a few days never blog lerhhs . very tired .

today is a very sucky day . know why ? cos about 3/4 of the class didn't queue up at parade ground after recess and we were punished to run 10 rounds . though we only ran about 4 rounds , we were quite tired . sorry to qiuhui that i accidentally trip you and fall . i am so sorry about that . >.<

something very unfair was people from 4/5 , who are not art students and yet stayed in class , didn't get punished . whatever . laughed all you people want . forget about it . no point getting angry for those things .

but seriously , why recess must go down ? during rainy days and lunch break , we also go up like this . what is the difference when we go up during recess ? it makes no difference lohhs . stupid sehhs . i understand the rationale but then if want us to always go down , then make it the same for lunch break and rainy day . stupid .

today's english paper is quite easy to understand but questions got a little difficult . but overall is still alright . however mr neo's screaming and the guzheng's sound are quite distracting when you are reading the passage . crap sehhs . make me re-read so many times .

tomorrow is history paper . hopefully it will be simple like what mr azhar says . i am almost done with studying the 2 chapters . yawn yawn . i am so tired .

i miss you so much .

study hard for the aim .

today , i didn't go out . i stayed at home to watch kindaichi shounen no jikenbo . the stories and plot are very good . i loved the show .

now , at 10:47pm , tears rolled down my eyes . why ? between 15 to 20 mintues ago , i received a phone call from my mummy .

she said , "have you email him ? can you tell him that i am so troubled with many things ? i can't call him as long distance call is really very expensive . he didn't call me at all so i can't tell him all my problems . i really have many problems to tell him but just very difficult to get through him . so i have no choice but to ask you to help me . "

she continued , "tell him that recently i get the health report from the hospital and the report says that virus is detected in my stomach . (i am not sure which part alright . ) if the virus is not cure , it may lead to cancer . hence , i will be going to hospital very often . this is why we really need money . "

tears filled my eyes . i don't know what to say . cancer ? this is very serious . i don't know what if something happen to my one and only mummy . i am so confused right now .

she added on , "now we are waiting for the news whether we can buy the house at sengkang . we really need more money so we have no choice . tell him that is not that i don't want to call him . everytime i wanna know how is he and whether is he safe in japan . but the long distance call is really too expensive . i cannot ask him . so you must help me convey this message to him . "

i don't know what to say . i am very troubled that now . worrying about my mum and myself . i am just very afraid if something happened to my mum . myself ? results , relationship and family of cos . my sisters sometimes really give lots of trouble to mummy . i am studying real hard just to get into Tampines Junior College . why ? because of the one i love , care .

my dear , where in the world you are and what you are really thinking ? i don't know anymore . it has been nearly a month since the last time i see you . you become very cold towards me . why ? where are you when i am so troubled ? i need you more than anyone . you understand me more than anyone . why can't you be around and at least give me a big hug and comfort me ? i may have my 3 best sisters but sometimes it is hard to tell them but for them to read all this .

i have to admit that sometimes commit suicide , this damn stupid idiot floats in my mind when i am down . if it is not because of you , my dearest family and friend , i really don't know what will happen to me . i always remember and keep the promise of not doing anything foolish . and i did .

things happen around me so suddenly that i don't know what and how to react . studying has already contribute so much stress to me and yet many things pop up in one go . why can't all this stuffs stop ?

i am always telling myself to be strong , not only for myself , but for the people whom i care . dear , i am really very tired of all this things . i am hanging on very hard . even we won't be together again as a lovely couple , lend me your shoulder to hang on and cry . this is what i really ask for . you know everything about my family , better than anyone do , isn't it ? but why you are so cold to me ?

i know , when someone is hurt , the person will try to avoid to be hurt again . not to be mention , i have hurt you many times . if the word sorry can cure , what are the police for ? but i just hope that you can stand by me . that's is all for today . i am very tired right now .

depressed and tired of everything .

finally , today is FRIDAY ! hahas .

i am so tired after studying everyday till very late .

well , nothing much . just that the rainy season affects my mood . i may be hyper or cranky . it depends .

