but then see what they did to des arhhs . pretty scarry . now my next birthday is filled with excitement and FEARS !! hahas . they now even talked about how to play pranks on the next 2 brother' birthday , junyuan and iman . hahas .

i went into his room after eating the cake . well , there is something that upset me . he talked to celestier in msn right in front of me . it is his freedom but don't do in front of me .

yes , i cried again . i am a crybaby . why am i always crying because of small things ? think i am too sensitive lerhhs . i lie down on the bed and used the bolster to cover my face .

they asked me whether i wanna go out with them to buy things . i rejected them at 1st . then my sister lahhs . go tell them my habit of crying and one event when i hug miaochan and zhiyuan cry . stupid sehh .

end up he know lerhhs . i tried to lie to him that i got headache , but it don't works . since he asked me to go , i have no choice . i really cannot stop listening to him .

hmm , then we ate chicken wings . hahas . smell so nice and they are delicious . hahas . yum yum . but i eat a little niia . hahas .

nothing much happened afterwards . i fall asleep after i came back . only steve and junyuan stayed up to watch world cup while des and cheryl had fallen asleep . hahas .

today when i woke up , steve , des and cheryl went home lerhhs . left with my sister and i . i ate breakfast there . then take a short nap cos i am really very tired . play online game , then about 2pm , i went home lerhhs . though kinda of unnwilling . hahas .

now i am alone at home . SIANS . my sisters all went out with their friends and boyfriends . so lonely . hahas . think i will sleep early tonight cos tomorrow got school .

cheerful always . =)
a smile can change everything .

siimply having fun , tired .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESMOND !!

hmm , today i went out very early . wahh so tired nehhs . steve and des very bad . asked me to go out so early end up they went to junyuan's house at 1:35pm .

well , i was taking my nap at his house . very tired lohhs . if i know will end up like that , i should have went out at a later time . hahas .

something happened before they come and yesterday night . no need to and don't feel like talking about it . yes , i cried . yesterday night and today . i can't stop myself from crying though i know that i must be strong .

after they came , the 3 guys plus miaochan and i went to changi village to have our lunch . i only eat a dessert as i have no appetite .

my sisters came later . after that we went to the changi beach to enjoy sea breeze . well , i am really not in a very good mood . feeling sad and confused at the same time . thinking about why should i cry when he told me that ? thought i got something to tell him too ? i am weak .

then we girls were singing , enjoying sea breeze while the guys climb down the rocks and play at the shore . we are having so much fun !

after they climbed up , he is injured . a big big scar on his right leg . bleeding . oh my god . i was so terrified . i took out my tissue paper and wanted to help him but he reject it . i am so worry about him .

then we went to century square and des went to meet cheryl at east coast . i went to the arcade to play photohunt with zhiyuan and miaochan before we ate our dinner .

then we went separate ways from miaochan , zhiyuan and gangjie to buy a surprise cake for des . we are going to cut the cake later at junyuan's house . don't whether i will be going home anot .

well , the filrty diana is tagging along . just because iman is going . i don't know how many guys she wanna filrt with . shaun , shayne and iman . is like what the hell .

i am going to bathe and go to his house lerhhs . =)

ps : don't think it that way . people make mistakes . i know i have been repeating it . twice . i have learn my lessons and will not repeat it again . i know i am thick skin . but i just wanna ask for one last chance . and i mean it . last chance . i have to beg you for it . please .

siimply tired , confused with worries .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VANESSA !

hmm . today i woke up very early to meet rachael to eat breakfast at central . i am so tired .

today have the english speech thingy . we have to stand in front of whole class to talk about the topic that we have chosen . well , i was the fourth one . i cried before i went up . mrs ong allow me to skip one person .

after lingle , i went up , standing in front of everyone . in the end , i think that i couldn't make it . i cried in front of the whole class . is not that i got stage fright but i got fears of speaking proper english speech in front of everyone . so mrs ong gave me a previlage of choosing when to start .

i went up after seekhei . well , though my speech was really damn short , but i managed to make it . all thank to everyone's encouragement , especially the chinese girls and mrs ong .

well , i was slacking at DnT class . aaron was doing part of the job for me . thanks aaron for your help . i think the workpiece is almost done after i put the wood filled .

after recess was physics but mrs koh never come , so mrs ong took over the 2 periods . the test , i have made some really very stupid mistake . there goes my 1.5 marks . so sad siia . intend to get full marks end up never get . i must score well for my chemistry test which is on next wednesday . hahas .

