Depressed

Here are the photos i grabbed from Terence's blog .

Terence , Ivan and I .


Yiwen , Terence , Ivan and I .


Edmund , Xin Wen , Goldie , Ninja , Yiwen and I .



Goldie , Jerome , Firmanto , Ivan , Terence and I .

Tuesday
I went to dear's house at noon . I ate my lunch before we go to a building somewhere near NUH .
Nowadays , the temperature screening is quite strict . If not , people will have to fill up particulars and paste sticker on themselves .

It's pretty good , at least people will have lesser chance of getting swine flu .

After dear's eyes screening , we went to SP for dinner . We ate Pizza and pasta . Dear was very angry with the woman who served us .

He asked her what is the orleans delight . Well , it's obvious a pasta as stated . Guess what she said ?

"It's a pasta lohhs"

She repeated the same thing , thought that we were damn strange to keep asking the same question over and over again .

After eating , we went to the library to print something . However , the desktop there seems to hate me that much that it rufused to log in . I ended up wasting time till the library closed .

All these while , i was thinking if i should go for cheerleading training , considering that i have competition on friday .

Though dear had asked me not to , i was too stubborn to listen .

I ended up hurting my feet and wrists . Till now , it still hurt . I probably cannot go for cheerleading for a month if they don't recover after MST .

I also got cramps , on my bum . Sometimes i think that they don't have a standard warm up that stretches all part of the body .

Whatever sports that you do , you should stretch everywhere , even though you might not use that muscles .

What i was quite pissed on that day was when everyone was practising hand stand , Jessica had cramps on her thigh .

However , she seems to be too afraid of the captain of giving everyone push up to let me help her to stretch her thigh .

It may cause muscle tear if it's not taken care of .

That's the reason why i not quite like the captain . Why people are so scared of him till neglect their physical body ?

and i got frightened by our president's fall , which she seems to hurt her neck .

Wednesday
I went to dear's house in the afternoon . I stayed there till evening , we went back to Tampines .

We went to print my things , then we looked for the kittens we saw days ago . However , they are gone . My sisters said that they saw them the day before . It's kind of sad not to see them at the bushes .

After that , we went home to put down the things and went to Pasir Ris Park to meet my sisters .

I wasn't very comfortable there as many people smoke . and i wasn't very happy with all the others didn't pay , except for my sisters , sofia and Colleen .

What's worse was one malay girl kept on BBQ-ing the chicken wings from afternoon till night and she kept on eating . She didn't pay anything lahhs .

and she took 4 chicken wings in one go without feeling embarassed . She and her friends wasted food . They even threw a half chicken wing which was half eaten , on the table .

I wonder if their parents teach them manners . No wonder the girl is so fat . The way she behaved explains her size .

I went back early as i have to go to Clementi early in the morning .

Yesterday
I woke up and travelled to Clementi Sports Hall . I reached there on time .

I went there to pass up my fencing license and indemnity form . I stayed there till noon and i went to have lunch with Samuel and Terence .

After that , i went to Dover to meet Edward to borrow a spare blade from him . I waited for more than half an hour then he came . Well , i can't make noise since he is doing me a favour .

I went to Yishun after that . I was spending my time talking to dear's mummy before taking a short nap . I was really tired .

That's all for yesterday .

Today
Ok , I am going to rant for all i care .

This morning , i woke up at 10:15am and i went to brush my teeth . Just right after i came out , Terence called me , saying that i should rush down to Clementi Sports Hall .

Who will expect that they changed the timing and i wasn't notify by anyone ? I only left 10 minutes . Even if i took a cab down , it's impossible to reach there by 10:30am . I need at least 20 minutes to reach there .

I was damn pissed off . I tried to ask Terence if he can help me to plea the people at the DT table . However , they can't as there weren't many fencers for the event .

So who should i blame for the this fault ? Terence said that he thought that Samuel will tell me about it .

At that instance , i was really furious of Samuel for his irresponsibility .

After a few minutes , Samuel called me . He said that he didn't know till at the moment . He didn't receive the email either . He asked me to go down to see if the poule will start later .

However , that will only happen if the event starts with another event , provided if there were many people fencing.

I called Joey and Dear , asking them don't bother to go down to Clementi . Both of them were shocked when i told them about it . They know how important i treat this particular competition .

I cried like mad . The worst senario that has ever happened to me was back in 2005 whereby i was withdraw from the competition a day before the actual event .

However , this is far more worse than the one back then . So who should i blame ? FS , Terence or Samuel ?

The SP fencing club's admin's communication should improve by a big steps .

All the assumptions should be taken away . If everybody assumes , it will be never ending . I wouldn't want anyone to have the same problem as me .

The other thing i was very upset with was because this year's National Juniors Championship , not many national fencers i know of will be fencing , all thanks to A level or over age .

They don't even know how depressed i was at the time . Saying sorry or paying me back my competition fees is not really what i wanted .