yesterday , i was rather gloomy cos of the damn chemistry paper . i wonder who the hell set it . curse the person . suddenly ask how to count the number of carbon dioxide molecules . see lahhs . 65 minus 1 lerhhs narr . what if i didn't get above 60 . crap mans . guess what's the answer . it is the mole of the gas multiply by 6.02 x 10^23 . =/

the english paper 1 , section 2 is totally crap . i don't even know how the hell i should write the thing . nevermind . it is over .

however , today i am quite happy . why ? because the maths paper 2 is anglican high's 2006 prelim paper 2 . yan , shan , xinying and i just did some of those questions before the exam started . aaron also gain something when he taught us the question .

actually both aaron and yan said that most probably , the school won't give us AHS paper as we can just do it since we know paper 1 is from AHS . but just do lohhs . i said , "unless the school is very stupid and we are lucky , it will come out . " , and it did !

but i just wanna clarify to some of the people who seems to be not happy that the few of us have done the questions before the exams . we only did the 1st three questions and question 5 . but that doesn't mean we memorized the answers for the back . there are a handful of question that i can't solve . less than 5 bahhs . i just wanna say that you all not happy , keep quiet . we are just simply overjoy and that's all . we don't mean to act as if we are showing off .

i am very tired . yawn . if i managed to wake up later , i will start to study some of the things for geography and history . since next tuesday is english paper 2 .

i miss you so much .

study hard but too tired .

this morning , i was very angry that i shouted in class . that fcuker . say till very pissed . don't know why mr loh don't want to change his place and change jon's seat instead . knn .

anyway , today's papers are quite alright . for SS , i managed to finish 5 minutes before to check the answer . for maths , I CAN'T BELIEVE IT IS ANGLICAN HIGH'S PRELIM PAPER ! wtf . the questions are exactly the same . oh crap .

oh ya . thanks yuanshan for the cake . there is a present but i don't know is given by who . LOL . either one of the girls or maybe all .

tomorrow , there is chemistry and english paper 1 . got to study for it . of cos , i must practice most of the paper 2 questions liaos . if later it come out the school papers which i have in my hands and yet i never do , then i must go knock my head lerhhs .

tomorrow will be a long day . siians narr .

ahhh . i miss you so much .
i want to see your face . lols .
smiley !

oh the crappy stuffs happened around me . oh damn .

today , i never go to school cos my adominal hurts .

i went to polyclinic to see doctor . oh crap . so many people there . i think i was there for at least 1 hour . >_<

oh damn . the medicine is in very big bottle . so big for wad ? not as if i am sick till no medicine cannot survive . LOL .

i went to mac . my cousin was absolutely late . haven't he heard of people can wait for me but i don't wait for people ? LOL . just kidding . but i am really like that . if he is not my favourite cousin , i surely blast at him . hahas .

one unlucky thing happen to me . when i bend down to pick up something , i knocked my head against that damn table's edge . now my poor head got one bump on it . until now , it still hurts . MUMMY !! hahas .

my cousin just went back and now i am all alone . sob sob . no one at home but to study at mac . siians . tomorrow there is ss and maths paper .

oh ya . i remember something . i don't wish to mention the name . but i just wanna say don't call me for nothing . when i asked you call me for what , you better answer my question . if not you better watch out . don't lie to people when you INDEED have called me yesterday . there is call register to prove it . say two sided things to yuanshan and xinying . don't be lame . call me just admit . don't be so fcuk up lahhs .

i miss you so much .

busying studying right now ; kinda of pissed off .

left : shan , myself and yan . acting emo . right : yan , aaron and myself .

left : weijie . taken by jingzhe . right : jingzhe . pointing middle fingers .


both : qiaoyan's sixteenth birthday cake . prepared by aaron .


left : jingzhe . eating with satay sticks . right : yan serve the cake for weijie (=


both :weijie and aaron . right : weijie holding yan's remaining cake and look at aaron pretending to read harry potter's latest book . LOL .



left : shan and yan . trying to take picture of either weijie or jingzhe . right : aaron and jingzhe . eating the delicious food .


left : weijie , looking at the birthday cake . right : yan , waiting for her to say her birthday wishes .


left : yan . with aaron's hand trying to take the photo . right : weijie .



left : yan , giving the strawberry on her cake to the others . right : weijie , smiling and eating the birthday cake .


left : shan and jingzhe . hehes . right : yan and aaron , playing games .

