Depressed + Sick

Credits: Derrick
Makeup/Wardrobe: Model's Own.

Monday & Tuesday
Depressed.
I totally didn't have any appetite at all. Imagine the moment I smelt food, I'll feel like vomiting.

Rest at home for the whole day due to my migraine problem till evening time. I went for my catwalk training, feeling light headed.

After that, I went to Dartssoul for the inter-pub game. I helped the team to play one game. Couldn't play much as I wasn't in a good state.

Keith came over to look for me after he ended his work.

Together with James, Aldric and Anthony, we went to boat quay area for supper. Being forced by Aldric and Keith, I only ate 3 mouth worth of food. SIGH ~

Not eating for more than 24 hours is really no kidding.

We went to drink & darts to play for awhile before going off. Supposed to go back home but ended up chatting with Keith and Aldric inside the Condo area where Aldric stays.

We chatted till morning and we headed out for breakfast.

This time, I managed to eat something - a proper meal.

After going home to wash up, Keith dragged me out to see doctor as he was worried how come my appetite became like that.

And I spent $71 after spending $80+ in September on medical fees. o(╥﹏╥)o


The scary amount of medicine (´∩｀。)

Slept after taking my migraine medicine.

My sister bought me chicken rice but I couldn't eat much. Only ate the chicken and a little bit of rice just to take medicine.

Talked on the phone and cried. 
This was the first time I've said sooooo much of my hidden feelings to someone.

This is just so depressing.


My cute little baby on my sisters' bed. 

Couldn't sleep for the whole night.
As I need to take medicine, I ordered McDonald's breakfast to eat.

Wednesday
Stayed at home and did nothing.
Probably, just crying. 

After midnight, Keith came over after he went to butter just to find me. We sat there and chatted for quite sometime. I had my first meal of the day. McDonald's breakfast.

Yesterday
I really don't know what else can I do.
Everything is just so depressing.

Those messages were hurtful...

Rejected Junius for the squadron dinner since I couldn't eat. No point wasting money. 

Rushed down to Far East Plaza and get my manicure and pedicure done for this week's pre judging. They just simply paint over my current nails.

After that, I went for waxing. I forgot that I'll need to pay for the 2nd instalment. Not enough money, so got to wait for my sisters to come and borrow from them. Yes, I know I'm forgetful. 

Met my mum and went to crystal jade for dinner. I didn't eat though. I just went ahead to take my heels at orchard plaza then went to the bus stop to meet mummy and my sisters.

Together, we went back home. I charged my phone, changed and went to meet Keith. Forced myself to eat, I had my 4th meal of the week so as to drink afterwards. 

We went to butter with his friends but we didn't stay for long. We left before we even started drinking because Chloe called.

Initially, my plan was to go Zirca to meet Chloe and Junius after drinking at butter. 
However, at that circumstance, I'll need to switch place. In return, I'll need to party again soon at butter because I owe Hayden one favour.

I went straight to Zirca. Thank goodness that I managed to get Keith in as well.

In the end, I was drinking at 2 tables; Chloe's side and JJ's side.

After drinking for the whole night, it was really 'drink, drank, drunk'. Keith sent both JJ and I back home after partying.

Today
Read something which pierce through my heart. It's hurtful. 

Tomorrow is my pre-judging and I really feel like drinking. I know it's not going to help but at least it's better than staying at home with the wild thoughts.

Too bad Keith was too sick and as his sister, I mustn't bring him out to drink any sooner.

After lots of hinting, I thought no one will ask me out.

In the end, he still text me and said if I want, I can join them. Pray hard that I can survive with not eating anything but just a granular bar. 

depressing.