i meet miaochan and yenling after school . they wanna come to my house but yenling went home to change and miaochan follow her . so i went back with my sisters .

well , the bus was filled with many people . hahas . my sisters didn't board up the bus ; they were talking to gerald and gawaine .

after they reached home , we went to tampines mart mac to meet yenling and miaochan . then we were talking and eating our lunch . my sister told me what gawaine had told her . it makes me so angry with it .

if you don't like to see what i write on my blog , SCRAM OFF ! don't make stupid comments to other people . this is MY BLOG and i got the freedom to write what i want . if you not happy , come and tell me . don't tell gawaine all this shit . i will put my password on this blog soon .

siimply emotional .

finally i change my blogskin . this time is i edited on my own . of course , lihui give me some help to move my entries all this . thanks gurl . =)

well , today is the most tedious day of the week , because after recess the 4 lessons are all humanites . the 2 periods before the school ends is geography . want to sleep also cannot . later the old hag nags again .

wah , today my chinese teacher keeps on talking till we are late for PE and i cannot see him . so sad . his PE lesson is before mine . but anyway i did saw him walking to 4/6 while i was lining up outside my class . hahas .

the PE lesson is pretty stupid . it was in the hall because today rain heavily outside mahhs . then was like we got to do sit up , roll on the floor . pretty stupid lohhs . so embarrassing siia .

hmm , then after recess we went back to class straight away . the lesson was history . we cut away the string which pull the screen , switch off the electicity socket and pull out one cable from the projector . but too bad the cable cannot do anything . next time we will lock her outside with the broom and pluck out the other cable . hahas .

geography lesson was very boring . i nearly fell asleep . but luckily jonathan , reuben and qiaoyan keep me awake by saying that imagine ms foong wearing bikini at the hawaii beach . wah lao . damn funny lohhs . i was laughing as if i came out from hougang chalet . hahas .

after school i go straight home , alone cos my sister got training . siian narr . but then i got some peace lahhs . hahas .

hmm , finally by the end of this week i can get my W700i . i wait for very long lohhs . soon lerhhs . hees .

anyway , i hope that i tomorrow can see him during his recess while i am in the DnT workshop . last week i am also looking at him just that he never realised . hahas . really miss him alot . i wonder if he know .

my dear .
i am wondering what are you thinking all this time .
i love you ; i believe that miracle will happen on us .
don't close your heart .
when you need me , i will always be there for you .
watashi wa anata no aishiteru . <3

siimply wondering .

today i am quite tired . yesterday don't why cannot sleep . my mind was very tired but my eyes couldn't close . hahas .

i today slept at ms foong's class . boring + tired . i cannot resist the tempting of sleeping . other people fell asleep too . typical behaviour in ms foong's class .

wahh . the suliha very what siia . nag here and there . we are not kindergarden kids lohhs . i was talking to qiaoyan for the whole 2 periods . i don't care about her lesson cos she keep on repeating . i rather learn on my own then listen . then she sort of very act and ask whether we got problems . she likes to pick on the four of us : qiaoyan , reuben , jonathan and myself .

physics class is pretty fun . the whole class look at the molecule animation and we laughed like mad because nazirul was thinking of something . hahas .

well , the new south wales maths paper is pretty easy , except for some behind which is very complicated and i don't have enough time to finish . hahas .

i go home straight after the paper cos i have no training . so tired . i slept for more than 4 hrs of nap before i eat my dinner . hahas .

hmm , today i saw him . twice . one is when i was in the bus on the way to school , i saw him walking . the other one is after assembly . hahas . i took so much notice . =p

he seems to fall sick . msn nick put that he got headache . i wonder whether he feels better anot . asked him on msn , he is just playing a fool like a very kawaii innocent boy . hahas . anyway , i am still kinda of worry though i have told him to eat medicine all this .

hope he feels better bahhs . but then still worry about him lehhs . don't know why he keeps on falling sick .

i wonder .
my dear , how are you feeling ?
i hope that you are ok now .
i will pray for you .
loving you , always .

siimply worrying about him .

hmm . today i woke up late again . about nearly 2pm then i wake up . i am so tired . hees .

actually i can sleep longer but steve woke me up by calling me many times . SIIANS narr . hahas .

steve , des and cheryl came to my house . too bad he was not here . he went out with his classmates according to des . nevermind . i can see him the next time . hahas .