Myself ! with the newly bought shades . nice ? (=

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QIAOYAN !

everyone send her the message that she send to yuanshan a week ago back to her . the content is "pretty , happy 16th birthday . finally you can have sex legally . " hahas . she said that she is trying to be creative . hahas .

i meet yan and shan at tampines platform , going to orchard to buy things . we walked around at far east , waiting for the guys to come . yan bought 2 belts and i have bought a shade . it is very nice . hahas . i saw some clothes very nice but i didn't bring enough money with me . siians .

we meet the guys outside CK Tang . we were on our way to watch movie at cineleisure . after discussing for awhile , we have decided to watch harry potter .

well , the show is alright . not as nice as the previous ones but not as worst like other people have told me .

we met jingzhe afterwards . he is very blur . if i tell you to cross 2 times at the cross junction , regardless which side you cross , you will still reach at the same destination right ? despite telling him for many times , he still don't get it . hahas .

we went to clark quay to the hotel where aaron's father is working at . it is above liang court . the place is very nice . hahas . the food is very nice too . best of all is the chocolate fondue . very nice . the chocolate fountain amazed me . hahas .

we took a number of photos , chatting and eating . finally , here comes the cake . oreo cheesecake . it is very sweet but quite nice . hahas . we sang birthday songs and asking her to say 2 out of her 3 wishes . LOL .

after eating , we went to walk around clark quay , taking some photos and played around . we went back after that . oh ya . the turkish ice cream is really very nice .

anyway , we are very tired but it is a very fun day . hopefully after today's celebration , the relationship between our two 'starcross lovers' will get better . we are friends and should treat each other like one . (=

tomorrow will be xinying's birthday . hahas .

i miss you so much .

how long has it been since the last time i see you ?

nearly a month , i think .

hope that i can see you pretty soon .

a very memorable and happy day .

right : me and xinying . taken by ME ! left : same people . taken by xinying . (=


Both pictures : qiaoyan . taken by ME ! left : reading the book till so engross . right : covering the face , showing 'what the fuck' sign . xp


left : jingzhe , trying to take my pics . right : xinying , tying her hair . both are taken by ME !!

ok . enough of stupid photos . yesterday i didn't blog cos i was too tired . yawn . slept for 13 hours . hahas . maybe was because of the cooling weather which is ideal for sleeping . hahas .

today , i am so bored . i think i will fail my darn maths test with 7 marks lost cos yesterday sleep in class due to the temptation of the cooling weather that make me sleep and one question don't know how to do . shucks .

i remember something . that stupid mr loh seems like doesn't want to change the damn seats of the four guys . darn it . make me in english class like so grumpy that even mdm kamisah can see . arghhh . i just hate to sit there . by all means , i will separate all of them , better still if he don't sit beside me .

i got back my stupid formula test . darn it . it is just careless . i got 19/22 overall . A1 i think .

oh ya . during physics lesson , jon's name was read as 'fonnaton' . we really laughed like hell . guess the teacher can't read his nice cursive word . 1 more thing . from his handwriting , we concluded that all physics teachers' handwriting are untidy . it is just that who's handwriting is messier . LOL .

during PE lessons , caline's face was hit by the ball accidentally . it is no one's fault anyway . hope that she is ok now . my face also kena but not as bad as caline , maybe because i didn't wear specs during PE lesson .

anyway , sometimes i find people very extra . this does not refer to the anyone playing in captain ball but people who supposed to run 2.4km but didn't and yet block people's way when people were running .

oh please . don't do that lahhs . the time that you block people , people waste the time that they can pass the run to avoid you . don't be a statue there to pace people . cannot run , just sit aside and rest .

i miss you so much .
however , absence make hearts grow fonder .

feeling very dizzy ...