What i want was asking them to think why such things will happen .

I don't want them to apologies because they don't know how much they hurt me for this . They don't understand how hard i work , trying to get into national team .

In the past , i didn't get to join many competition . Partially because of my own ability , the biasness back then in PRCS and my health back in sec 4 . I lose out way too much .

Some people , whose name i don't feel like mentioning , said that i should not fence to get into national team , but to fence for fun .

But what's the point of fencing for fun and you didn't achieve anything ?

I feel that i am a failure . Whatever things i do , i don't excel in any of them . Be it running , fencing , piano or what-so-ever .

Even cheerleading , i don't think i am suitable for that . Whatever unhappy stuffs or disagreement to what the people do there , i can't voice out .

I didn't blame anyone for now , since i understand that SP is not yet affliated with FS and hence , Samuel would not have receive emails regarding any updates .

Till now , i am still feeling really depressed . I cried till my eyes are swollen .

People who have achieved something will never understand how i feel .

and i wasted my chance for not applying to work at communicasia 2009 . I didn't apply because i know i have competition .

depressed .

Training day .

Jessica loves to take photos xD


Stephanie , Zoe and Victoria .

The girls . (i forget one of the girl's name =.=)

Stephanie and I . I know my hair was ugly to tie up like that .

All the girls .

With me inside .

So who's leg is longer xD hahas .

2nd shot .

Stephanie and Jessica .

Zoe and Stephanie .

Stephanie and Jessica .

Stephanie and Victoria .

The 4 orange men .

This little boy wants to snatch the limelight . hahahaha .

Finally , a perfect one .

His turn to pose !

The 'Ah Beng's turn . xD

All the girls .

2nd shot .

3rd shot , with an extra converse shoe .

Ok , my body ache like hell . The aftermath of Physical training and running .

All thanks to my carelessness when alighting the bus . I sprained my ankle . It didn't really swollen but it hurts like hell .

That limits the number of things i can do . I still make myself to run 1.2km during fencing . If i know today's cheerleading training is PT , i wouldn't have attend .

Not that i hate PTs , but it just that my ankle and wrist can't take too much pressure, especially when i am competing on next Friday .

I still do some of the exercise , though i skipped some of them . Tears fell off when i was doing the circuit training . Not because of tiring but the pain on my ankle and wrist .

Hmmm , i am still considering whether should i attend the training on Tuesday . Since it's stunts training , i think it shouldn't hurt my ankle and wrist that much .

What should i do ? I don't want to lose out much . Haiz .

in dilemma

Mini Routine in school .

The girls .





Setting the mats .






Our towers , getting ready !

Packed up .

Group photo for Monday group .

The guys xD

The video for the rehearsal , taken with the help of Kathe .

This morning , i went to school with my sisters and cousin for the mini routine .

Overall , it's quite fun lahhs . I should have taken the video of the guys carried an audience up . It's very interesting . LOL .

After the performance , i went to Colleen's school to collect her report book on mummy's behalf . Something happened which i think it's preposterous .

One of her teacher , Ms Chin , yelled at her when Colleen was outside the staff room . After this ridiculous woman went inside the staff room , Colleen went out to use MY SISTER'S PHONE to call her form teacher .

This unreasonable woman came out and asked me in a very rude tone "Where is THAT GIRL ? She did something wrong and get scolding is it ?"

Of course , i stared at her and said 'Don't know' in a heck care tone . So she went out and looked for her . Guess what she said to Colleen ?

"I told you that handphone is not allow in school right ? Why you still use the phone in school ? DM is just inside . Better don't let him catch you . " She shouted rudely .

That instance , i was thinking that "hey , am i invisible ?

First of all , she is NOT using her phone . So what if DM came out ? Confiscate it ?" If that's the case , i will definitely find trouble to the principal office .

Such actions and attitudes are very ridiculous for a teacher to show . Yes , i may look like a student in the school , but that's is definitely NOT the way to talk to a random person .

This make it worse when i came to school as a guardian . The way she talks is very offensive .

I don't owe her anything for goodness sake .

I think her actions explain clearly why the students in the school have bad behaviours . This is an bad experience in Presbyterian High School .

I wonder is this what the school told the teachers to behave . Aren't teachers supposed to show an good example , portray an good image and uphold the school's name and reputation ?

Outsiders like me will give this impression: So this is how the school's teacher act , no wonder the students act that way .

How can a teacher disrespect the students ? To gain respect , mutual respect is very important . But people like this Ms Chin of Presbyterian High failed to realise this .

I cannot tolerate such attitudes . This shows that even though she is highly educated , but her actions and speech show otherwise .

Ok , end of this topic . I hope that i will never see this teacher again , if not be prepared to go to principal office or get a complain to MOE .

After collecting report book , i met dear at northpoint . Initially , i wanted to go to his house but since there were many people there , i decided not .

That's all about it .

tired .

A series of events .