my sister went out with joseph . the house only left with diana and myself . luckily she never picks up a fight with me . =p

my dad just bought me a thumb drive . hehes . tranfering things right now . hahas .

tomorrow got school nehhs . ms foong and suliha's class some more . siian narr . i hate maths . curse mans . i don't like suliha too . hahas .

i will sleep in her class for sure . she really seems like teaching kindergarden kids . but too bad we are not .

tomorrow can rest early cos no training . hehes . good mans .

i really miss him alot . hope that tomorrow i will get the chance to see him . hehes . i abit too obssesed lerhhs . =x

my dear ,
i really miss you alot .
what are you doing now ?
i wonder .
take care my love .
i love you . <3

siimply feeling boring .

wow . i today nearly 4pm then i wake up . hahas . i sleep like pig mans .

yesterday night i went to HIS house to watch world cup with steve , des and my sisters .

he asked me whether yesterday i was the one at bugis . i told him yes i am and i walked pass him about 3 to 4 times . just that he never realised .

well anyway , i was reading my comic book while we were waiting for him to finish his game to watch the match . the 1st match ends at 1:30am .

after that i was sitting at the corner of HIS bed , hugging HIS garfield pillow like what i always did last time , reading my comics . i can't change my habit i think . hahas . there was something that caught my attention .

i saw a keychain with his name and a blue amulet there . thats the thing that i gave him in one occasion and i pray at a shrine in japan for him respectively . actually i don't really remember about the keychain at 1st . i was only searching for the amulet to see where his place it since i never go to his house after we broke up .

i was so happy that those things were still with him except for the dolphin , pooh bear and tigger . i knew where they were . with des and steve . i knew it long ago .the photos we took , he seal it tightly . haiz . i knew all these things long ago . it hurts .

anyway , i fell alseep therefore i never get to watch the later match . hahas . too tired already .

i took the 1st bus home with steve . though i am kinda of unwilling leave . i really miss him . haiz . at least the amulet was there . thanks god . =)

i skipped my piano and chemistry tuition class as i am too tired . sleepy . don't think that i am going for tomorrow's training which is at clementi . too early lerhhs .

thanks god .
at least you never give or keep the amulet that i have prayed for you .
the pair of amulets is never to be separated .
i feel better now .
i will always love you .

siimply tired .

hmm . i just come back from bugis . i go there with qiaoyan and yuanshan as we go dunman high for the chinese knowledge competition .

well , the paper was pretty okiies though some i never see before . yuanshan is the last one to come out . hahas . she took such a long time . there are many people there . JC and primary school students .

oh ya . i saw one of my primary school teacher . though he never teach me before , i can reconize him . hahas . then after the thing we took taxi , teacher sent us to the MRT station .

then we take MRT to bugis . when we alighted , too many people at the escalator so the 3 of us went to the other side to go up . i saw HIM . i was pretty shocked . he is with his friends and she is there too . i don't know how to react . i am just too shocked lerhhs .

my heart nearly jumped out of my mouth and i was pretty confused . i feel hurt . i don't know why . i walked very fast . i can't control myself . too agitated to think of what to do but to walk fast to avoid them . don't think he got saw me bahhs .

i tried not to think of it . then we headed to eat strudel . it was so NICE . hahas . then we shop around . i only buy 2 clips and one very nice box . qiaoyan also bought one . hahas . actually still wanna buy lip gloss and bag , but then i never bring enough money . hahas .

then we went to bugis street . shop for bags . then i suddenly got one very bad feeling . a instinct that something bad will happen later . i was shopping with a heavy thought . i don't know what will happen .

then when i was walking to a shop to see bags . my bad feeling getting stronger . when i walked out of the shop , i saw them . face to face . i don't why but i just simply feel hurt . i cannot breathe . i feel sour and bitter taste in me . i told qiaoyan and yuanshan that i am not feeling well then we get out of bugis street .

haiz . i am weak isn't it ? small things also cannot put up with . i nearly cried . but i didn't . i wanted to see him , but not with his bunch of friends . haiz . nevermind .

after shopping for a while , we went back . i am so tired cos yesterday only sleep for about 6 hours . so tired . hahas .

now i am waiting for the results of the competition . nervous mans .

i am confused , weak , useless .
i felt some jealousy between me .
my heart hurts like a knife stabbing through it .
what are you thinking ?
i wanna know .
i love you . always .

siimply SHOCKED .