ME ! wearing my mum's sunglasses . (=

today is BLACK HEARTS HIME OFFICIALLY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY !!

today , i got very pissed off with many things . but more of things that happened this morning . people who are close to me , you will know what the hell it is . it just spoil my entire day's mood .

i got back the maths tests that we took in previous weeks .
mensuration : 12/16 A1
algebra :15/25 B4

well , i am not sastified with these crappy results as they are all careless mistakes .

i went off when the lunch break has ended . when i looked for mr loh to sign the form , i told him about the sitting arrangement problems . i have no choice but to complain about the changing of seats between jingzhe and jon . sorry to the both of them . i have no choice .

i went to see doctor . the doctor said that it may be skin sensitive , hives or don't know what disease . but suspected is hives . i was given tablets and cream . hahas .

mum fetched me from there and she went to fetch uncle home before we went to AMK HUB for yoga . aunt eunice got go too . nothing much . just the usual spliting in the yoga class . =/

oh ya . today i collected the clothes from my aunt . there are many mistakes , all thanks to my blurry eyes that see wrong things . got 2 wrong clothes due to wrong code . i will be selling them asap . but thankfully , others have no problems .

luckily my aunt changes the clothes' code to be simpler for me to take note of . if not , like the long long code , i will become --> @_@

tomorrow will be a damn long day . so boring . but thanks goodness that there is no test tomorrow .

hope that tomorrow don't have those crappy things that provoke me . i am losing my temper sooner or later . it will blast off like volcano eruption .

got to sleep now . yawning .

i miss you terribly .
when will be the next time i will be seeing you ?


bad mood days with terrible temper .

both pictures are taken by me at swensen after the 6 of us finish the 'earthquake' . (=

this morning , i didn't come to school . all thanks to my beloved sisters who make my mum and i till very angry . headache arhhs .

i went to my mum's workplace so that i don't have to stay at home . it was boring though , sitting alone and stare at my history notes . LOL . i even dozed off .

in the afternoon , i went to school for GCE O level chinese listening . it was a total disaster . i got 2 question wrong for sure and there goes my 4 marks . wtf . anyway , i was in a very very very bad mood since saturday till today . all thanks to various events that took place that was getting on my nerves .

after that , the blackhearts hime sisters , priscilla and sabrina went to eat swensen for the blackhearts hime 1 year anniversary ! hahas . the way we ate the ice cream was indeed very funny .

qiaoyan , the glutton , ate many hotdogs . she just cannot get enough of them . later add on weight then she will know . muahahahaha .

anyway , i was pretty moody and depressed about certain things . i just can't accept the fact that the DSA TPJC set was only for the stupid performing arts . why not sports cca ? why not slightly like MJC , opening up the CCA audition . what the hell .

i nearly gave up everything . however , i didn't . all thanks to the my beloved friends , my dearest and my mum .

got to study for tomorrow's test . getting a little pissed off because something . bloody hell .

dear , thanks for your words .
i will trust my abilities more .
again , thanks !

i am absolutely in a terrible bad mood . don't mess around with me .

both pictures : jingsi , mandy , YeLun , me , pk and calene .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YUANSHAN !

today , i went to suntec to support Ye Lun for the teenage icon semi finals . i meet pk and her boyfriend first . anyway , the dinner with my friends is cancelled .

well , we went to look for Ye Lun first then we went to mac to grab something to eat . calene was late for about 1 hour plus . still asked pk not to be late . oh god . hahas .

we went up to the place and looked for Ye Lun , asking how to vote and stuffs . i must admit that he is very shuai . it is as if that got electric current when he looked at me . oh gosh . xp

anyway , we bought something to vote for him . i only fork out money and share cost with pk and calene and they took the products cos i can't use it . calene's friend buy things cost about $120 . he is damn rich .

well , we screamed and cheered loudly for Ye Lun when he sing . he sang quite well . but i guess he was too nervous that he cried after he finished performing .

when the results was out , everyone was so nervous . he was the last one to be mention to get into the finals . oh my god . you must be there and you will know why we were so nervous that jingsi and mandy cried . i was like praying so hard that he will get in and the host was trying to make us nervous .

anyway , CONGRATS MY FRIEND ! don't cry so much if not not handsome lerhhs . we , as your best friends , will always be there to support you . jiayou for the finals alright ? regardless of the results , you are always the champion in the eyes of your friends and family members .

after saying congrats and some hugging , we went off first as tomorrow there is o level chinese listening . jiayou to everyone .

i am so tired . must sleep early .

i miss you so much .


happy day !

this was taken by kendrick when it was my turn . xp


left :taken by jingzhe . they say i like that look like mafia . LOL . right : when jingzhe was trying to throw the ball . (=


left : kendrick . finally a shot ! right : jingzhe . trying to take a video of kendrick .