Terence , Ivan and I .


Yan Xun , Jerome , Terence and I . POINTING MIDDLE FINGERS !


AHHHH STRESSS !!!


Hmmm , why Edmund covered his mouth ?


Ivan , Firmanto and Terence.


LOL . acting like spies or what ?


The 4 'Q's .


Xin Wen looked like this ---> (>.<)


Edmund and Xin Wen again .


Yi Wen was camwhoring xD


Guan Kiat with a twist and Edmund was making a face . LOL .



Dar dar was hugging my plastic bag .



"No ! I don't want to give you back !"

Me , with my shopping bag.

The products from the newly open Etude house . Other than the BB cream and 3 masks , rest of them are free gifts ((:

Etude house's BB cream .

Etude house new mineral BB cream (:

Dear's hand was disrupting my photo taking !!


The Aqua Sherbet miniatures.

My cute membership card !

Dear and I (:

It's me (:

The grand Cathey at Cathey Cineplax .

Our hands with new rings .

Our new rings from couples lab ((:

I looked nerdy with specs =.=

TWIST !

emo ? maybe .

The etude house opening .

Me , in front of the lovely balloons .

My old ring and present ring . Which one is nicer ?

Tuesday
It was a long day for me .

I don't know why Anthony kept on deducting marks in our CPPA practical . He seems to be crazy on that day =.=

I was so forgetful that i forgot to bring my safety pants for my cheerleading practice . My sisters brought it for me .

I cried at training . I cannot tahan people shoulder stand on me . It's really painful and usually girls' shoulder muscles are quite thin and vulnerable .

Though it has been a long time since i do vigrous , I still like certain PTs . All thanks to 赵教练 , most activities are not too challenging for me . Now i miss 赵教练's training .

Wednesday
Nothing much happened on that day except that it's a long day from 8am to 5pm with almost no break in between .

Other than that i did badly for my A&P Chem , all thanks to my careless mistake . I got 19.5/25 , which shouldn't be the case .

I can't believe i can write 0.045L to 0.45L , 10^-3 to 10^-4 and when finding moles of O2 , i divided by 16 instead of 32 =.=

Till now , i am very disappointed with myself . I never seems to be able to change my bad habit of being careless , ever since primary school till now . haiz ....

I went home and sleep straight away . I was very tired and so i sleep till i skipped my dinner for the day .

Yesterday
HAPPY 15TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY !!

I skipped CPPA . So i just went to school for MIP practical and cheerleading practice . I have a good sleep so i was pretty energetic (:

Training was alright , just that a little boring since we were doing the same thing over and over again . No choice , it's for the performance on the coming Monday .

PT makes my legs , or rather OUR LEGS , even more painful . Lack of exercises will cause all these problems when you go back to vigrous exercise straight away .

It's somehow like army training , though i think it's not neccessary to do all those army similar moves to train arm strength . There are other ways for sure .

Still , i love to train with everyone . The people are very nice .

Today
I was super duper tired since i only slept for 4 hours . I didn't take a nap in the train as i didn't complete my tutorial and i have to study for my test .

Well , i wasn't very good with graphs questions , be it physics , maths or even this , material in practice . I can't estimate how to draw the graphs for nuts .

I should be able to pass the test , but i won't be able to do well . Hopefully HoTA is lenient to give half marks for labelling the thing though i didn't read off from the graph .

After school , dear came to look for me . I skipped Anthony's extra lesson since i know what the chapters are about . We went to Plaza Singapura to buy our new rings and shopping .

We went to Cathay cineplax to get our tickets . All thanks to Colleen , we got 2 free tickets for terminator salvation . After that , we went back to Plaza Singapura to buy our rings .

Our rings are nice right ? It's pretty expensive but worth it (:

Oh ya , The first Etude House outlet is in town ! I was damn lucky to be there on the first day of the opening . They gave lots of free gifts even though you didn't buy anything much .

The opening celebration is till this Sunday , so go there asap !

I bought the mineral BB cream , which has the function of SPF 30/ PA+++ , anti-wrinkle , whitening , moisturising and many more . Paying 40bucks for so many functions definitely worth the money .

The packaging is really very cute and they somehow resemblance Anna Sui's packaging

The membership card for Etude is much more easier to get compared to Skin food . But i still prefer skin food's range of skincare products .

Ok back to the movie .

Overall , i give a rating of 7.5/10 . This one is not as detailed as the first two movies of the series .

It has been so long since i watched the first two movies , when i was 12 years old . LOL . It's kind of surprising that i can remember the storyline despite the genre of the movie .

Oh ya , Uncle Maurice was behind me during the movie . It's such a coincidence .

After the movie , dear and i went to Plaza Singapura for awhile before going back .

Today marks the day of the start of the school holiday . However , i got tons of things to do . It doesn't really seems like a holiday to me .

Ok , i got to sleep now .

WHERE IS MY HOLIDAY ?!