left: the 1st round's score . right : the colourful balls .


both : 2nd round's score .


left :jingzhe . act dao . right :wenying . act emo .

today , i went out in the morning to meet kendrick , jingzhe , fiona , wenying and nelson to play badminton .

i have to comment that the badminton court at kendrick's condo is fabulous . air conditioned and only got one court so that no one will interrupt .

we were having so much fun playing double and single matches . jingzhe was very funny by making some sound and falling down while playing . wenying is also very funny at the way he missed the hit . hahas .

fiona went back first . we played till about 12 plus then we went to east point to have our lunch . nelson went back so only left with the four of us . after that , kendrick went to tuition , wenying stayed there and loiter around , jingzhe went home and i just loitered at tampines mall cos i don't want to go home . it was all because of jeremy coming to my house till i can't go back .

in the end , i also never go to school due to this problem cos i cannot go home and bathe . sorry yuanshan that i ps you . next time let's go together !

after that , i meet wenying at safra , waiting for kendrick and jingzhe to come . we waited for very long till our turn to play pool . after that , the guys played the doll catching machine . then we played the table soccer . i didn't know it is so nice . i enjoyed myself though kendrick and i lost to the other two . LOL .

we waited for very long till our turn to play bowling . well , there were many funny things happened . for example , jingzhe fell when he was trying to throw the ball . really funny. best of all , he fell twice . LOL . well , i was very hyper that we joke around . LOL . you must really see the score then you will realised the funny part at the 2nd round . hahas .

after that , we went to bedok for dinner . luckily , kendrick know his way if not we are going to die of hunger . hahas . well , i just have to say that the uncle is very rude when talking to us and the other people . uncivilised people . arghh .

the food is very nice . yum yum . kendrick was very pissed off with some people when he accompanied wenying to look or herbal store . after i bought my dinner for my sisters , we took bus 17 back while wenying took other bus back .

when i reached home , jeremy was at my house . to avoid him , i left my sister's dinner on the table , finding some excuses to go out and i just went to the stairs in between 9 and 10th floor . i was 'enjoying' the damn cold breeze , sitting at the stairs and chatting with qiaoyan on the phone .

if she never answer my phone , i really going to cry .it is not that i don't have the key to go home , but is i can't go home . so i sat there for more than half an hour then go back . pathetic right ?

when i went back , my sisters say till he very poor thing and say how bad and thick skin i am . what the fuck .

"reject him if he says he like you but you don't have to avoid him ." one of them said .

well , it is not that he like me or what . but people like jeremy suddenly so close to you , must be nothing good . most probably have some motive or something . i don't know what so i have to be careful about him because this is jeremy that we are talking about .

i got so pissed so i just went to bathe straight away .

thanks for qiaoyan and kendrick for listening to my problems . you guys are indeed great friends . and of cos , hope that wenying's sore throat will recover , get well soon !

i have really enjoy myself despite being so pathetic when i went home .

tomorrow , i have to support YeLun for the teenage icon and to celebrate lisan and dimple korkor's birthday .

dear , i miss you so much .
how i wish that you are beside me ,
i wanna cry in your arms ,
with you embrace me and comfort me .

i love the day !

today , i am so bored .

i got back my test results .

history essay on war in pacific : 8/12 B3 .
geography MCQ on settlement and population : 14/20 A2 .

hahas . i just love my results . though more improvements can be made . yeah !

this morning , i was nearly late for school . thank goodness that i asked mum to alight me at side gate and i run as fast as possible . phew ! one more thing . mr loh is very kaobei . can't stand him .

during history lesson , the lesson was very tense . we wonder whether mr azhar was angry about the incident . luckily , he is not . (=

just now , i went to meet fion and went to white sand . we have lunch and went to shop for lisan and melissa's present . as for dimple kor kor , we decided to treat him dinner . hahas . it is very hard to buy guy's present .

tomorrow , i will be going to kendrick's place to play badminton with some of my classmate . after that i will be going to school for some geography 'tutorial' . LOL .

i must finished my homework and revised some humanities stuffs . too many things to memorized . >.<

studying hard for my aim !!

today , i find that mr loh is indeed very bias and kaobei . don't know why he likes to pick on qiaoyan . it is very obvious alright . everyone can see .

well , i would say that today serve him right . everytime DnT lesson , yuanshan and i will be sitting outside the room as inside is too dusty and noisy . just nice that mr ong walked pass , saw yuanshan , priscilla and i sitting outside .

he asked "why are you all sitting outside ? " we told him that is because we dropped art/DnT . he asked why isn't we sitting on the benches . i replyed that it will be very hard for us to write . "then why don't you all went up to study ?" he asked .

"MR LOH DOESN'T ALLOW ." we replyed . he asked whether we are confortable . yuanshan nodded her head but i shaked my head . so he went into the DnT room and talked to mr loh . hahas . it is impossible for him to say no .

in the end , he walked out and mr loh just smile widely nia and he will have to let us go to the canteen to study . yeah man ! while mr ong was inside the DnT room , we were sitting outside , laughing . he deserved it , after scolding qiaoyan for nothing .

today's maths test is a disaster . i think many people will failed . come out with the paper 2 questions with all the question's answers almost linked . one wrong means everything wrong , which means fail the paper . crap . forget it .

no PE today . we just took height and weight . oh damn it . my weight is increase by 1 kg . AHH !! i am going on diet sehhs . arghh .

i am so tired . i slept for the whole day , which means now is midnight lerhhs . hahas .

tomorrow will be meeting fion to buy lisan and dimple korkor's present . luckily , i carried most of my crappy stuffs home .

i miss you so much .
miss me ? hahas .

studying for prep exams .

today , i am so energetic cos i slept for more than 12 hours yesterday ! hahas . i was very tired yesterday . can't help it .

back to today . first of all , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CALINE ! (=

well , today's lessons are alright . nothing much bahhs . just that something happen during today's history remedial . anyway , it was no one's fault as it was unexpected . the remedial ended early as mr azhar has no mood to teach .

tomorrow , there is 2 tests . got to study later . of cos , must revisive the second time for SS book 3 . i am still deciding which 2 history and SS chapters to give up . headache lahhs .

oh ya . naruto shippuden is great . though i know the stories ahead lerhhs but it is still nice .

hope that tomorrow will be a better day .

i miss you so much .
sorry about the other day .
nevermind . i will just prove that i am better . results will show .
i just simply love you .

what a moody day !

today , school was kinda of boring . we stood outside the class for assembly for more than 15 minutes . no one wants to hear ong lai talking .

then the mr loh very kaobei . people at the right was talking so loudly yet he only pick only us . he is INDEED bias against us . in CME like purposely picking on us . what self centered . i think it is just about being fair . haven't he heard of 'ONE FOR ALL , ALL FOR ONE ' ? whatever . who wants to give a damn about him . chey .

well , i slept in the chinese listening practice when the radio was repeating the passages . hahas . i can't help it but it was very boring . today's chemistry test was a disaster . 3 marks was deducted . what the hell .

i will have to say that today's assembly was cool . the band is fabulous . hahas .

after school , yan and i went to white sand to eat swensen . we ordered the student meal which consist of a soup , side dish and sundae . side dish is fries and sundae is banana split . we ordered additional chicken bake rice .

end up , the things were too much for us to eat . we stuffed ourselves with the damn banana split . it almost felt like we were going to vomit anytime . we were damn bloated . LOL . next time we shall not order the bake rice . hahas .

ok . got to study for tomorrow test . siians . so many things to study .

i miss you so much . ahhhh !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DESMOND KOR KOR !

today , i am just staying at home revising maths . i was a little lost of concentration so i just focus and remember my aim . hahas . i finished quite 2 chapters within 2 hour plus . hopefully , i am able to finish this book by this coming week .

just now went out to have dinner . mummy brought us to beach road to eat steamboat . well , i just wanna comment that the waitress's attitude sucks . she just threw the wet tissue in front of us . poor service .

hmm . nothing much . just that the smoke keep on blowing at me . it makes my eyes very itchy and irritated my nose . i sneezed many times . >_<

but i didn't really eat much cos many food are seafood . crapp . so i just ate my things and study for tuesday's history test . siians . i don't like this chapter but still must learn . nevermind . i will still have to study . hahas .

mummy bought a strawberry strudel for us . too bad that there was only one left . so we have to share . it is very delicious . yum yum .

siians . tomorrow there is school . yawn . got to sleep early .

my dearest is a meanie meanie mean .

today , i went to singapore polytechnic open house . i meet aaron , weijie , chinkiat , joseph and junwei at tampines platform . only girl . >_<

well , the open house is only at the place near the entrance , not the whole school . we actually wanted to eat mac . we went very far , walking under the hot sun and guess what ? the mac is closed . in the end , we had to walk back .

before that we saw yuanshan and her friend . hahas . after that , we saw eugene teng . LOL . we just chat for awhile and decided where to go . jingzhe is right . half an hour can finish viewing the open house .

end up we decided to went to jurong . we ate at KFC . then we went to the arcade . we waited for sabrina and kendrick to come . finally , there is a girl to accompany me . LOL . we played some games there . very funny . a little girl can play the jamming game better than kendrick . hahas .

after that , we went to play pool . in the end , only sabrina , kendrick and i can play . the others haven't turn 16 so cannot play . so then went to play dota . hahas . it was very fun . we tried many funny ways to hit the ball . LOL .

we played for about one hour and we went back . in the train , we were very noisy cos we were trying to take each other's photo . LOL . then many people were looking at us , but who cares ? hahas . nothing much i guess .

everyone , except weijie and junwei , alighted at tampines . we went to the food court at tampines interchange . it was very funny there . chinkiat eating the tadpole like jelly and they joke around about it . hahas . after that , joseph and chinkiat were challanging each other . ehh , about who can endure laughter or something . the whole process was very funny as aaron and i was disturbing them .

i went home with sabrina and aaron . i am a little tired .

i miss you so much !

today , i am very tired . i fell asleep at mr azhar's class . i felt so guilty about it . supposed to work hard and yet i fell asleep . but i was indeed very tired after yesterday's run , oral and lessons .

oh ya . i was nearly late today . i missed the 6.50am bus as it came early . so my sister and i waited for the next bus which supposed to come in 15 minutes time . however , i waited for the bus for nearly half an hour . even mr ong said that the bus was late .

by the time we went in , the school started singing lerhhs . so when they finished singing , most of us quickly ran up . but who knows that they were going to sing another time , so we stopped at the staircase .

after that , i ran up . i saw lihui , michelle , yizhen and helena . suddenly , mr san asked us to come down . then we kept on mumbling . michelle and lihui walked in front and talked to mr san , who asked them why they were late . they said that they were not late cos they have already reached the 4th floor when they started the song . so in the end , he let us go . thanks to michelle and lihui .

yeah ! today there is no detention . (=

after school , qiaoyan and i went to white sand to have our lunch . we ate mac again . =x
we shopped around and then we went to century square and then tampines mall . i treat her those hokkaido food . they are very nice . yum yum . hahas .

i went to her house afterwards . i ate dinner at her house and went off .

tomorrow , i will be going to Singapore Polytechnic with Aaron , weijie , chinkiat and maybe qiaoyan . hahas . think tomorrow will be a fun day !

i am so tired ..

today is such an unlucky day for me . i was so pissed off today .

first , i was late for school for just 1 minute cos of the damn traffic jam . and there goes the mad dog barking . darn it . some 'bright' sun came and being such a KPO . whatever . who will give a damn about you .

i went back to class and cry . it seems like i am very tired of everything , YES EVERYTHING . everything is just simply sucks to the hell alright .

tomorrow i got that damn detention . waste my time . forget it .

then today's oral was disastrous . the topic was harder than yesterday's topic . the passage is rather hard too . haiya . whatever . over means over . i will just have to work hard for other thing .

after oral , i went up straight away . it was before 3 . i was chatting with ms foong outside 4/8 then suddenly mdm kamisah came up and scold me "you come up for what ? you are supposed to stay at the quarantine area till 3 . "

ms foong and mr shafie was like "you come up for what ? you must stay there till 3 ." then i just told her " huh ? what ?! i didn't know anything . we weren't inform anything about this . " it is not our fault anyway . the HOD of MT didn't say anything and i just get scolding in front of 4/8 . what the fuck .

end up i have to sit outside 5/1 with mr shafie and ms foong there . i only can go off at 3pm . whatever . i am just so pissed off with this .

after that i waited for sabrina and went for PE . i ran 2.4km . crap . i think i am still not fit enough to do such things . timing : 15.20+ minutes . this is the worst timing except for the sec 1 timing which was actually supposed to be the mock test .

i didn't get such timing before . i am not feeling well of cos . but then what i am pissed when people cheat while people tried so hard to finish the run . i overtook people alright and was just behind nizam , which means i supposedly to be second . but somehow there was a girl who cheat and probably ran less than 7 rounds . she just go off . is like what the hell . i mind as well just run 7 rounds and go off .

those people with that kind of cheating attitude is unforgiveable . people like xinying ran with effort and yet she didn't pass . if she just ran 7 rounds , she probably can pass for sure . that kind of people don't deserve to get good timing and pass . it is just a lie .

anyway , i wasn't feeling very well after running . walked till swaying here and there and nearly fall off the stairs . thanks sabrina and yuanshan for holding on to me .

nothing much . i just wanna rest and later do my homework .

very pissed off today . everything seems to be like a pile of shit .

today BHH girls took their oral , exclude me of course . they said that conversation quite hard . well , i don't know how they do but i find that kind of question is better than yesterday's question . tomorrow will be my turn , i have to jiayou .

haiiz . i don't know why today i am feeling so down . suddenly have the impression that i can't get into TPJC . i am still very pissed that i can't apply for DSA . why must it be performing arts ? i really have no where to go , really .

sometimes , i really feel like banging against the wall . thoughts like 'what if i didn't do well ?' , ' what if i didn't get into TPJC ?' and many more . they just keep on appearing in my mind . i just want to get in . more desire than anything else .

reasons ? people keep on asking me that .
first , it is definitely because of him . idiots also know that reason .
secondly , it is because i have only interested in 2 poly course .
third , i want to go to university without getting into the damn top 15% in whole singapore .
fourth , i just wanna study 2 years and get done with it .
fifth , the school is damn near to my house . i wouldn't want to travel to dover .
sixth , i just wanna make my parents proud .

but how ? even i am so motivated to study , i still get depressed about stuffs sometimes . results really affect my mood . i don't know what will happen to me if i don't get into TPJC .

what should i do ? i get so pissed , irritated and depressed on this stuffs . why other people can apply but i can't ? doshite !?!

i don't know what to say . will someone give me courage , patience and be my light to guide me through in these few months ? i really need that kind of person .

just feeling very depressed .

today the lessons are a little boring but overall , it is still ok for me so i didn't fall asleep . nothing much i guess . just that i fell asleep during chinese lesson whereby there was no teacher in class . but seriously the noise level is really hazadous . VERY noisy .

after school , qiaoyan , yuanshan and i went to downtown east to eat ben and jerry ice cream . we sat there and chat till about 5 plus before we went back .

today i wasn't in a very good mood . i just simply get irritated easily .

anyway , actually i was hoping that BHH girls can go to eat ben and jerry ice cream together on our aniversary . but my mum just called me and said that i have a skin centre appointment on that day . no choice . my skin just simply turn reddish even without eating seafood . siians .

oral is on thursday . oh god .

i want some care and concern from you .

time really fly pass very fast isn't it ? today is already the 1st of july . how many months towards the O level ? less than 4 months .

is there still time for me to work hard ? i hope so . from now onwards , or perhaps from june , 1 second is as important as everything . even it is one millisecond , it is still very important . i treasure everytime i have , as a student in secondary school and as well to be with my precious classmates .

towards my aim , i think i still didn't work hard enough . still got many things can be done .

ok . yesterday i didn't study at all . i was really very tired . a bad excuse but just can't help it . human beings need rest after all .

this morning , i went to church . i was too tired that i fall asleep when the pastor talks . but overall , i enjoy myself .

i went home and sleep till night . maybe i was really too tired after a week of studying for morning till evening . but for my aim , it worth my time and hardwork . i agreed totally with mr azhar that there is no such things as luck . it is still hardwork , hardwork and hardwork . things just simply don't drop down from the sky .

now is 15 minutes to 12 midnight . i am going to start studying after resting for so long since yesterday .

i miss you so much . give me strength and show me your smile . that is enough for the time being .

time goes by and i am a step closer to you .